terawikh

Hari ni hari first aku gi terawikh .. not because my first puasa day ke apa .. but just no mood to go.. The past year awal2 bulan aku gi terawikh kat bayan lepas.. tapi selalunya bila dah dekat akhir2 bulan tu dah rongak. ada multiple reason .. But maybe the truth is i didnt feel it as something yg enjoyable kot...
From beginning, I didn't really like terawikh yg membaca abis satu quran.. bukan apa .. i just feel it defeat the purpose of me going to terawikh. As I dont hafal the quran ... i end up just listen n somehow it always lead to berangan.. so what the point of me going to terawikh if I berangan kan.. better I do something that benefit me. Tapi hari ni lepas bukak pose bersama2 colleague, i stop kat one of small surau utk solat maghrib. Sebab dah lagi 10 mins nak masuk isyak so aku tunggu je la .. After isyak, I decided utk tunggu je for terawikh..Amazingly I like it there...
First of all, the iman lead terawikh dgn ayat2 lazim and 8 rakaat saja.. Me super like... Right away rasa nak ambik balik alquran utk browse through ayat2 yg tersasul n tallykan ngn meaning dia.
No small kids .. it totally quiet masa solat tu.. x de sora budak ke sana ke sini menjerit etc.or main batu seremban. One of the reason I guess, the solat was quiet short n kids that come follow till the end.
Lots of old auntie .. that reminds me of old... i think in my row .. on my left n right side, had some difficulty to duduk tahiyat or bangun dari tahiyat.. they have to push they body. it just make me insaf that one day I'll be like them..

Selamat berpuasa

Selamat berpuasa to all Muslim friends... Time flies very fast .. just remember a year ago was ramadhan and I move to my new hse and now it ramadhan again.. This year .. ramadhan wasnt start with a good one.. somehow my heart are so panas .. and wasnt as calm as it suppose for holy month. I hope.. somehow along the way .. it become more soften but can I just hoping without any action? I noticed that I had a very less tolerance with bulshit or ppl that I think directly or indirectly hypocrite. It wasn't purposely but it just who I am ..  when u say something or do something .. it must be correct and must be aligned .
Some how reflecting it back to me .. me too like to bullshit. So does right to expect something from people but u cant do yourself?