cheating

emm .. i had a scary dream a couple days ago.. rasanya ni semua pengaruh magazine that i read right before sleep... tu la .. kan mak cakap suruh baca ayah .. dok gak baca benda yg lagha ...
anyway .. i dream that i cheat my partner.. it wasn't clear either i was married or not that time ... tapi yg pastinya i'm cheating la. there is a new guy just come to my group .. ( em x sure group apa.. biasa la mimpi kan). We start talking .. and he make me laugh and felt seperti di atas awan which in that dream it been long time since my partner do the same thing.. and at that point .. although i know its wrong .. but i can't help to like it ... my heart beat faster .. and it just make me feel berbunga2 .. hahahha ... ( sorry le ekk .. i dont know how to describe it).. and at the same time i feel guilty .. because in that dream, i do know that i love my partner and this will hurt him .. so i was trapped in guilty and perasan yg berbunga2 tu. the feeling was too strong sampai bile aku bangun pun .. it gave me a deep impact which make me feel a bit down. Now i know why ppl cheat .. and i think one of the reason why people did not cheat sebab there is no org ketiga yg kasik perasan berbunga2 tu.. emm i'm not sure how easy to have this perasan berbunga2 .. sebab not all guy yg tackle u will give this feeling (some may make u iritated :p)... but i think if we are in relationship, better to avoid too close with other guy sebab kita tak tau if suddenly we have that perasan berbunga2 again. at that time it hard to control yourself. :p.....
** all the story just a dream .. xde kena mengena dengan hidup atau mati :)