I'm free

Finally I'm kinda if free from my work burden. This pass 2 weeks at least i can sleep well and wake up with some happy feeling. No one to bug me .. no one to call me every one hours and I'm happy. I can start having my life back .. I have time to do my cleaning routine which make me happy too. I can start plan my weekend and I'm so happy for the freedom that I have now.
Tapi aku pelik .. when ppl are in their worst time why so many blame happen? Masa awal2 nak buat .. no one want the task. You guys can just ignore this .. i want membebel utk meluahkan perasan je. In my project .. i was supposed to deliver block X. It was given to YH but he dont want to do because even designer need 6 months for that. So he said .. then it's not possible for him to do it. My boss ask me and i just took the block and do it. And the same time .. it kind of excite me in the beginning as I'll be able to do new stuff. I encounter lots of issue and when I struggling to resolved my few last issue before the 1st design handover, YH came and said to me .. if I'm OK if he create another X block just incase mine is not working. I just say OK but it did break my heart. If he really want to help .. why dont he help me with my block or why dont he take the task when it first being given to him. Anyway I managed to completed the block but some how my design are very flabby. This block X is use to boot Os and we encounter lots of issue and some of the issue is due to my block X. Then the DE/Core team start talking ... that the OS boot is delayed due to issue on Block X. Yes .. i get the blame again while initially they dont want to do it. It was so frustated working in this environment. In the beginning, I just fix issue on Block X everytime ppl who work in OS boot file an issue or email me the issue. But later stage .. some how I became the validator who debugging the issue, simulate the issue, fixing the issue and creating the images. I've been putting myself to the max during this time and it really break me down... and even my family and friend impacted with this. Everytime my phone ringing I scared .. and hoping its a wrong numder. Anyway .. those thing is over.. but yesterday conversation with my friend make me even hurt. My friend said .. that a friend said .. give him 30 days and he can bring the OS up. I know he capable of doing that but it hurts to hear that as it give me feeling .. all the sacrifice i made is not worth at all.

He butterscotch and I'm chocolate raisin

Last weekend aku dok becanda kat air terjun celebrate birthday kawan, Miss S. So salah satu gosip yg kuar pasal member aku Miss S nak match making Miss B with Mr P. FYI Miss S, Miss K and Mr P blaja sama2 kat german so all of them know each other la. Kitorang gi mandi air terjun 7 org including Miss S, Miss K and Miss B. Miss K and Miss B just met for this clebration while the other 6 of us agak selalu gak le spend masa bersama2. When the subject pasal nak match make Miss B with Mr P di diskuskan... Miss K buat muka " what .. x de org lain ke ko nak matchkan". Tapi Miss S cakap le .. sesuai.. sorang drama queen and sorang drama king. After a while with Miss B, then Miss K cakap .. " ok2 .. betul la sesuai .. sama2...".

hahaha .. my point bukan nak mengcompiuskan kan korang dgn so many Miss XYZ .. but i wonder for a good relationship, which one better. Does you need to be similar or you need to be ying and yang. I wasnt really thinking abt this until my friend offer me butterscoth gardenia. I know lots of ppl like this butterscoth and I've been dying to try one ever but always sold out kat petronas. Until one day i managed to buy it. Even butterscoth is more popular but i realized i like chocolate raisin more. So should i look for ppl that like chocolate raisin .. or i'll be happy with butterscoth.

I asked my good friend abt this if he butterscoth and his gf cokelat raisin or both of them is the same. He told me .. he and his gf, they are totally different sampai type of bread x leh nak mendescribekan diorang but they prefectly happy.

So does similarity and differences important in relationship?? Emm aku masih x sure what the conclusion weh...