LAzy to write .. but wanna update something

life is like a box of jelly bean

Talking to my friends recently abt life. One of them said abt emptiness. How he can sometimes felt empty even there is ppl around. He said everyone experience emptiness and it's nothing wrong with that. I'm not sure if I ever experience emptiness and I'm not sure how actually it felt. But one thing Im sure i have an unknown feeling deep inside me which Im not sure what. There is time i felt i have not done enough yet. I still not satisfied with my life. Satisfied not in term of money (though saya pun tak la org kaya) or in term of how successful i am in my life. But more on .." ohh i have optimze 200% of my life doing something whixh gave me 2000% ROI" emm actually just a secure satisfaction feeling. Maybe I still looking for something. And i still not sure on what I'm looking for... emm I come across with a saying long time ago .. " Tiada manusia merasa gundah gulana jika ia tahu apa yang dicari". I think maybe true tapi bila pikir2 .. what actually im looking for?? Emmm tapi ekk kawan2 tak yah la risaukan saya sebab most of the time this feeling will be override and saya tak pernah really finish think why and what .. ahahahhaha.
My hsemate's fiance just come back from US. He brought back a bag of jelly bean. Nice wor .. got 50 different flavor/color.. and they got the illustration on the bag. The fun thing abt eat it .. is like solving a puzzle. when you can really got what u want from the bag rasa heaven nya .. Most of the time sure salah except for common taste kot sebab kaler dia dekat2
Dun you feel life is like a bag of jelly beans? There is lots of options .. and sometimes it looks the same but the end taste is different. You can't control what you pick though you already sure what you want. You might pick the wrong one and maybe a right one but anything that you pick .. is just a jelly bean. Enjoy it.. and continue your life. Do not afraid to have hope of getting a jelly bean that you want cause its where the excitement of eating the jelly bean.

* Im on MC today .. expected to have severe fever sebab kena virus infection tapi hari ni cam badan tak panas pun.. just slightly headache. camne tu??

Rosak - padam

mamai ...

i read an article abt demo held in KL on the increasing bill electric. emm .. tatau la bila baca2 tu kekadang i felt ashame with myself. There are lots of thing that sometime i do not agree but i dont have courage to raise it . I felt that what i say wont make a different which i think if everyone keep on thinking like this .. we wont achieve what we have now. Sometimes i do not raise up certain thing bcos im afraid i may think it wrong or it may not my right. I try my best to view from other ppl view which end up i have to cover what i think with what someone thinking. I guess it happen bcos i try to avoid any conflict and confrontation .... and actually i hate it.

~ Tangan kita terlalu kecil untuk menahan langit yang akan runtuh... but will we just sit and wait it to collapse???

Think tank

Recently i felt that i need to think about something .. but dunno what is it. emm but seems something keep bordering me .. i got this kind of feeling of .. hey .. something important u have not think yet .. think faster .. but as i think2 .. i dun have thing to think . weird aa .. maybe that the phenomena of getting "old" ..hahahahhah ... like ur brain got some background job which thinking nothing and trap in it. At the same time we will ignore what we suppose to think. Btw .. i saw one book in popular abt thinking nothing .. hahahhahah .. good arr .. i always thinking nothing.

i'll be taking one week off from my work. Tetiba dapat cuti terpijak for 5 days .. and my mum is here in penang. Planning to go somewhere to ease my mind .. looking forward for it ... hhahaaahah ( macam la keje berat sangat .. :p )

AF 4 just started. Last nite was the pre of prelude concert ..

"Life Is Wonderful"

emm .. i think the lyrics quite good...

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful

contract marriage

im quite shock when reading article abt this contract marriage and until now i'm not sure if it is real or not. The article mention abt contract marriage which berleluasa kat afganistan. It say that this contract marriage are allowed in Syiah but are not in Sunnah. For Sunnah, their view is contract marriage is only for sex while in Islam marriage is more than that. But for Syiah, contract marriage can help in a few things. For example when a guy doesn’t have enough money to get marriage, he can have a contract marriage with a woman to fulfill his need and the dowry will be less than normal marriage. Normally the dowry will proportional with the duration of the contract. And for woman, they can easily find someone to take care of them and the children for certain duration of time without have to go to prostitution. Both got their reason but for me i agree with Sunnah.. I view this contract marriage like trying to meghalalkan prostitution. For me, a marriage suppose to be a knot to tie husband and wife such that they will share the entire of life together.. share the happiness.. problem .. and each have their own responsibility. But if you know u will stay with your partner for like 2 month ... i dun think we willling to share everything .. to scarifice everything for the other. i feel it a bit unfair especially for woman ...

~ one step back does not mean you are a loser ....