Talking to my friends recently abt life. One of them said abt emptiness. How he can sometimes felt empty even there is ppl around. He said everyone experience emptiness and it's nothing wrong with that. I'm not sure if I ever experience emptiness and I'm not sure how actually it felt. But one thing Im sure i have an unknown feeling deep inside me which Im not sure what. There is time i felt i have not done enough yet. I still not satisfied with my life. Satisfied not in term of money (though saya pun tak la org kaya) or in term of how successful i am in my life. But more on .." ohh i have optimze 200% of my life doing something whixh gave me 2000% ROI" emm actually just a secure satisfaction feeling. Maybe I still looking for something. And i still not sure on what I'm looking for... emm I come across with a saying long time ago .. " Tiada manusia merasa gundah gulana jika ia tahu apa yang dicari". I think maybe true tapi bila pikir2 .. what actually im looking for?? Emmm tapi ekk kawan2 tak yah la risaukan saya sebab most of the time this feeling will be override and saya tak pernah really finish think why and what .. ahahahhaha.
My hsemate's fiance just come back from US. He brought back a bag of jelly bean. Nice wor .. got 50 different flavor/color.. and they got the illustration on the bag. The fun thing abt eat it .. is like solving a puzzle. when you can really got what u want from the bag rasa heaven nya .. Most of the time sure salah except for common taste kot sebab kaler dia dekat2
Dun you feel life is like a bag of jelly beans? There is lots of options .. and sometimes it looks the same but the end taste is different. You can't control what you pick though you already sure what you want. You might pick the wrong one and maybe a right one but anything that you pick .. is just a jelly bean. Enjoy it.. and continue your life. Do not afraid to have hope of getting a jelly bean that you want cause its where the excitement of eating the jelly bean.
* Im on MC today .. expected to have severe fever sebab kena virus infection tapi hari ni cam badan tak panas pun.. just slightly headache. camne tu??