August 30, 2010

a regret event..

tadi gi giant nak beli some groceriess. masa nak balik kat kete tetiba ada ah so ni dtg dekat ngn kete. she say something which wasnt really clear but i think i can guess what she want. but instead of giving what i think she want, i say " ha?" ... and now she has to come near me.. and say "saya x cukup duit.. boleh mintak 3 ringgit".  and i hate what i did at that moment.. without a smile face... but with a face yg tergesa2, i open my handbag n grab 3 ringgit n pass to her. quickly i masuk kete and lock my door. And only then my sense come to work. For a person to put down their pride n asked for a money.. it already hard enough.. why i make it harder for them? what harm an auntie can do to me.. worst come to worst she just grabbed my handbag n i think i still can win the fight. i think it will brighten her more if at least i smile sincerely .. and she even wish me selamat hari raya...  i hate my self.. sometimes my sceptical are too extreme that i dont care people feeling... i wish i should have less prasangka buruk :(..

August 23, 2010

Ibu

sangat sedih .. n sgt terasaaa..