kiss the A**

hahahaha ... i was laughing bila baca news ni...

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/4/11/nation/6034796&sec=nation

wonder how the boy got such idea... Anyway .. ironic nya .. the same boy if he got no Yang mulia, xkan dilayan utk buat lawatan.. x kan direspect sampai nak panggil state assembly.. wont get the privillege he got masa visit tu .. but yet because a letter, he was treated differently..

chase your dream

hari ni lepak ngn member kat jemputree. We talking2 .. and tetiba termasuk cete masa zaman sekolah. One of my friend yg gi US, dia cete la that she was lucky being chosen as her english wasnt that good back then. Tiba2 teringat zaman sekolah. Ppl who know me since sekolah sure ingat yg my english was very very bad. I can't speak english for conversation at all. ( ye la ni pun x le english berabuk but at least somebody can understand what i try to say in office). After trial, there are a lots of big2 company yg datang to my school cari candidate utk scholarship. As my trial result was ok so my name was on the interview list. Masa tu ada proton, esso, pnb, sime darby, telekom .. and many more. i attend those interview but as expected i didnt impress them at all. Ye la dah la senyap.. x pandai cakap lak. Really feel down masa tu. My "down" peak was when i got interview for petronas. Masa tu after SPM so the interview was held in Johor. Ada 5 org kot in each session n mix with other ppl. Apa lagi .. memang x bercakap la. I just ternganga tgk org cakap. I can't even think what to say. I really cry after that and rasa memang xde harapan nak blaja oversea. Anyway after SPM result keluar, I got a letter from Mara. They just introduce SPC and they selecting ppl utk program tu so they ask me to go for briefing. Masa tu aku dah dapat offer UTM. Deep down in my heart I want to further my study kat oversea tapi dek kerana pengalaman silam interview, i didnt go to the briefing. There are time that i'm asking .. what IF i go for the briefing but I always make excuses that UTM might be the best choice for me and masa tu dah bayar yuran UTM la .. Tiba2 hari ni it struck me that my BIG regret is for NOT trying to chase my dream. I got the opportunity but i back off before I even know the result sebab takut kan failure. It is no harm if I attend the briefing. I may not get in ( maybe the only girl yg x dapat) but at least I have try. I might still go to UTM but at least I went to UTM after i went through the SPC path.. but what I did i make a u turn.. :(. Looking back, I was like that all the time. Am I too vulnerable that I'm afraid of failure. What if i fail for the first, second, third or even zillionth time.. Am my pride is too high that it hurt to get a failure. I hope I can change and I really glad that I found my BIG regret today as I can't find any excuses of this regret... So I should not do it again as I know there is no excuses....

Blind side

emm sgt suke la cete blind side ni. Sedih n terharu. I wonder if i able to do like what Leigh Anne buat kat big Mike. Malas nak tulis summary so i copy & paste.. see it if you have time..

Based on the true story of Leigh Anne and Sean Tuohy who take in a homeless teenage African-American, Michael "Big Mike" Oher. Michael has no idea who is father is and his mother is a crack head. Michael has had little formal education and few skills to help him learn. Leigh Anne soon takes charge however, as is her nature, ensuring that the young man has every opportunity to succeed. When he expresses an interest in football, she goes all out to help him, including giving the coach a few ideas on how best to use Michael's skills. They not only provide him with a loving home, but hire a tutor to help him improve his grades to the point where he would qualify for an NCAA Division I athletic scholarship. Michael Oher was the first-round pick of the Baltimore Ravens in the 2009 NFL draft

contact lens

This few week, saya telah mentry pakai contact lens. Motif ? Sebab nak pakai sunglasses besar beli gi redang .. hahahah ( i loike my new sunglasses). Ye ..mcm poyokan .. but cita2 saya nak jadi vogue dalam masa 5 tahun ... ( uhhh ..tapi half year has gone tapi cam xde apa2 vogue d boom :( ). anyway masa gi kenduri kawan, aku pakai la contact lens tu n ada lah gambar yg diambik. I showed to my sis photo yg telah ku zoom ke bahagian muka.. tanya dia dia pelik x mata aku. Tau la kan.. beli org yg sokmo pakai spec tukar ke lense, we have the tendency of mata terjojol.. so my sister tgk n dia cakap.. ha ah.. pelik. mcm hidung k.mah nak terkuar.. she said .. weird but maybe after sometimes will be ok. then after tu dia dok belik gambar2 dalam kamera aku n said " emm.. adik rasa k.mah x yah risau mata k.mah weird .. i think perut k.mah lagi pelik... ppl will see your tummy more than your face." .. DANGGGGG... siott kan..

She who stranded in the airport

Yeah .. balik kg. I buy the ticket quite long time ago with just RM18 :). Murah kan... lebih murah dari bus. But my sister ada class until 5pm so terpaksa la membuang masa kat airport. Luckyly they dont have much shop in JB airport else terpaksa la membuang duit jugak. Tapi xpe, I have a few serious Korean drama utk dihabiskan .. else boleh gak mensurvey what thing to buy in US. Btw not I'm going to US but someone I know are going .. and the weird thing I plak yg lebih excited kan.

Sebenarnya tujuan utama aku memblog, selain dari tgh tunggu vlc download adalah utk mengumpat.. hehehhe .. in front of me ada family. 3 of them. parents and a son ( high school boy). Mak dia cakap non-stop sehhh.. dari aku duduk kat coffee bean ni sampai chicken pie dah nak abis .. mak dia bercakap je. Aku tgk ayah n anak dia senyap je .. mcm xde response je. at a point mcm rasa diorang dah boring plak.. boleh x? Curious aku nak tau apa yg diceritakan.. perlukah aku dok tepi dorang? I wonder .. adakah aku cam makcik tu bile dah tua? but I notice I talk a lot too...

Last 2 days keluar makan ngn member aku. So we are talking abt lots of thing and salah satunya pasal life was unfair. But somehow I dont think life was unfair. We just refuse to see at both side. Some ppl just see what they didnt have and what other ppl have while some just see what they have and what other ppl dont. Of course this cause the inbalance. Sometimes when we see a poor family and they have retarded son, kita akan pity to them.. rasa life wasnt unfair to them. But not many ppl know that the retarded son might give them some happiness that hard to explain by normal mind. Kat tempat kitorang mengajar, there is a dylexia kid. He was very slow but yet he the one yg left the most laugh among us. The one yg diperkatakan banyak and they one that motivate us to go again. Apa yg aku nak cakap, anything that happen in our life although theoritically we get less than other people, but there is always a hidden gift behind that. A lots of ppl yg masa kecik having difficulty in life either poor or broken family or less love etc, end up menjadi a better person bila dah besar. They learn to be more compassion , appreaciate thing, sensitive to others and high tolerate to others. Although there are some goes to stray path tapi mika2 tu adalah ppl who blame life was unfair. Who refuse to see what they actually have. Who just live in the past. We can't have a future without a past but yet we can't have a future either if we stay in the past.
Life works in its mystery sebab I felt human itself is a mystery creature. When same things happens to 2 different ppl, you can't exactly know what the end result for both of them as both will react differently.

2010 updates ...

i just like how 2010 start.... I been to swimming classs... yeahh . Although x pandai berenang lagi but i like the feeling. At least now I can jump in the pool without fear of having my head dlm air. Suka suka suka... With a few friends .. I start a jogging habit which sekarang just buat seminggu sekali sebab project peak & the swimming thing... So whats motivate me?? heheheh maybe hving a few friends yg into swimming and also into jogging. Furthermore ini adalah preparation utk gi ke redang... yeahhh .. redang here I come..

In the office plak, my old bos is leaving to US.. so maybe its a good time for me to make a move to different dept or even different company.. and my 5 years plan down to the road ( of course not politic or career).... Saya nak jadik VOGUE... hahahah boleh x? Anyway to achieve my vogue plan, I went to buy a few eye make up which actually just eyeliner & mascara.. tapi.. uhuhu sungguh sedih. The day I wearing it in the office, my colleague ask me if I'm sick because of my eyes... uhuhu boleh ke jadi vogue ni. Maybe I just not meant to .. hahahhahah.

Anyway .. i also found something that I want to do for my future.. I dont want to stuck in industry .. and i dont want to be lecturer either.. so i decided.... (drum rollls... ) i want to open my own pre-school. A pre-school that I have the freedom to paint the kids like my own kids... La ni i dah start teaching a few kids to read in our GBS project but it takes lots of effort to actually come out with the best way to approach kids. especially budak2 yg baru buat "A" satu baris dah xde mood.. I still thinking HOWTO make them interested .. and HOWTO not make me angry... hahahha.. I'm waving goodbye to 2009 which such a down year to me.. so many down thing happens at work, life, family and even love. I hope 2010 will brings a lots of up, spicy, juicy and looking forward for it... :).

**credit to a friend yg selalu motivate me utk try benda baru and experience the life.

Racist

i saw a status from sumai.. i think it really interesting. It has been really clear what has God told us .. but yet we are still divided... and like to be divided. Thing that wasn't in quran was more important than this ayat.

To thee We sent the Scripture in truth, confirming the scripture that came before it, and guarding it in safety: so judge between them by what Allah hath revealed, and follow not their vain desires, diverging from the Truth that hath come to thee. To each among you have we prescribed a law and an open way. If Allah had so willed, He would have made you a single people, but (His plan is) to test you in what He hath given you: so strive as in a race in all virtues. The goal of you all is to Allah. it is He that will show you the truth of the matters in which ye dispute 5:48