German??

One of thing i want to do before 40 is to learn new language. I tried Mandarin before and stop at listening the caset. I tried arabic before but my arabic attempt fall down at the same time when Penang flyover fall down. My reason is jam but God knows what the real reason. Sigh.. Me and language always can't get along. I struggled my english since school. I remember getting E during form 1 and drag down all my results. I don't understand the question at all and I'm guessing based on the letter what i should write. That 5 years is a struggle and thanks to my teacher at least i have incremental improvement and managed to get A2 during SPM. But it still struggle especially when i tried to get scholarship after SPM. My results allowed me to get all the interview but i totally fail during interview. I don't know how to speak my mind. Even in BM i have the same struggle and plus you need to converse in English. Double failure. I entered all the interviewed with a wonder. Not wondering what the question i will get but wonder how bad i will humiliating myself. It all past.. and of course i didn't get any of them :).  Now even i still struggle especially to speak with foreigner but at least it wasn't so bad. I can hold a meeting with them and speak my mind. Although lots of time they ask me to repeat slowly :). It kind of long 20 years++ journey.
N now i have to do with another language .. fainted.  Anyway it a challenge i put myself. Yesterday out of sudden, germany come to my mind. So i decided, my next language will be german. Yes!!!!. I decided. Hope i have the will to continue. I registered for the class d.. it kind of expensive. Hopefully i able to commit and not wasting my money. Please please... give me the will and determination to finish it.

Chasing Aurora??

yeahhh .. Another travel. This time i'm going to somewhere not even in my plan .. hahahaha.. I don't like winter.. Cold , wet .. and it so depressing. But today i'm on the way to Scotland.. and Iceland!!!... It funny how life turn back on you. In 2010 i was on customer visit to germany. Otw, the flight divert and stop at rome. It all due to volcanic ash. I don't care which volcano .. but it make me stranded. I made one decision that I regret till now. Not staying in ROME!!!. I get into the next available bus to Frankfurt. It tiring dunno how many hours of travel but i made it to Fra.. If i'm not so dedicate to my work, i can enjoy the pasta more. Anyway, while reading abt iceland, i got to know they have several volcano and quite active. One of it has a erupt  and cause major flight crisis.. Wait.... i check the time when the eruption happens.. it April 2010.. coincident with my customer visit.. So here u are... I'm going to see you. So what the big deal right, u think? For me, it just bring me the memory back.. and how ur life is connect to each other.
Even this iceland trip wasn't initially my plan. A friend plan for it  somewhere in July/Aug after seeing some advertisement pop up. At that time i check the calendar and i know i can't make it. I have project crunch time during that period.. But suddenly a months back, my project is cancelled. When i heard abt it, i straight check the flight ticket. I want to go for a month break. i was so greedy i want to g everywhere.. Paris, Iceland, london, Egypt.. hahahah.. But i ended shorten my leave.. so here scotland and iceland !!!!

Wish List

I noticed that i had fullfill my previous wishlist but yet only strike through one items that i want to do before 40. Zoom in and i realize that my wishlist were material based where it need only money while what i want to do before 40 include my determination. Hahahah .. that why only one that is done. Emm ... sigh. I removed all the old wishlist and add new one that more meaningful (errr) and removed all my wanna be like learn how to jahit (hello .. i only wear baju kurung twice a year n dont even like to jahit) dunno why  i want to do it before 40. Hopefully with more me and more realistic target ... all will be done .. hahahha

Addicted

I'm an addict d. Addict to korean drama. Sighhh. Dont feel it good to me as it cause me lack of sleep. Yesterday was worst. I sleep at 2 on previous night n wake up at 6.30. Continue again til 8.30am. Drank coffee to avoid sleepiness n i dehydrated till night due to strong coffee n lacks of sleep. I can felt my body weak. Planned to hv dinner and sleep but while having dinner , i gatai g play one episod and without i can control, i watch again till 2. Argh. I hv spends like numerous hours watching this drama and not planning for my trip. Once this births lf beauty finish, i plan to leave my hard disk in office. Arggh.

Happy?

I love the below photo. I think i look happy :). Sometimes u doesnt need thousand dollar holiday. Just some close friends. 

Jealousy??

I was wonder abt something last week and forgot abt it because it very hard for me to classify what is it when reading it. But today i saw similar thing and i got my answer. last week while wasting my time browsing facebook, i saw whatsapp capture of experiment done by some 2nd year upm student. What happen is they tell their parents yg they want to get married and see how the parents reaction. It quite funny and most comment is abt that response of parents/family except for one whatsapps screen shot. This capture shows the girl are telling the mom in mixed english bm conversation and guess what, the comment is abt her english usage instead of the response from her mom. The netizen is commenting how come she used the word "i n friend" if she mmg converse in english. Like seriously? Is that what u only see? And today this article really prove, the old jealousy on neighbour buy new furniture, new curtain has leverage to different standard. Sigh. 

http://www.ohbulan.com/niat-hanya-ingin-bantu-ayah-hilang-barang-di-facebook-tapi-akhirnya-dihentam-netizen-kerana/

72 virgin.. Seriously?

I had teh tarik session with my colleague and somehow one of topic that was brought out was abt Malaysia being a place to train ISIS. it kind of shock and to be honest i don't believe it as Malaysian that i knew doesn't hv that much courage. If indonesian, will be slight different because indonesian has lots of darah pendekar. One of things that my colleague said, keep pop up to my little brain.. Something abt the promise of 72 virgin. It might be a joke but i think some ppl really think this is what motivate the terrorism. I hv googled both, 72 virgin and also Malaysia being place for training ISIS. i cant find anything on the latter one but the number of malaysia being recruited by ISIS is way higher than other terrorism organisation which of course alarming. Is Malaysian turn to those violent ppl? Surprisingly, i found out the way ppl being recruited in ISIS is slight different from other organisation which mostly required lots of fighter to jihad through war. For ISIS they promoting a state, a government that suppose to be free from corruption and a state that suppose to be mimic how Rasulullah rule the country. Being in the current Malaysia's situation where corruption is everywhere, hatred against different race n religion being seeded in most of ppl, don't you think some ppl are losing their hope (me) and will try to look for better opportunity. Some, mostly non Malay decided to migrate to western country in any opportunity they have because it better than malaysia while some muslim felt western country are not suitable for them n decide to migrate to the "new state". Sometimes when u felt drowning, u will just grab any rope that being throw to you and later only found out the who the devil behind the rope.

Another interesting thing abt ISIS is the brotherhood. Loneliness is a curse. Nobody like to be alone and sometimes ppl will do anything for the sense of belonging. ISIS promote brotherhood. You like having new family when u joining them, someone who you can share your fear, your thought and also your happiness. I read somewhere, everyday after "work" they will drink n hv dinner together and the girl will also gather among themselves. With all this new offering from terrorism organisation, we need to more human in order to save them. It not just by catching them. It obviously not the 72 virgin that motivate them. I know most guys mind are crooked with sex but this virtual 72 virgin is no way any winner to ppl heart, (although i wonder if a real(worldly) 72 virgin will give any different :p )