December 17, 2005

Otoromen cosmo

Jangan kacau dia .. raksasa tu mengandung ... huhuhuhuh .. believe or not .. hari ni aku tgk otoromen.. hahahahhan . bile tgk balik otoromen ni tatau nape dulu mase kecik2 gile btul. Gaban la .. kasatria baja hitam la .. sampai ponteng sekolah. kenapa la dulu senang btul tertipu ngn cete2 cam gini .. uhhuhhuh .. kalau la mase utk tgk benda2 ni aku spent for baca buku bio .. sure sekarang dah jadik doktor berjaya.. :)

December 09, 2005

so long .. farewell

hari ni ada farewell party one of my senior. As my 2 years in Freescale i never experience such a touching ( emmm tatau la btul ke tak term ni) farewell. Bt now i saw what i called as fellowship of SVE in Intel .. a company where ppl said as an OVEN. But mana2 pun friendship does existkan.. For the farewell gift we did not give him expensive one but .. if i were him .. i appreciate this gift much more than a diamond ( emm .. kalau kasik diamond pun best gak). We're making a video specially dedicate for him and also tampal2 photo cutting on a big board with all common jokes. Terasa cam zaman2 sekolah dulu. For me ..he deserve this treat. Although i just knew him less than 2 mths but the way he treat everyone mmg agak berlainan from my other colleague which i knew dulu. Normally ur colleague will prioritize their work more than u .. but for him, everytime anyone ask him question, he will put down anything that he do and straight go to ur workstation to help .. or go to the white board to explain. He also very concern on our future development. For him, to be success in career does not mean that you manage to do your work on time and perfectly or became a successfull SVE but more on ur contribution on teamwork and also our knowledge development. okay la enuff abt this .. makin lama makin merapu lak.

December 04, 2005

time flies

naiza coming to take her Queens Anne and also nak explain abt insurans to me. AFter she went back, i just plug in my Hard disk to check out the new series she just copied for me " Prison Break". Sedihnya .. my laptop sekarang tade codec semua .. so i cannot play any of them.. uhhhh .. then when me gatal2 bukak one by one folder in my hard disk .. just to kill time. And tetiba bile browse folder photo .. uhhh .. i just realize how i miss last year... friends.. travel .. bestnye... I like the photo mase we went to Mawar to see ArtFazil perform .. and also photo to Bournemouth. I would say .. last year have been a part of my experience in life which I cannot forget. Wonder if I ever hv the same opportunity again :)
**now i looking for anyone yg nak gi fort cornwallis ( betul ke spell i dunno). i just found the place smlm mase gi makan...Anyone?? hehhehehe..

October 16, 2005

Penang in one week

Hari ni i went out with Kak Nurul and Fiza jalan2 round penang. They are my future housemate. Mula2 mase tgk rumah tu i don't really berkenan sebab tempat tu quite far from intel and noisy sebab dekat ngn airport. But after i met kak Nurul and Fiza then i can feel the keserasiannye. Maybe sebab kak Nurul sungguh peramah and nampak sungguh tak kisah. She was sungguh rajin melayan mak saya yang banyak cakap gak. hehhehehehe. After break fasting we stay at her hse which next week will also be mine for couple of hours before they send us back to Equatorial. We had another chit chatting kat equ sampai dah nak midnite.ok stop for today activities. my updates this one week in penang. emmm .. i sesat lots of time mase jalan2 cari makan. Luckily u penang is an island. sesat macam mana pun u will find ur starting point in less than 2 hrs. so sekarang ni dah tau la sket2 jalan kat penang ni though mase tak expert lagi but i manage to find gurney drive by own( bangga2) and later found out yang tempat makan kat situ dah pindah ke jalan tanjung Bungah ( my mum tak suke penang sgt sebab dia rase banyak chinese restaurant).. I've met most of my colleagues. They seem to be very friendly especially Keng Lai and Shih Jun. Shaddish also not so bad but i notice i really have to learnt mandarin. They always speak mandarin in the lab sebab Daniel and Shaddish also knew how to speak mandarin. Saya masuk keja kol 7 ye kawan2.. aduish .. sungguh sengsara nak bangun pagi ..:). I got new IBM laptop which suppose to be very fast with 1G ram but saya rasa my computer lagi laju apa2 pun dia tak berat macam laptop gajah saya. And saya rasa sungguh and amat menyesal tak beli bag laptop samsonite mase gi swindon dulu. uhuhuhuhuh .. dulu rase sure laptop saya tak muat but with my new IBM sure punya muat la. tadi mase kat Gurney Plaza I saw one samsonite laptop bag for near Rm400 .. huhuhuuh mahal nye...btw ..these fews day aku makan kat equatorial utk buffet ... They have gulai ikan salmon with Bendi which they say is one of the daring interpretation. emm when i first saw the advertisement, teringat zaman mase kat UK. We use salmon not only for grilled but asam pedas salmon which suri tak suke sgt .. heheheheh...and once i made salmon masak kicap berlada. Even lin made soup salmon ( not English soup version but malay version of soup ikan) .. so daring kan .. ahhahahaha .. we should write a recipe books.

October 06, 2005

i've been tagged

Nasib baik naiza tagged before i start working .. so here some story of my life.

20 Tahun yang lalu (Tahun 1985)

macam tak ingat sangat apa yang jadik mase ni but adik pompuan saya dilahirkan mase ni la. Dia sungguh tak comel .. tapi selalu perasan comel ( harap2 dia baca la).End of the year saya masuk tadika Kemas Benut. Pergi sekolah neighbor saya yang hantar, Cik Su sebab mak saya kena jaga adik yang tak comel tu. Saya sungguh tak suke gi sekolah tadika sebab saya kena buli ngn budak nama dia azwa. Gumuk2 orgnya and dia suke cubit saya. Saya tau la saya kurus ..jeles la tu. Jadi sebab tak nak gi sekolah saya selalu nyanyi depan rumah panggil hujan..kalau guruh je .. saya dah tak nak gi sekolah. Mak saya cukup takut saya tak abis sekolah sebab saya sangat malas gi sekolah.. alhamduillah la .. abis jugak.


10 Tahun yang lalu (tahun 1995)

Saya dah belaja kat KL..dulu saya tak suke sangat sekolah ni tapi bile dah besar n bile pikir2 banyak yang saya dapat. So my five years kat situ mmg la berbaloi. I met my close friends kat sana gak. Tahun ni saya amik PMR. Alhamdulilah dapat la apa yang ditarget. TApi dalam mase tu ada la peristiwa lawak... pasal kitorng menipu dalam history test. apa2 pun benda tu dah lepas n saya harap cikgu ros dah maafkan kitorng. Tahun ni gak saya dapat kakak ipar, Kak Ana. Actually kak ana anak cikgu mengaji saya n jiran saya mase kecik. Dulu mase kecik2 abg selalu kem salam .. akhirnya dah jodoh diorng so bertambah la sorang lagi dalam keluarga saya.


5 tahun yang lalu (tahun 2000)

Saya kat UTM skudai. Masa ni saya second year half to 3rd year half. Saya baik ngn Miza and herda. Rumate saya mase ni kakak ex hosmate saya, Kak Kimah. Selain dari kawan2 melayu .. saya rapat ngn Lian Hwa. Dia baik .. selalu hantar saya balik lepas exam. Selalu study sama. Maybe dia le rasia saya boleh lepas undergrade saya. Rasanya mase 2nd year la saya start minat Nehru tapi sure la dia tak pandang saya..hahahhah.. Masa ni dah dok kat KRP join jawatanKuasa Kolej sebab nak duduk hostel. Saya jadik secretary counselling. Kenal la some of org2 kuat UTM .. tapi dah tak engat sapa nama. Masa ni ada 2 org anak sedara saya lahir. Nurul Fatihah and Nurin Nazuha.


3 Tahun yang lalu (tahun 2002)


Saya dah nak abis blaja ... tgh concentrate buat final project. Dr Rosbi jadik supervisor saya .. he so kind. Tahun ni gak saya gi practical training. I sent 60 application tapi tade satu pun dapat. Lst sekali saya practical kat TNB sebab my bro in law selalu buat kerja ngn org TNB. From there I know that .. saya mmg takleh nak keje ngn TNB sebab banyak sgt politik. I knew lots of ppl.Ada yang baik.. ada yang boleh borak2 je..ada yang tak best pun nak rapat2. banyak2 saya paling ingat Cik Iszai, Cik Man and Abg Mie. Cik Iszai selalu blanja saya makan, Cik Man selalu tumpangkan saya pegi kerja and Abg Mie selalu layan saya borak. Tahun ni gak saya gi 3 interview. Satu graduate trainee scheme under Maxis tapi tak sempat interview saya dah direject mase qualifiying exam. Pastu Motorola and JVC. Alhamdulillah saya dapat dua2 tu tapi i choose Motorola sebab diorng offer saya dulu .. hahahahah.. Masuk kerja sama ngn Shazalli ngn Zarihi. Diorang le kawan saya mula2 before saya kenal n rapat ngn wawa,ina n kak Shidah. Saya tinggal kat vista ngn budak2 UM kawan2 cik pah. Tahun ni gak saya convo. Dapat le anugerah yang saya tak sangka2. Serious tak sangka, tau pun bila dah abis rehearsal kawan saya tepon suruh dtg (rehearsal pun saya tak pegi sebab sibuk bukak account Maybank).


Tahun Lepas (2004)


Saya masuk MBG dept. Keja senang sket dari my first year and I like it. Tahun ni saya dah gatal nak sambung blaja. malas nak keja .. penat. Saya keja tak dapat gak jalan2. Org lain yang dapat gi training .. uhuhuhu (alamak terbongkara rasia ku) .. Anyway .. saya mintak loan Mara nak sambung study. Alhamdulillah saya dapat and on my 24th Bitrhday (30 September) saya tersadai kat KLIA tunggu my flight ke UK. Bermula hidup as student and my first time gi oversea. Tahun ni gak mase chrismast saya gi Spain .. ahhh heaven nya. Tapi tahun ni gak saya dapat anak sedara baru .. Nurin Naziha. Sempat tgk dia 4 hari je before fly.


Tahun ini ( Tahun 2005)


Saya masih student.. dapat anak sedara lagi Nurul Aida. Saya dah abis blaja .. and saya dah balik mesia.. haahahahahhaha .. sukenya . Dah dapat makan apa yang saya nak makan mase kat Uk dulu. Akhirnya tercapai gak hajat saya nak jalan2. And insya allah saya akan keja ngn Intel kat Penang. Saya pun tatau kenapa saya pilih Penang but I really looking forward nak keja ngn Intel. It was my dream 4 years ago tapi tak berani nak mintak sebab dapat dirasa di reject awal2 and dia kat Penang. After a year kat UK .. then saya rasa.. tak le jauh sgt pun Penang tu. So no harm if i try kan???


Tahun Depan ( Tahun 2006)

Saya rasa .. saya masih di Intel. Maybe dah jual insurans.. hahahahhahaa .. so my fren .. dun forget me ye .. i will cari u .. i alwiz try to keep in touch .. hahahahahha. This year .. I hope I can meet someone to share my life with sebab saya target nak kawin when i'm 27 which is another one year lagi. walahai ..


10 Tahun yang hadapan (tahun 2015)


Insya allah umor saya dah 35. Kalau saya dah kawin and ada anak .. maybe I'll working as lecturer ke .. cikgu tadika ke.. ahahahah... maybe saya jadik penjual insurans berjaya.. ( bear with me kay).. or maybe saya still with Intel doing something related to training. Tapi ada gak terpikir nak amik something related to management. So tatau aa ..depends on flow la. Kalau
saya tak kawin lagi .. ya allah ...ta mo la cakap .. sebab I really hope dah saya dah kawin by then. So kalau mase tu tak lagi .. terpakse le saya alter post ni.

emm saya pun tatau na tagged sapa lagi sebab banyak kawan saya dah ditagged. I have similar cycle of friend with my friends. ANyway .. saya tagged
1. Suresh
2. Eja
3. Lina

though diorang ni jarang update blog .. tak pela ...

oke le mau mandi manda.. bubyyeyyeyeyeye

October 04, 2005

another journey start

huyooo .. i'm back. finally after one year menghempas pulas .. membanting tulang .. bersengkang mata blaja .. saya insya allah dapat master .. ( adakah terlalu exaggerate?? ) macam jugak la.. sebab macam lebih membanting tulang mengangkut bag gi travel rather than blaja. anyway .. saya tak sempat nak gi british museum .. another good reason nak visit london lagi .. hahahahah..Thanks to naiza n faizal yg hantar kitorng kat airport .. cpah, eja, minyak and yance yang jumpa kat Klia and my family yang amik kat senai. Luv u all ( gaya2 artis cakap ye..). so emm update update ..
  • i have my new maxis 017 no .. but i lost my mesia nye simcard lama. so kalau tak dapat my sms means i dun have your no la .. no offend ye. just buzz me kat ym.
  • my niece dapat tokoh kanak2 Kemas (tadika) utk pontian.. huyooo .. teringat zaman saya menyanyi panggil hujan...
  • my brother finally dah jadik leftenan muda for palapes... ( cerita lama but i just saw his cert)
  • i will move to penang next week and insya allah keja ngn intel.
  • saya takde baju raya .. :(
  • saya dah makan semua benda yg dilistkan utk makan before pose .. utk kawan2 yg masih kat sana .. uhhuh .. nyum nyum nyum ..
  • Selamat berpose kepada semua ..

September 26, 2005

YEAHHH

I done ... yess .. master saya officially dah abis with my last poster presentation .. yahuuuuuu

September 01, 2005

endless thot

hahahahaha .. i'm doing something impossible... my sv shud award me with dr if i able to make it possible.. :)

Dear xxx,
Many direct detect microwave radiometers have been successfully built. The xxx and xxx spaceborne radiometers, both of which I am involved with, use them. Many other ground based sensors do, too. It isn't possible to build one without a significant amount of amplification before the detector. This is because the natural thermal emission signal is too weak for the detector without it. In Dicke's case, the amplification was made after a frequency downconversion for the same fundamental reason - his signal was also too weak. Direct detection at W-Band will be very difficult because low noise amplifiers at that frequency are rare and expensive and because higher power gain stages at that frequency (needed after the low noise amplifier) are also problematic. If you need to build a W-Band radiometer, it will be much more economical to do so using frequency downconversion. To decide how much amplification you will need, look at the Tangential Signal Sensitivity (Tss) value of your detector. You will need the signal to be detected at least 10 times bigger (in power) than Tss so you can reliably measure it.
Good luck,
xx

Quoting "xxx" :
> Thanks xx on your mail. Actually I plan to construct a radiometer
> receiver using a direct detection ( crystal value) architecture. I
> have a diode detector with zero bias, antenna .. Both at W band. As I
> don't have amplifier at W band for the pre-detection amplifier, I plan
> to use a lock in amplifier after diode detector to improve diode
> detector sensitivity. Do you know any succesfull radiometer using a
> direct detection ( crystal value)? I saw them in theory but I'm not
> sure if it applicable to make it real. I've read a paper from Dicke on
> Microwave radiometer. He was using a lock in amplifier but with super
> heteorodyne receiver. Do you think without amplification before
> detection, it will be possible for me to detect the emission?
> Thanks in advance.

August 30, 2005

A genius ...

Interesting haa...

August 24, 2005

analogue vs digital

uhuhh .. saya rasa sengsara ngn project sendiri. lagi sebulan and my lecturer cakap saya dah salah concept. I'm measuring a noise but I'm treating that noise as a noise .. uhh sound noisy?? yang sungguh sedih .. supervisor saya sgt busy and tak tau sgt pasal noise noise ni .. so dia takleh nak guide btul2 dia cuma boleh memberikan buku2 utk dibaca dan saya akan tertido setiap kali baca buku . boleh kah project saya ni completed?? .. uhh uhh .. agak susah bile dipikir2.. baik saya meredakan hati dengan bershopping.
someone told me before " I guess u're not analogue person" ... uhhhh .. i try to prove he wrong but i guess he right.

saya nak mandi ..!!!

~ i choose a dead end .. i have to make my own path...not my own grave!!

August 14, 2005

a rainy day

Lepas baca post pojan tadi tergerak lak nak post something related to what she wrote in The Sweetest Thing. Yeahh .. life is so sweetttt .. tapi banyak benda yg sweet happened kita tak perasan especially kalu those things done by our closest family and friends. Sometimes kita rasa apa yang diorng buat was obligation for being the 'closest' .. tapi sebenonye .. its their choice not they have to do. And sometimes maybe the way kita define "sweet" tu influence how we appreciate those thing. Like my case .. saya sungguh senang terpengaruh dengan movie .. huhuuhuhuh so kekadang terexpect cam dlm cete2 lak .. tapi rasanya .. anything done such that to make our life easy, happy.. n apa yang bagus la shud consider as "sweet". Kalau cam gitu there were too many things to list out so saya sangat malas .. but seriously thanks to everyone for those sweet-sweet things .. tapi nape ekk .. bile someone yang kita baru kenal done something good to us .. terus rasa sweet. sungguh confius la.

btw .. laptop saya dah baik after 2 weeks deman sebab hard disk problem. saya sangat suke hati..

July 25, 2005

Bercanda di pasiran pantai .. huhuhuuh

Baru je abis berconference ngn bdak2 busuk tu pasal plan utk next week. Initial plan nak gi Alton tower telah dirombak menjadi activiti shopping dan berbikini.. hehheheheheh... mcm sungguh lain dari tujuan asal. Anyway carboot still dalam top list sampai ada la manusia yang tak sedar diri nak gi sampai 2 carboot .. geleng kepala makcik. Looking forward to Bournemouth.. Lamanye tak bersantai kat pantai .. i miss my family :(


July 19, 2005

why?? i still dun know

How did you feel kalau ada org suruh bukak baju di khalayak ramai?? Its happened to me though bukan la kene bukak baju .. but I was asked to bukak my tudung mase security checking kat Paris De Nord. Naiza was in front of me tapi mase dia kene check tak perasan la plak sebab mase tu tgh sibuk letak bag kat conveyor. Then before I step thru the security pintu tu ... this one lady ni ask me to take off my camera and my tudung while pointed to it. At first .. I'm a bit blur .. i ask her a few time and dia mengiya kan je... so i thought new regulation ke .. maybe diorng dah bertambah strict after London Blast. pastu teringat lak pasal france takleh pakai tudung gi sekolah.. SO dgn kebluran tahap maksima and agak malu gak, i took off my tudung tinggalkan serkop je. dah lalu pintu .. tade la apa2 bunyi .. but that lady called me back ask me to even take off my serkop... rasa terkesima kejap tapi malas nak pikir .. tanggalkan je la ... dlm mase tu rase malu though im not alim sangat tapi malu la .. macam kene bukak baju depan org .. then org suruh bukak 'anak2'... uhh .. and bertambah malu n sakit hati .. rupanya it's only me yang kena .. budak2 lain tak kena pun. so it means bukan la new regulation ke apa2 ke .. what did i do yang pompuan tu sanggup wat gitu??? bile dlm train tu .. pikir2 makin la bertambah malu n geram. Sampai la ni I still cannot think why she ask me to take off the tudung. We made few assumption which among other ..
1. maybe the way i wore tudung macam fesyen macam omputih ikat2 kepala .. tapi agak tak logik gak la rasenya budak lain pun pakai cam sama je.
2. my tudung agak berbonggol kat belakang .. so dia suspect i brought bomb kat dalam tudung .. uhhhh!! the most reasonable assumption kot...
3. i look like british muslim ... ( rase pelik .. but at least ada 2 org pernah tanya if im a bangladesh ... am I ??? )
4. She just did a random checking ... but come on la ..kalau btul2 security takkan nak random je.
5. but i like to think that she jeles with me .. coz im cuter than her ... hahahahahhaha....

what ever it is .. i don't think she had the right to ask me took off my tudung.. terasa agak racist. If she really want to perform her duty checking my tudung yang maybe boleh sembunyikan bomb .. at least she should do it in private.. bukan nye kat public. .. and rase sungguh menyesal for not stand up for what she's done to me...terasa agak hina gak la:(. uhhh .. the most unforgettable experience yang jadik penutup my Europe tour for this year...

July 12, 2005

sampai bila kah?

Quote from yahoo news. From a mother of those yang missing during the blast.


"I need to know, I want to protect him," said Marie Fatayi-Williams, who arrived from Nigeria to find out what happened to her immigrant son Anthony, 26. "How many tears shall we cry? How many mothers' hearts must be maimed? My heart is maimed at this moment."

July 11, 2005

~ A silent moment ......

Hari ni I bring sumai and the geng to petticoat lane market kt Liverpool St. On the way bile kitorang pass trafalgar square tetiba ... Booommm .. a very loud bang come from nowhere .. terus jantung aku tersentap .. is that another bombing?? Alhamdulilah its only an event sempena hari memperingati World war 2. Ahh ..traumanya jalan2 kat london sekarang ni .. trauma pasal takut benda tu happen for the second time and trauma takut reaction org2 local. Tapi seriously aku salute org2 local. I don't feel any different on their treat before and after the incident. Even on the Thursday mase kejadian tu I was advised by my coursemate yang local suruh balik cepat2 from college. He really concern with my safety as I'm wearing scarf.. based on what happen after 11 Sept banyak org pakai scarf kene attack. Alhamdulillah everything smooth je kat sini. On the Friday tu semua dah jalan macam biasa. Bak kata Blair.. daya pulih diorng very high. And seriusly kalau sape2 datang london this weekend you won't see any different. Oxford St masih ramai macam biasa...flea market pun banyak je stall even the blast took place dekat area2 tu je. Rasanya kalau benda ni happen kat Malaysia, lama gak org akan berkabung ... maybe it's their culture yang kita patut contoh.

Anyway .. I chat with one of my friend lepas kejadian bombing kat london. There were some point I really2 dun agree with him. Adakah patut dia cakap
"Best gak ada bom ni . Baru tril sikit. kira pengalaman idup tu....em.. yea le.
janji kau selamat tp kalu ada dlm tube best gak. pengalaman siot.. mana ada jual
kat kedai"

Ye memang benda ni pengalaman hidup but just imagine the victim .. the family betapa diorng risau. Though im not terlibat directly pun tapi bile nak naik tube sekarang pikir banyak kali. so bayangkan org yang terlibat betul2. Maybe for some people, its a story .. but for me I prefer to just read the story rather being in it.....

July 07, 2005

I miss malaysia...

two post in a day .. huhhuhu a good improvement. Anyway this morning Suri mentioned abt explosion kat Oxford circus.. On the way to college macam2 siren kete bunyi and even kat park ada kerete dok ronda2. And when i reach college all the entrance ada security check .. wallah hai ..is it another disaster?? Takutnya... Doakan kami selamat yek.

Dear Colleagues,

Staff will already be aware that there have been a series of terrorist attacks on the London Transport system this morning.

Metropolitan Police Commissioner, Sir Ian Blair, has been on TV to give this message:

(1) Stay where you are
(2) Do not contact the emergency services unless it is a life threatening
situation
(3) The Police will broadcast more information as soon as the situation has been
clarified

It is advised that all staff follow this advice, at this time, unless there is an urgent need to do otherwise.

The College has already taken appropriate security measures in respect of its own
buildings.

The Government has announced a national helpline number (0871) 222 2958.

Further updates will be issued throughout the day on Spectrum as the situation evolves

Stop complaining!!

Sharing with all a story forwarded by a friend.. very enlightment .. so now stop complaining!!!!

After a conversation with one of my friends, he told me despite taking 2 jobs, he brings back barely above 1K per month,he is happy as he is. I wonder how he can be as happy as he is considering he has to skimp his life with the low pay to support a pair of old parents, in-laws, a wife, 2 daughters and the many bills of a household.He explained that it was through one incident that he saw in India... that happened a few years ago when he was really feeling low and touring India after a major setback.He said that right in front of his very eyes he saw an Indian mother chop off her child's right hand with a chopper. The helplessness in the mother's eyes, the scream of pain from theinnocent 4-year-old child haunted him until today.You may ask why did the mother do so; had the child been naughty,had the child's hand been infected?? No, it was donefor two simple words- - -TO BEG! The desperate mother deliberately caused the child to behandicapped so that the child could go out to the streets to beg.Taken aback by the scene, he dropped a piece of bread he waseating half-way. And almost instantly, a flock 5 or 6 children swamped towards this small p! iece of bread which wascovered with sand, robbing bits from one another. The natural reaction of hunger.Stricken by the happenings, he instructed his guide to drive himto the nearest bakery. He arrived at two bakeries and bought every single loaf of bread he found in the bakeries. Theowner was dumbfounded but willingly sold everything. He spent less than $100 to obtain about 400 loaves of bread (this isless than $0.25 per loaf) and spent another $100 to get daily necessities.Off he went in the truck full of bread into the streets. As he distributed the bread and necessities to the children (mostly handicapped) and a few adults, he received cheers and bows from theseunfortunate. For the first time in his life he wondered how people can give up their dignity for a loaf of breadwhich cost less than $0.25.He began to tell himself how fortunate he is. How fortunate he isto be able to have a complete body, have a job, have a family, have the chance to complain what food is nice and what isn't nice, have the chance to be clothed, have the many things that these people in front of him are deprived of...Now I begin to think and feel it, too! Was my life really that bad? Perhaps... no, I should not feel bad at all... What about you? Maybe the next time you think you are, think about the child who lost one hand to beg on the streets."Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, it is the realization of how much you already have.
"When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us."


It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past,you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

June 23, 2005

Don't touch .... Stupid!!!

yuhooo .. i'm back with another completed mission of my tour. This time i went to Berlin and Praque with my rumate suri and unofficial rumate ... naiza. As usual mana2 tempat gi sure ada je unforgetable scene so this time ada gak la benda yang tak disangka2 but it will make the story kan ... life without spices macam boring la plak. anyway here some benda2 yang i still ingat

1. When we try to ask direction utk Hard Rock Cafe ..ada la mamat ni punya la confident kasik direction to us.

Us: Hello ... do u know where hard rock cafe?
mamat: Oo ... just turn
right and then left and straight.
Us: Is it near?
Mamat: about 10
minutes to 15 minutes ..
us : oo .. thanks alot ..

so we just follow the direction and on the way tu jumpa la Berlin gate. Lepas dah amik2 gambo kat berlin gate tu .. kitorng pun nak la teruskan ke Hard Rock Cafe tapi nasib baik la tanya kat tourist information dulu sebab rupanya2 Hard Rock cafe is at another side of Berlin. Dekat ngn tempat kitorg datang mase first2 .. which abt 20 minute by bus from Berlin gate tu. Cisss .. tah Ah Lok cafe mane la agaknye mamat tu kasik direction.

2. We took train from Berlin to Praque. Mase nak beli train tu minah kat counter tu cakap.. " Oooo.. the train at 5.26pm is full. If u still want it .. you have to stand". Alamak ..cam gane ni dah la memang plan nak tido dlm train ..tapi disebabkan memang rase tak sempat nak amik train kol 3 lebih so berdiri pun diri la. Anyway.. train station yang kitorng naik is the first station so when we board tak ramai sangat dalam train.. dapat la seat. But as we were told by the counter girl tu yang kena berdiri.... Me, naiza and Suri pretending to sleep dengn harapan if we took someone's seat .. org tu tak sampai hati nak kejutkan...so everytime ada org lalu je .. me akan bukak mata sket ala2 busybody takut mane2 tau owner seat tu dok cari seat dia. Penat je la dok pretend2 tapi sampai ke Praque banyak kosong je seat. Ciss .. pandai2 je counter girl tu takut2kan kitorng.

3. We reach praque dah malam .. so semua kedai dah tutup and we don't have any Praque coins utk tepon Sara so we plan to take Cab to her hse. But with help from local ppl we manage to get to her hse using Metro and Tram for free. So the next day .. disebabkan berjaya mengelak membayar Metro .. kitorng dgn confident terus naik Metro without buying the ticket but huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ... kantoi. Kena penalty 400 Crown Korona. Banyak tu .. dekat 10 pound. They didn't accept explaination so terpakse la bayar...:(. SO melayang la angan2 nak beli painting yang rege 400CK. So the lesson .. lain kali jangan la buat macam transport hak milik sendiri yek...

4. We watched a puppet show .. DOn Giovanni. A play by Mozart. Although tak paham but it really fascinate tgk tangan2 diorang bergerak to control the puppet.

5. There was a time Suri try to goda budak bawah umo .. heheehhehehe ..Actually she asked the boy to snap photo for us. Lepas dia dah pass the camera to the boy .. dia pun cakap la " oo budak ni cute n comel gak" .. i guess the boy paham kot the word cute tu .. terus tersenyum dengan malunya .. sampai tak terpress button camera. punya la gabra nak sebab terasa ditackle kot ..

6. saya kena marah ngn ada pakcik emo kat dalam national Gallery... huuhhhuhh ... "Hish ... DOn't touch..........Stupid". ni semua gara2 nak rase painting kat situ.

Overall .. Praque is awesome .. really a nice country and tak sangka they have a great history ( don't ask me .. ask Google yek) .. tapi agak pening sebab dia guna Crown Korona so my advise kalau nak gi mana2 country yang convertion rate pelik .. bawak la calculator...

June 16, 2005

Engineer vs URTV

sometimes emm .. actually most of the time rasanya i more suitable become a columnist kat URTV rather than being an engineer.. i knew most of the gosip abt celebrity life rather than how to operate an oscilloscope .. huhhhhh i think its time to consider abt changing my career ..

June 13, 2005

Did I dream??


Please come and see me on Monday between 10am and 3pm.
Stepan


Alamak cam mane .. kol 10 baru bangun. nasib dynamic range besar ..:)

June 05, 2005

Myself in this two week

uhh .. lots of thing happen recently tapi malas btul la nak mengupdate blog. So here bit and pieces of my two week update


1. My Italy tour
Another backpackers low budget tour yang selamat pegi and selamat jua balik ...but this time just me and cpah je mengadai nyawa try membaca peta2 yang tak seberapa. First day meround di Venice sambil terasa cam artis sebab semua org asyik nak pandang je.. Maybe sebab both of us pakai tudung kot... tak kisah la .. i like attention hahahhahaha ..( btul ke?).
Anyway second day terdemam la plak.. so sampai je kat florence tertido la sat. Lepas dah kebah sket terus jalan2 sambil gambo2 and mencari mercato. The biggest attraction kat florence atleast for me is the market tapi apakan daya once we found the market .. most of the bazar dah nak tutup. Sedihnye. I really2 wait for this moment tapi hukhukhukhuk ... nak wat guane.
The third day we meet owwe kat Pisa and sempat la bergambo2 sambil tolak menara pisa yang sangat ringan tu. Lepas penat membanting tulang menolak and menahan leaning tower tu .. kitorng pun beramai2 ke Siena plak. Its a nice place tapi kitorng banyak dok melepak je kat piazza apa tah namanya.
The next day we took train ke Rome dlm kol 9am. As usual la disebabkan keboringan I slept all the way. Tetiba cpah kejutkan ..." imah ..kita kat mane ni?" ..Aku ngn mata2 agak blur takleh berpikir sat tengok all the cabin dah kosong. Uhh .. apakah ini. Dimanakah kami? It only 10.30 am. Budget2 pun kol 12 baru sampai Rome. Do we have to change train? I looked my ticket tapi takde pon any information. Nak tanya org .. dah kosong. Huwaaaa .. adakah kami dah tertinggal? Finally I decide to go out and ask people kat platform. " Excuse me .. which station is this?" .. Dgn bersemangatnye pompuan tu jawab " Roma termini" .. me dgn tak percaya tanya banyak kali .. Yes !!! dah sampai rome rupanya. hahahhahaha .. rupanya we took a fast train so it only 1 and 1/2 hour je dari florence ke Rome. Itu la .. tido lagi.
So the next two day we spent kat Rome. Macam tak percaya je I've been to Rome .. huhhuhhuuhhuhu. Actually the biggest drive for me utk sambung blaja sebab nampak gambo Ina ( my ex-colleague) kat depan Colliseum. la la tu terus check MARA web and bersemangat gi Education Fair. The day before balik London kitorng tido kat airport. Huhhhuhhh .. macam tak percaya je guek dah jadik minah rempit tido kat airport. Though tak le best tido kat airport but finally merasa dah.. sakit semua badan2 guek... hehehehehehe..
Other thing yang happen dlm tour ni yang takleh dilupakan bile bangun2 pagi baru sebar our rumate kat Florence is actually a guy.(its 3 bed dorm) I book 4 female dorm tapi maybe pakcik bengong yang spooky tu main kasik je any avalaible bilik. Jahat btul .. nasib la muke dia ala2 Tom Kurus ..so boleh dimaapkan la but we really try our best to avoid any contact with him. SO dia masih tido je kitorng dah kuar .. dia balik je kitorng dah tido... hhahahhaha...
Lagi satu .. kesalahan guek termasuk and mandi kat toilet laki2. kat sini meh la i wrote the real story from my own eyes .. hahahhaha utk menolak dakwaan cpah cakap aku pervert. This happen sebab mase org hostel tu dok tunjuk2 kan mane bilik me dgr.. "the right side is for shower and the left is the toilet". First of all most important info .. toilet tu nampak sama je dari pandangan mata kasar yek ... accept ada la tanda kat pintu masuk dia tu. So mase nak mandi tu terus la masuk ke right side without actualy tgk kat pintu tu. Tgk dlm tu ada gak toilet tapi just one is actually working. So i tot maybe the an extra toilet la kot. Bile dah settle semua and dok depan sink basuh muka ..tertiba nampak kelibat laki...( pakcik yang jaga hostel).. iskh terdetik gak dlm hati " Diorang ni adake toilet/shower laki pompuan pun nak share. Kemut btul". I keep on membasuh muke ..and as usually always my logical thinking came later...so tertiba terpikir lak " ke aku yang tersalah masuk toilet?.. iskh tapi takkan la" Me yang masih konpiden jgkkan kepala kat pintu luar just sekadar nak sedapkan hati. Alamak ternampak gambo org hitam tanpa skirt .. and me look at the other pintu .. there it is .. org hitam berskirt kat pintu lagi satu. Alamak .. tersalah masuk toilet... Hhuuhuhhhuh .. me dgrn kegabraan yang amat sgt .. terus grab all my stuff and move to the side. Fuhhh .. nasib tade ramai org just pakcik jaga hostel tu je yang nampak aku termasuk kat toilet laki. So itu la kisah sebenonye .. it's not im pervert ok. Overall the tour memang best but this time weather dia amat la panas sampai dengan rasa berbangga i choose to melaram ala2 cikgu PJK (u can check it kat my fotopages) mase kat rome sebab dah tahan panas. Biar la apa pakcik2 italy tu nak cakap.. yang panasnya aku.. hehehehehe....


2. My Msc project
Supposely i shud done something on my thesis project tapi everytime gi IC je sure my lect takde so sampai sekarang tade progress la. I just pegi IC utk tido either kat library or prayer room. Habis la cepat my project ni.


3. My bakal Manager
My future manager came to London as he had some work kat Ireland. So he took the opportunity to meet me as mase interview pun ikut phone je and he's not the one yang interview me but We've talk several time kat phone mase dia dok promote his department. Really a nice guy. First impression .. I really look forward to work under him. He seems very tolerate and realistic and he remind me of HN Tay. A boss who know how to become a boss.


4. My Ipod bargain
Tetiba makcik leli buzz me and told abt a really cheap IPOD kat amazon. Me yang memang nak IPOD dari dulu terus terhook kat Amazon. From mini IPOD to IPOD then to IPOD photo, I then decide to buy it straight away.. Huuhhuuhh . Makcik Leli dah berangan nak kaler biru or silver while me suggest she took the pink one. Just for a precaution step before buying .. I just mail the seller asking abt the warranty. Uhh perfect .. it come with 2 years warranty but he told me if I'm interested ..I have to send my detail to him and he will contact Amazon on my behalf. He told me I can't use Amazon system as he's credit card got some problem. So me tanpa berpikir panjang meng"ok"kan je .. and after sending my details to him .. I got an email which at first I believe from Amazon saying that I have to send the payment through Western Union. The mail also inform me that this is a very secure transaction as the seller have put 6000 quid in Amazon and the account will be freeze sampai my transaction selamat. So me promise the seller to send the money the next day. As I told u earlier .. my logical thinking always came later. I felt something fishy with the mail though secara kasar nampak from Amazon. Sebagai anak didik Detective Conan .. me send an email to Amazon Customer Service to confirm the mail and as apa yang dijangkakan .. I nearly became a fraud victim. Amazon never send the mail to me. Huwaaaaa ... nasib baik .. kalau tak melayang la duit guek... So kawan2 berjaga2 la.



itu je la laporan dari berita terkini.

May 19, 2005

buatKuTersenyum

Just finish my xm so it's time for rewards!!! ... I went out to take photo kat park but i end up kat whiteleys. hhhuuuuhhhuuhhu kenapa la mesti mall wujud in between?? so i have retail therapy instead of park therapy .. hhehehehehehe.... and i found something which I never know kewujudan dia.. aTRAVEL JOURNAL... yess finally I have it.

My new interest .... anything with travel :).

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my new travel journal...

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one of the book i bought during xm for a therapy :)

May 07, 2005

will me??

dapat note layang from my roomie few days ago.... jahattnye ...uhuuhuuhuu ... i still struggle .. :(

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April 26, 2005

walking after me

hukhhukkhukk ...baru just abis one paper VHDL... I need ice cream .. i need fried chicken .. i need something cooollll... kepala guek berasap. Another 8 to go....emm nak wat listing gak la ....

25 Apr VHDL and Synthesis

28 Apr High Performance Analogue

3 May Digital Signal Processing and Filter

6 May Instrumentation

9 May Digital IC design

10 May Radio Frequency ELectronic

11 May Analogue IC design

16 May Synthesis Digital Architecture
kena drop sebab tak wat assignment .. hehehehehe guek tak berjaya belajo C++ guna web .. asyik tersalah bukak page je ..:)

Current Mode Electronic

Optical Communcation


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** nekzaa .. ni le cete yang aku cakap .....

April 24, 2005

do_ram_cycle?

~~..After going on your life changing journey you now realize you don't want what you thought you want. what u really want was inside you all along..~~


I love spongeBob... huhuhuhuu

April 20, 2005

counting down

it's only a few days away from my xm. im very scared... the feeling is not the same like before. I don't have the confident ..im not sure adakah sebab im a bit old to digest all these stuff.. or bcos of my main motive coming to uk bukannye nak study??? the worst i dun feel guilty of not being seriously revise my lecture..i really2 takut :(
~ sometimes when u feel u can control urself .. u drift even more ...

April 16, 2005

emm .. tetiba terasa cam nak beli ipod.. patutkah??? ANyway i found this link.. x sure it useful ke x .. >> IPOD

April 10, 2005

Sunday Morning

I woke this morning and ...

Suri .. k.im rase dah decide. i wanna go to italy after xm. huyooo ... my next tour plan.

Who cares if that someone likes the other someone bcos of their race. Its when they hate them that's the problem....

April 07, 2005

Ibarat anjing ngn bayang2

why i always cannot make a decision? I always want everything although it not possible... which later i might regret. why? why? why? ...Truly feel like anjing dengan bayang2. arghhhhh...
.... it easy to choose which sayur u want to buy but really difficult to choose which shampoo u wanna use ( takde kene mengena pun) .....that what life is....
~ The clock stop ticking ... but my mind will always thinking ..huhuuhuuuu ye la tu...

April 04, 2005

CT haliza not CT han

Finally dapat masuk pun Royal Albert Hall. It was a great hall but I prefer outdoor archi better compared to it's indoor archi. I was there last Friday for CT in concert. Wowww ..the concert was really great. CT make lots of improvement over this 10 yrs in term of dance vocal .. everything ... but still in the beginning she quite nervous. Maybe takut tersalah cakap etc but later when she converse in Malay .. she gain her confident. I like her first dress... white .. lawa. Dress yang lain pun ok gak .. but the 'white' and the 'cream' dress were the best ( for me la kan). Even hall tu tak le penuh but ramai gile malaysian yang datang. Some even came all the way from Malaysia for this concert. Sultan Pahang was there .. and also wife of deputy PM. Rasanya Sultan Brunei pun ada gak. Artis lak .. ada Azza elite, Shasha elite, Hana elite ( tiga2 pun rambut dah karat) .. Chef wan ( i sat near him .. amboi menari sakan pakcik tu) .. annuar zain ( tak nampak pun .. i only saw him kat mawar) ...Shah reza yassalam and of course Fazley la kan.

March 29, 2005

Equality or stupidity

I received a forward mail from a fren few weeks ago abt a woman professor kat US yang lead a Friday Prayer on 18 March. At first I dun give a damn sebab muka prof tu macam Bush yang diperempuankan and dipakaikan tudung ( which i also received from a forward mail a year ago). So i thot it must be a joke being pass thru the net .. not until i read a post dlm yahoo grp. So i click on google bar to find something under word Amina Wadud. Wahhh .. sungguh banyak. Even BBC and CNN make a cover abt this. It must be real!!!!
What I dun understand how she actually want to fight for equality by leading a Mixed Friday prayer?? It all nonsense. She must eat lots of Ajimonoto.. She can't expect "sameness" by the means of equality. It's all wrong. Woman and Man are two different thing. They have different responsiblity. They are means for completion for each other like the concept of Ying and Yang by having a cross function not a parallel function. I know there are some Islamic country where woman are not treated as they shud be .. but it's not bcos of Islam. For me Islam is all abt equality. Maybe she not actually fighting inequality on Islam but she try to create a new religion having her as a center.
If we look the pic carefully, there are some woman not wearing their hijab during the prayer. This really not an Islamic prayer. They not performing an Islamic Prayer but maybe just a prayer for their new religion under the mask of Islam. Im not sure where she will be heading in future for what she called "equality" .. maybe her next step is by declaring " woman shud not wear hijab.. why must they wear it while man can hv less aurat" or maybe " woman shub able to marry 4 in one time"... argghhhhhh ... i hate when ppl actually using Islam for their own agenda.

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March 25, 2005

Sky Need To have Clear N Blue

I've been remembering my childhood memory this past few days. I'm not sure why.. maybe ive been missing my home so badly kot.

Anyway , here some of cete mase kecik2 yang tetiba terpop up... normally me n my adik2 just main dekat depan rumah je. Only after 5 we went out for outdoor games like guli, getah and also pistol cerry. I like to play guli but normally im the one yang lost all the guli and my brother was the one yang gained back all the guli. :) and now bile semua dah tak main guli lagi .. we hv one bottle full with guli yang jadik khazanah utk dipass pada anak2 sedara tapi rasanya budak2 sekarng dah tak main guli lagi kot.So simpan je la kot .. mane tau boleh jadik barang antik.

I have this neighbour, acir who used to come to my hse everyday. Kitorng start kawan when he just abt 2 years old though my brother mase tu dah start tadika and ai dah sekolah rendah. Dulu tak pernah perasan kawan ngn budak kecik sampai la bila dah keje .. macam pelik dia masih sekolah lagi. He just took his SPM before I went to UK. Bila kira2 tahun baru la perasan mase dia dok lepak ngn kitorng .. he just 2 years old. Btw adalah satu ketikanye ... my parent tade and org lain tgh tido siang ( i dun like to sleep during afternoon) he come to our hse. Mase tu terpikir la nak try to use him as the my tikus putih experiment. My ayah ada le simpan shaver dlm cupborad. I always wonder how it work and nak try guna. So i try it on him :). I try to shave his leg but nothing happen. So i thought the shaver are not working. SO i use on my face and unlucky me .. i shave half my eyebrows. hahahahhahaah .. dah la kening nipis .. dishave lagi. uhuhhuh ...

For pistol cherry .. i still remember Cik Meng sungguh baik hati tolong buatkan pistol for me yang tau main je. Teringat cete pasal pistol cherry teringat la kat my jiran sorang ni who always think he's superior than us. he a year younger than me. So one day when we plan to have a pistol cerry games .. he suddenly come to us and want to join .. but nak dia sorang2 dlm satu team. He said he's a rambo and can beat all of us. Ok no big deal la kan if he think so. But during the games .. everyone shooting tak berenti towards him and he finished all his cherry. Maybe sebab dah nak kalah kot ..dia terus bang his pistol to the walls and broke it and shout at us. Everyone scared and run. Lepas tu huhuhhuh ... i'm not allowed to enter his hse for couple of week :(

March 12, 2005

i want to jump ....

I've been crazy these pass few days just to get this draw pixel.. arghhhhhhh ... geramnya...

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February 13, 2005

a quid and a few pences

While having a light chat with my friends kat Starbuck, I was distracted by a guy sit in front of us. ..saw him walk in before but just ignore maybe he was there waiting for his friend. Later, i saw him counting coins from his plastic bag ( macam plastic cpah letak duit kat spain but his just coins ) while his eyes staring at the price board.. its the point where i start lost in our conversation ... i start hear nothing from my friends .. i seems to be in my own world... feel sorry for him ... Assume he plan to buy coffee to warm himself but dun't have enuf money. At the end ... he put all the coins back in the plastic .. stand up and walk out from the shop.. I try to imaging if i was in that situation.. (though he actually can find a cheaper coffee) but what if i dun hv money to buy food? What if I hv to count to my last pence or cent to buy a loaf of bread or a packet of maggi? aaaaa....It will be a terrible experience. Hope none of my family and friends have go thru it.
~ The eyes look sad .. but the pain is inside....

February 07, 2005

A little memory won't hurt

Semalam ada ConAir kat channel 5. Bila tgk balik teringat zaman sekolah... zaman bentang kain batik kat BBCourt.. We have movie twice a month on Friday night. It's a must for everyone utk tgk movie though most of the time aku tido so i dun really remember cete apa yang aku tgk .. but some of it yang still ring my bell macam Connair, The hand that Rock the cradle, Captain hook, Fantasia, Lion King, The rock .... tu je kot. Yang lain semua dah tak ingat. What a waste. uhhh .. but of course I still remember how we rush after friday's dinner utk book tempat kat BBCourt. hahahahahha .. Macam lawak je bila bab membook ni. Back then masa zaman sekolah everything pun kena book. Dari turn shower, phone, iron, membasuh, buku cete sampai la tempat kat study room. The famous word ..emm book after. Kekadang nak cari org yang last punya la susah .. berangkai2. Utk shower lak .. anything can be use as bahan pem'book'an. Dari sebesar2 bucket sampai la la sebesar tutup gam..creative sungguh :) I'm not sure if they still have this tradition bila pindah ke cyberjaya. For me .....those are some of memories yang aku still treasure...

~See No evil, Hear No Evil, Say No Evil

February 06, 2005

les Miserables

Been to Les miserables on Thursday at Queens Theatre. Quite a kewl place but a bit stuffy so I prefer Istana budaya lagi rasanya. The performance was very nice except one scene terperasan la plak org kat belakang try to get out from the stage. The rest... it 's really a beautiful show. A sad story happen masa zaman renaissaince ( i guess).. Tak sabar nak tgk phantom of opera ... :)

~What I have .. I have to share.

January 31, 2005

For any Reason

On your day just want to say
That you can count on me
To be your friend until the end:
Just wait and you will see!
I know that you would be as true
To me for just as long.
No "if" or "but," no matter what,
Our friendship will be strong.
So, my dear,
I'm glad you're here
To share my joy and pain.
I care so much, so keep in touch--
I'll talk to you again!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SURESH :)

January 19, 2005

Biarlah Bulan Bicara

I just got lagu Biarlah Bulan Bicara by Zahid. Try to download this song for couple of time tapi tak berjaya... finally baru la dapat .. itu pun amik from org lain. Previously, I got the Boery's version from owwe and now I can't help but comparing between Boery and him. The same song but have different effect bila dengar. When Boery nyanyi lagu ni .. it full with emotion and I really feel sad. The same feeling I have bila dengar lagu Yesterday tapi when I heard Zahid's version I don't feel anything.... just a nice song. Is it me ... or is it the song??

~ Future won't exist without looking back to yesterday ....

January 18, 2005

A muslim or a chineese

"Are you chineese? You face look like a chineese but you are Muslim."


Why there must be a confusion between my religion and my race???

January 17, 2005

I'm not ....

Something weird happen to me today. After my VHDl class, aku terus heading up to surau. Mase tgh jalan tu , I open my cokelat cadbury wrapper and terus sumbat a pieces into my mouth. as the cokelat melted, terasa la ada crunchies2 dlm my mouth so I look back to my lebihan cokelat kat tangan. Alamak!!!! I ate krypton ....there are alot of small2 pieces of krypton in my cokelat... huhhuhuhuuhuuh .. I'm going to die !!!!!!! But wait .. it already half a minute passed but Im still okay ... so then I realize Im not supergirl ... Im not born in Smallville.

January 16, 2005

RelaKuPujUK

I'm listening to Juara Lagu, live thru THR online. It was a shock bila Spider menang with lagu Rela Ku pujuk. I like this song very much ( the truth I like Tam .. so I like Spider which lead me to like the song :) ) ... So when I knew diorang masuk Juara Lagu, just hope they will win juara Pop Rock tapi tup2 even Juara lagu pun diorang sambar. So right after Sarimah/Najib annouce the result, aku straight text my adik .. just to express how happy I am sebab Spider menang. After a few minutesI got a reply from her.

Kakak pun tengok juga. adik rindu.semua kirim salam. bye.

I read it twice dengan ke'blank'an. why my sister tulis macam gini. It took me a few seconds before realize the text was typed by my anak sedara. I suppose my sister tgh overnight kat rumah Abang kot. So when she got my text, it was Kakak ( my anak sedara) yang type and reply back to me. Huwaaaaaaaaa .. sungguh sedih .. I missed them so much. Though just a simple text but make me hukhukhukhukkkhukkk .. sedih la ... Cepat la balikkkkkkkk ...... Nak balikkkkkk.

~ Life will be easy if you have nothing to think of .... but will be painfull if you have no one...

January 14, 2005

My new year resolution

it's already half a month passed but i dun think it's too late for me to wrote down my new year resolution ...harapnya with this resolution written down .. i'll have a guide whenever Im lost.

1. Im going to be on time for my class.. tak moh lambat2 and tak moh ponteng2 lagi.
2. Im going to finish my uk tour and cover most of the country in Europe.
3. I need to latih myself become a good muslimah.
4. I want to find a better job ...
5. I want to hv at least a basic converse skill in French ... arghhhhh pls help!!!!!
6. I want to save at least 50 pound per month ...tapi tolak januari ... mampukah??


January 10, 2005

No turning back ....

I wonder ... and im confuse....


January 06, 2005

What woman want

... What woman Want starring by Mel Gibson and Helen Hunt. Rasa cam dah tgk tapi biasa la dah tak ingat .. so takpe la i just bantai tgk lagi semalam. abt Mel gibsan yang suddenly gifted to hear what woman say in their heart after kena electrical shock in a bath tub yang banyak woman stuff. A normal story but make me wonder ...Is it a gift to hear what other people say in their heart? Or is it a curse? Do I really want to know what other people say in their heart abt me? Do I really want others to know what I say? Do I really means what I say in my heart or it just some devils of mine who likes to talk? Sometimes I really want people to know what I think .. what I feel as there are things which hard to speak out ...but most of the time I think it will be good if Im the only one who know it. All the nasty thought ... huhuhuuhuuuhuhh ....
And the most important thing .. do we will know what they want by hearing what they said in their heart and know what their thinking??? I know what I'm thinking and I totally sure with what I say in my heart but still I don't know what I want ... weirdooo ahh??

I remember having my lunch with Alex and Victor last year when their brought similar topic. How good if we can know what other people thinking .. but we end up with no conclusion .
.. So does it really a good thing???

January 02, 2005

Do I deserve to complaint anything???

~When I'm laughing ... someone actually crying ...
~When I'm eating ... someone atually starving....
~When I'm sleeping soundly .. someone actually shievering in the darkness of night...
~When I have my family... someone actually losing their loves one ..
~When I still breathing .. someone actually fighting with death ...

*** Al fatihah to mangsa2 tsunami .. anywhere they are .. may Allah bless us