tea tea tea

Went to a chinese tea shop today to accompany friend buy tea.. The shop owner are so friendly and let me taste 6 different tea ranging from a few type and years of pu er tea, green tea and an expensive tea which cost RM400 per 100g.. i didnt know tea can cost a bomb.. and different year of tea can have different taste. it really amaze after the first steep, the tea leaf open up to be a real whole leaf!!  and the smell is wonderful. i like the green tea the most. It smell very nice and didn't have a strong after taste. i just know that a 2014 puer tea which cause rm100 per piece can actually cost 3 to 5 times more after 6 years! Good investment uhh...On the opposite to green tea that the shelf life only up to 6 months. emmm i have so low class taste .. hahahaha.  The uncle also sell puer tea that cost 12k per piece which of cause he didnt offer to let us taste it!! i really wonder how it taste. The uncle said.. it like LV .. brand .. the taste a bit powdery but ppl like it bcos it a high brand leaf. hahahaha.. to be honest i didnt expect tea can be this complicated and interesting... a friend told me before, dont judge a book by it's cover.. i guess this tea thing is one of it.. :).
btw, when i said per piece, it not pieces of leaf but for puer tea, the leave are compressed to be like a piece of plate like below..

Bye bye 2014

Emm 2014 going to end very soon. Initially i felt like nothing really happen this year but after a short stop, i just reliazed that there are things happen this year. I moved to new house, move to new job at old company, my father passed away and finally meet my invisible family, Travel to japan, us, perhentian, doing a solo backpacking to bangkok. Enrolled in baking class.. Forcing my mum to eat the bread i made (pity her). In process of discovering n amend the difference between me with my mum. Emmm but i need more!!!   Anyway 2015 in preparation.. Hope it will be more flowerish than 2014!! Emm need to ho office first

Action vs words

A few years back i wrote an entry abt getting updates of myself. Abt you need to invest time in order to know your friend... Today for some reason the same blog entry has been mirrorred back to me. It funny as that what i felt years back n the same person has saying it back to me. Im not sure where my time goes but i dont seems able to juggle between things that important to my life. I used to think, work has take it highest toll in my life but when i analyze, it wasnt really the case. I work from 9-7 and rarely did i work at night. I dont really go out that much. Seriously what did i do????  

Wake up early

I noticed i barely done anything besides work n tv. My ultimate disappointment is when i was watching a malay drama title something abt paku pontianak. It is abt a guy try to get marry but yet no one want so he end up try to nail down a vampire. I feel so stupid that i curse myself while watching it but yet i still watch. Sigh!!! When someone share an article abt thing to do before bfast for successfull ppl i decided i want to try. Today is my first trial. It wasnt as successfull as i plan as nothing really complete as what i plan but a good start. Hopefully i hv strength to continue... Gambate!!! 

Reward points

Today i saw a msg from friend.. "Bestnya arafah jatuh on friday.. Ibarat buat 70haji." Somehow i feel disturb with her statement.. Allah create 7 days in a week and n to hv Arafah on friday is like dunno how many years once.. It can be when u go to do hajj, that year the arafah is not on friday.. Do u hv to do it 70times compare to ppl that do it at the year when arafah fall on friday? We know that nowadays is hard to get hajj quota n to physically do it more than one is kinds of taking other opportunity.. So I just feel if that statement is true..it really unfair.. But I believe Allah is fair.. So are some ine making the statement?

Things that matter

Ppl who close with me know that i hv this unhappiness towards what i do now. I jump to one job and another but still the feeling is there.. Looking at my career now, actually i dont think there is no solution to the issue that i have now. When i raised some issue, ppl did listen although it wasnt 100% so there are chance thing can be changes but somehow myself reluctant to fight for it.. I looking for a way totally out of it. I just not keen on doing what i'm doing but at the same time i love doing engineering. A part of me can't think what are the purpose of all this. We fight againts deadline from one project to another and some even got zbb'ed at the end of milestone... Im not sure if it worth all the effort. To be honest, i love doing my work .. way more than watching tv. I can stuck in front of screen debugging or create new code and even tahan to go to bathroom.. Once i start working, i easily in my zone.. Even watching tv i will always distracted.. Emm  somehow today i think i kind of found the reason.. Everyone of us human longing to do something that matter. Be it as a daughther or as worker or even as mother. I felt that my current work, i dont feel it matter!!! If one day i quit or i die, the world wont cry for me.. No significant thing i hv done to anyone in this world.. I hv to find something that matter

Concentration

Recently i noticed i hv big problem.... I just can't focus!! I easy get distracted n nothing able to hold my concentration more than 20mins.. Maybe that the reason i always do keje half way. I started my ambition of writting apps... but it goes up to the point installing new xcode on my laptop...then i do sme study on bangkok but still i eas get distracted on gossip blog.. Iskhhhh i hv to fix i hv to fix