muhibah

I just come back from my friend depa open hse. Quite amazing .. the hse that he stay has been there for 55 years and he's the 3rd generation that stay there. Next to his hse is 2 chinese hse on the left another indian muslim on the right. both chineese neighbour know how to speak tamil and his father know hokkien. And they has been very close to each other for 3 generation...In my place, we used to be close with our chinese neighbour when i was kid. Visiting them in the evening ...but now when we grow up, the uncle/auntie stay with their son somewhere far, only come back once a while .. and we never close to their sons/daughter that stay in their hse replacing them ... so my niece will never closes to their kids so our relationship only last 1 gen saja.
Even for my real "auntie", we visting each other during festive and wedding or any important occassion like my bro convocation etc ..and my mum did call my auntie once a while but i wonder when all the old generation passed away, will this relationship stay?

cheating

emm .. i had a scary dream a couple days ago.. rasanya ni semua pengaruh magazine that i read right before sleep... tu la .. kan mak cakap suruh baca ayah .. dok gak baca benda yg lagha ...
anyway .. i dream that i cheat my partner.. it wasn't clear either i was married or not that time ... tapi yg pastinya i'm cheating la. there is a new guy just come to my group .. ( em x sure group apa.. biasa la mimpi kan). We start talking .. and he make me laugh and felt seperti di atas awan which in that dream it been long time since my partner do the same thing.. and at that point .. although i know its wrong .. but i can't help to like it ... my heart beat faster .. and it just make me feel berbunga2 .. hahahha ... ( sorry le ekk .. i dont know how to describe it).. and at the same time i feel guilty .. because in that dream, i do know that i love my partner and this will hurt him .. so i was trapped in guilty and perasan yg berbunga2 tu. the feeling was too strong sampai bile aku bangun pun .. it gave me a deep impact which make me feel a bit down. Now i know why ppl cheat .. and i think one of the reason why people did not cheat sebab there is no org ketiga yg kasik perasan berbunga2 tu.. emm i'm not sure how easy to have this perasan berbunga2 .. sebab not all guy yg tackle u will give this feeling (some may make u iritated :p)... but i think if we are in relationship, better to avoid too close with other guy sebab kita tak tau if suddenly we have that perasan berbunga2 again. at that time it hard to control yourself. :p.....
** all the story just a dream .. xde kena mengena dengan hidup atau mati :)