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so tired today .. maybe sebab fasting. Hahahha .. baru nak ganti puasa. Anyway while surfing the net i found some advise. Maybe we should be more neutral on our current politic situation... :)

And pursue not that of which thou hast no knowledge; for every act of hearing, or of seeing or of (feeling in) the heart will be enquired into (on the Day of Reckoning).
--Al-isra' 36

Prayer Helps Us Chip Away Our Egotism

Good reads on prayer.. tapi teringat lak satu cerita yang aku baca. This guy going to government office to apply for a tender or something la. Tapi org kat situ cakap " kejap ye .. org yang in charge tgh sembahyang". So he wait .. after 10 minutes that lady in charge pun sampai. After fill up form etc, the lady said " kalau nak process cepat.. u bayar RM40.. kalau tak, entah bila siap"... rasa kelakarkan..

Prayer Helps Us Chip Away Our Egotism
7/10/2008 - Religious Education Interfaith - Article Ref: WP0807-3614
Number of comments: 1
Opinion Summary: Agree:1 Disagree:0 Neutral:0
By: Karen Armstrong
Washington Post* -

I always had difficulty with prayer. If God knows everything and is, as the Qur'an says, closer to me than my jugular vein, why did he need to hear my requests?

I disliked the idea of a God who demands endless praise - he reminded me of a tyrant who demands constant, obsequious abasement from his subjects. Surely God did not need to be reminded that he had created the world and that we are all miserable sinners, as we say so frequently in our liturgy.

And I had great problems with petition. Why should God answer my prayers, when he so clearly fails to heed the prayers of many hopeless people throughout the world? I also did not really believe in a God who would intervene in history and change the natural order: Why should he avert a storm from the location where I am planning a picnic and send the storm onto some other unfortunate folk?

But then I came to understand that prayer is really for us. It is selfishness and egotism that hold us back from God and our best selves. We use language to build a protective carapace around ourselves, to ward off attack and to bolster our self-esteem. How rare it is to really apologize; and how frequently the person who does apologize points out that you too are somewhat to blame for what has occurred.

How rare it is really to praise. There is a nasty little part of us that feels impaired by somebody else's success or good fortune. I recall a friend once saying to me: "Oh Karen! Congratulations on your marvelous reviews!" And then, almost immediately: "Have you put on weight recently?" People are often reluctant truly to thank somebody from the bottom of their heart or to express need: It is a tough world and you have to seem in control.

But prayer teaches us to use language in a different way: To thank, praise, and beg pardon wholeheartedly, without holding anything back. And as we do that, we chip away at our egotism. And that, in turn, will make us a force for good to the people around us and make the world a better place-without asking God to perform a miracle.

My future

While watching macam-macam aznil, my sister cerita la pasal previous episode. Aznil called 3 kids, sorang indian and lagi 2 tu Malay. Then he asked the kid " Nanti besar nak jadik apa?"... The malays kids cakap nak jadik artis la .. but the indian tu despite aznil tanya nak jadik artis ke, penyanyi ke dia jawab nak jadik dr or scientist.Emmm ... we can see the different of thinking ..and it scary because they are our future. I didnt mean jadik artist tu salah if they really mean it, put effort on it .. became a genious on music etc and not just day dreaming utk jadi glamour.
si bapa sibuk dok ke sini sana hantar petition Malays right, si emak dok sibuk suruh anak bergelek.. so anak tu terus day dreaming while keep on blaming other races who came to Malay land and took their right. Salah sapekah itu??

the news sucks

Semakin hari news kat malaysia ni make me sick.. x kisah la thestar ke .. malaysia-today ke .. people lie everyday .. people manipulate words everyday .. i wonder how they can sleep at night... sometimes people just simply say something yang diorang x tau apa2 pun. :(

Naruto ... Please dont read if you dont want to spoil your anime

I just finished reading Naruto Manga over the weekend. Uhhuhuh .. sangat la sedih and tak dapat nak bayangkan what will happen in future. Sasuke finally killed his brother and after he killed him, he only know the truth that all this while, his brother try to protect him while uphold the peace. I cannot imagine how sasuke felt. For those who reading naruto, you know that the reason of existence for Sasuke is to revenge for his clan by killing his brother. He give up everything for his revenge. Now he not only lost his reason of existence but also his brother. Faster Naruto, find sasuke ... he really need you :(.
I cannot imagine what if something that we hold, we breath and life with it , end up to be false and it was too late to regret it like sasuke .. sungguh sedihkan .. emmm actually the feeling is deeper than sedih sebab sekarang ni pun, I feel pain when thinking abt it.
Ini tak masuk lagi future sedih sebab its turn out that the people yang responsible with Uchiha clan wiped off is the elder from Konoho. So nanti Naruo has to fight with sasuke ... uhuhhuh sedih macam manakah?? tak sabar nak tunggu .. hahahhaha

Sepi

I'm watching sepi yesterday. Quite good movie and I like it. I think I like it more than Cinta. So I guess I'm more lonely person than loving person :p. I was talking to my friend about sepi and how the movie touch my heart, then suddenly my frined asked me. "Do you think a lot of people sepi?" My answer?, " Yes .. I think everyone sepi either we realising or not". Then my friend asked again " Why you say that" ... and i realize i dont have the answer .. I just say it but I do think its true. So I just keep quiet.. hahahahah .
But later I started asking my sister and my mum .. Both their answer slightly identical. "Kita rasa sepi bile malam takde apa nak buat, tv takde cerita best etc". From there I realize that sepi came when you dont have purpose.. and it same to life. In our life, sepi is always there if we didnt have purpose. As muslim, our solely purpose is to serve god and if we deprioritize that purppose, I guess that what make us "Sepi". But in real life, when we are busy with worldly task and attraction we do forget our real purpose. This what bring us closer to sepi either we realize or not. For most of people including me, we try to supress this sepi by tie ourselves busy sampai takde masa nak think or feel abt the sepi although it is there. We just lost our 6th sense.
Tiba2 terpikir satu benda lak. If you ask me what I think of sepi, my answer simply.. It's dark .. it black.. and empty. My friend also say that God are source of light and without Him, we totally in dark. I think in Quran also did say people who didnt believe in God is like a blind guy which mean he didnt get the light. Doesn't it related? Without God, we have no light and without light we are in dark.. and dark is SEPI.
It easy to find this connection but the hard thing is to pull yourself from this sepi :(

Naruto ....

I just want to share one thought that suddenly cross my mind. Recently I tgh dilanda demam naruto balik dgn adanya my imac. The anime was so good and it make me feel so humble. How love and friendship can lead to something impossible.The whole concept of this anime centred to a guy that have super power where he's not that skilled or even wise or smart or genious but he make everyone that ever met him to have bond to each other and willing to scariface their life for friend and family. I think thats the most super power in this world.
I notice the message totally different between japan anime and American cartoon. Take for example superman, spriderman or hulk. There are super duper mighty in power who try to uphold the justice. While the japanese anime like One Piece, Naruto, bleach is all about friendship and sacrifice. Notice or not this whole cartoon thingy do have some impact to our life. For example in US, there are a few case budak2 sekolah tembak org. Why they do that? We can say they are depressed but if we try to look from their perspective, they actually try to uphold justice in their own understanding. While you hardly heard this kind of thing in Japan. And japaneese are seens as one of the most loyal community in this world.
Then it come to the next question. Japanese anime and US cartoon are created by human or in another word by society and it does impact the society. So this thing will always be connected together like chicken and egg question. My friend help me to find a good sentence that describe all this ... Does art imitate people or people imitate art... It is a question that worth to give a thought....

My new toy :)

Conspiracy theory

Just now while having lunch, me and housemate talking abt our current polical drama yang semakin hangat mengalahkan soap opera. She come out with one conspricy theory which i nvr thought of but I do think people are capable to do that.
At first aku dok wonder la .. betul ke tuduhan sodomize kat Anuar tu. Macam rasa tak percaya. Although aku dok berapa suke dgn dia sebab rasa dia kejar kepentingan sendiri but the sodomize acussation tu macam agak berat. Tapi xkan le gomen begitu bodoh using the same tactic utk jatuhkan org yang sama. So here come my housemate theory which i think she also capable directing soap opera .. hehheheh
So her theory is that the latest sodomize accusation is fabricate by Anuar himself. Why? Because let say ada 2 org tgh bergaduh .. Ali & Abu. Suddenly Ali received a death threath. Logically semua org akan rasa Abu la yang hantar kan. What if ... Ali send to himself to gain pity or in this case more to support? Its so cunning right but human capable to do that. I just don't know Anuar too well to agree or disagree with this theory. There are several event that led her to make this conspiracy which one of it why it was so fast Wan Azizah has that guy photo with minister.
Another theory was on Najib's scandal. Keterangan bersumpah dari PI Razak baginda tu. What the he** x sampai 24 jam dah buat another keterangan yang berbeza. Did somebody are threaten him? or even the first keterangan bersumpah was fabricate to gain support? Confuse rite ...
But for sure, in all the scandal somebody are speaking the truth while there are ppl who lying. We as the audience can just listen and make our assumption. Will we ever know the truth ?? YES. Allah has promised us the day when everything will be revealed. Good deed will be reward accordingly and bad deed will be punished. It just, I'm not sure if I will be too free that time to busybody that time to findout who is correct as me too will be judge. :(. I just hope one day .. my world will be free of all this doubt ...