life

Went to office n work for like 2 hours, then headed for team's buffet lunch. continue with bowling. had a nice laugh with all the incident. went back home with no jam. did a 2.5km jog. n now i'm lazying under the breeze of wind thinking of nothing. what a nice n stress free day. hahahah. it will be better if it end with nice dinner. but i guess i'm asking to much isn't it?

Stalker!

I just realise that I have stalker!!! It not human but technology. When proudduck announce RM30 discount, I decide to use it on mini skirt. Planned to wear for oversea trip with my compression pant as wearing pants over pants seems a bit weirdo .. So that one day, i have been looking for mini skirt in fashionvalet and zalora. And  recently while browsing, i noticed i got lots of zalora advertisement and is all about mini skirt!!! They are watching me!! It scary isn't it?

Blessing in disguise?

I literally having bad hair day for a few days d... all blame to my attempt of re-learn swimming again. My hair feel like berus sabut. So just just now, after work I went to Guardian to find swimming shampoo. While looking for swimming shampoo, I saw Himalaya Shampoo. Rasa tempting nak try but if i buy both shampoo, my budget will burst.  Yeah both cost less than 50 but I  have RM900 bet deal with my buddies whereby we try to live with RM900 for this month - RM30 per day. So I texted them to ask if buying shampoo is consider in the deal or not. Being monster as they are + kiasu want to win, of course la they said yes hv to count... :( so I have to made my decision. I sit there for a near half an hour reading reviews, looking at the price and keep on swapping shampoo in my hand. Finally i  decide to just buy the Aqua Swim as that was my original intention.  After dinner, I still x puas with my  hair because I feel like sticky2. My Aqua Swim I left in the car to be use tmrw morning so I google2.. and found out lots of ppl rave abt DIY shampoo and conditioner which is using Baking Soda/Sodium Bicarbonate and Vinegar as conditioner.. I check my kitchen and I have both stuff so apa lagi .. try la kan. I mixed Sodium Bicarbonate with water in small container (1:3) and also mixed apple cider Vinegar with water (1:4). After wet my hair, I put the sodium bicarbonate mix onto my hair, rub it and leave for 4 mins. Then I rinse and follow by apple CIder Vinegar mix. After rinse, I feel my hair smoother.Yeahhhhh... happy. If I dont have that RM900 constraint, maybe I'll buy the Himalayan or Clairol Hello Hydrating which may not able to give the same feeling that i have now but because of limitation I find workaround. I guess it same with life ... find new challenge and your body will adapt !!


 I one happy bunny :)

equality? bullshit!

Just comeback from combodia. Initially I have nothing to expect for this trip except to see the Angkor Wat. Although i know they hv the killing field as tourist atrraction, never that i thought that will be the highlight of my trip. After lots of cambodia ppl mentions abt khmer rouge i did some google and know a bit2 of the story. visiting one of the killing cave in battambang make me even want to understand it further as i really feel confuse and can't understand how equallity bring this all violent. how ppl can be this bad and worst they do it on their own people which all the racism religionism does not apply. on my way back, councidently i found one book which no so heavy but yet give me insight pf what happens during that time. never fall down is quite a good book to understand this very pain event. even after read it i still cant get the logic right away. why equality can become this pain.. finally something struck me. they doesn't want equality. they just want a bigger cake for themselves. i guess even lots of ppl voice out abt fighting for equality but very little really means it. the rest just want to be at the other side with a bigger cake

Missing the little angel

My bro come for a short break this weekend, bringing his family. I spend most my time with his first kid - Nuha, teman her playing, watching Kitty etc.. They left Penang in the afternoon and I already start missing her d :(. Looking at them, sometimes I wonder how ppl can have more than 2 kids. Kids really want attention. Like Nuha she constantly want someone to layan her. Either just show her  some stuff or talking to her.

Rambling in 2013

During this election, as normal lots of issue pop-up and one of the famous one is regarding racism and also the privilege of bumiputra. I was looking back at the history of the famous 13 May. People keep on blaming everybody who start the 13 May. Some said Tun Razak started it to overthrown Tuanku Abdul Rahman. Some try to relate to opposition by saying Lim Kit Siang was there during that famous parade. But reading on all the comment especially those who actually was in that scene, it seems the main reason, there is a racial tension from beginning. It just looking the correct time to burst out. I can understand the disappointment in Malays as their living economy is way below than Chinese. Although from my observation, chinese culture and attitude is the one that cause them to be successful in most of place. But I think its normal human being to blame other ppl for something we didn't have. I'm not saying what Malays feel is correct but it understandable. Anyway, history is history. Don't shift the blame it to anyone. It really the slow burning hatred in our community that cause that 1969 bloody event. We just has to accept the fact at that time.

Will we have similar think if the government change today? Although there are still racist in our country today but it wasn't as bad as last time. We have been well blend either through school, university and thanks to MNC company, this is were most races mix around. We can eat together, outing together and some even stay together with different race. China and India seems to be part of their history for my non-Malays friends. I have not find anyone who actually plan to go back to China or India. For most who stay in Malaysia, Malaysia is their home. For Malays, the living economy for at least 50% of Malays has increase dramatically. Although we have that super rich Malays which ppl relate to UMNO cronies, but we also have quite some of Malays that become the middle class in Malaysia. Very less people that feel jealous to other people because of it race. Of course it still exist but lesser. In 10 ppl, if 1 person raised it, the other 7 will say - nahh.. i dont think they like that... etc. Less dissatisfaction across different race.

As much as ppl doesn't want to admit but I think NEP does it help on creating this blend although it wasn't as perfect as it should be. Some of ppl said that NEP is injustice to non-Malay but it does achieve some of the target and I think, I won't be here sitting same table with other race without that. I will see form far, they enjoying the nice burger while I have to serve that burger with grudge in my heart. Of course you will said that now also someone serve you. There is also chinese that was really good but didn't get scholarship because of this quota thingy. They will feel the similar grudge what?. But my point is, for Malays to start stand on their feet, they need some kind of injection that tell them they can achieve it. At least 90 of my high school friend living quite comfortable life and like it or not, SBP is part of NEP and we are the product of Mahathir's NEP plan. And for me, it even impact my younger brother and sister when they see the path that I walk. And now it even goes to my nieces. But of course this shouldn't forever as the community now changing and we have different problem. The problem that NEP try to solve is 70's problem which I think no more valid. Now, byproduct of NEP is the ultra rich who make use the NEP and benefited themselves. This create a huge gap between them and normal ppl doesn't matter what race it is. Also the quality of education as we try to hard to push that quantity.  And mentality of some Malays that does not see the NEP as the starting stone but as privilege and also some leaders does not see the problem as big picture but merely follow what has been laid open. Maybe its now the time to focus on the how to boost the lower income doesnt matter what race they are.

Back to my question , will we have the similar 69 riot if the government change? I think it will not have any racial riot. If there will be havoc, it merely on the fanatic supporter. Thing will not get worst. Maybe some demo at different place but I dont think will have any blood shed. But the economy might get a bit worst as some of big company in Malaysia is claimed to be crony. Maybe ppl might pull out the investment to avoid anything harm. But one thing that might happen but I really pray to Allah, pls avoid it, is Mahathir might goes to jail. It really sad if that happens as no matter how much ppl relate him to cronisim and power abuse but I think he did a big favor to the country. He does not toyed with your emotion unlike the current leader or speculate future leader. He said what he think for the benefit of the country. For him to step down before any bloody riot happens and give the power to Abdullah is really show his genuine love to country. At that time reformasi was really loud. For some one that crave for power as it being claimed, stepping down is really a big deal. I hope, it wont  becoming like Indonesia. After 15 years of reformasi and after 5 years Suharto passed away, ppl start to regard him as the real countryman instead of the current leader.

I don't vote

Ok.. I decided not going back to Johor.. My colleague all screaming .. why dont vote .. why dont vote. I told them the flight is expensive. The truth is, I dont like BN ... and I dont like PR as well. So I dont want to waste RM500 and my weekend + menyusahkan org nak amik kat airport on something that I dont really believe on. As much as I want thing to change but I just dont see a clear picture from PR. Some ppl that I talk to said, we need 2 party system which I agree but when an Ulama join UMNO, ppl start to label him as UMNO's dog. Can't he get the right to choose which party he want to join. Does it means only PAS is the correct ideologi. Sigh. FB become the medium of sharing the hatred. When ppl take the bribery we blame both the one who give and the one who received but when BN held 1Malaysia dinner or 1 Malaysia concert which clearly want to gain the vote, we still go. Don't we know that those dinner is kind of bribery but yet we still take it? I just dont understand, so I guess the video by George Carlin is correct. Maybe it the public that sucks. I sucks because I dont vote.