July 31, 2009

yes.. its good to have extra money...

hahaha.. hari ni adalah hari ecbp.. tapi saya dengan gembiranya telah menbelanjakan sesuka hati,, i just spend 3 hours in queensbay but i have finish almost all the ecbp money. hebak sungguh.. ni x kira lagi duit nk gi singapore... I will try my very best not to buy anything in Singapore... Sue .... tolong le aku.. jadik aku nye financial guard... uhuhhuhuh ... how i wish u dont have to pay the credit card :(..

July 13, 2009

Buatan orang

Emm .. sekarang ni ada 2 org family aku yg mcm sakit tapi x sakit. One of the uncle, dia x leh cakap.. x leh makan .. x leh jalan. Jumpa Dr, dr x jumpa sakit apa .. so now he was on a long medical leave under physcological reason. Yesterday lawat dia .. seems he's better compare to 3 months ago. at least dah boleh jalan although cakap masih x boleh. Org cakap dia kena buatan org.. not sure how true it is but my uncle memang agak cakap lepas le. So maybe ada org yg agak sakit hati. Kesian.. anak masih kecik2 .. Dalam 2 bulan yg lepas ada lak satu sedara lain yg sakit lebih kurang. Tapi xde le sampai xleh jalan or xleh cakap.. but he seems so weak. Dia cakap kadang2 rasa kepala sakit sgt .. kadang rasa dada cam nak pecah. Dr check everything is ok. He owns contractor company and one of my relatives yg berjaya la. From outside, pada aku dia a good person, masa mak dia sakit dia yg tanggung, adik dia pun dia yg tanggung. Even kalau my family nak jalan2 mana tak required a big car, he will lend his naza so can fit the whole family. tak tau napa org nak dengki. Isteri dia baru je lahirkan anak. sekarang company dia kawan dia yg jaga. Dah dekat 2 bulan la x dtg keja tapi company sendiri ok le kot. yg ni pun anak masih kecik2. Kesian bila pikir2..
Even kadang2 x nak percaya benda buat2 org ni but pada aku it do happens. Even rasulallah pun ada kena sihir. Bila benda2 ni terjadi semua akan try sehabis daya utk cari penawar. Tapi dalam masa mencari penawar ni kadang x tau mana yg cakap benar mana yg cakap tipu. Sometimes makin kita nak baik .. makin kita terpesong.. Walau dapat jumpa org yg ok , yg dapat mengubat tapi kadang2 cara nya x betul. Kadang2 terpikir kalau le ditakdirkan kita kena benda2 ni how will we react? Mcm mana nak ubatkan? Which one will benefit more, a doa or help from a kiyai or our own doa to Allah to help. Ada org cakap.. kita mintak kiyai doakan sebab diorang lebih dekat ..lebih makbul doa tapi bukan kah kalau kita mintak sendiri lebih ikhlas. Memang le tau, kita ni ilmu x banyak.. amalan pun ciput je tapi insyallah Allah x membeza2kan doa kita asalkan ikhlas n betul2 yakin akan kuasanya. Entah le...
Bila baca2 transalation, aku perasan surah Al-falak adalah doa utk mohon perlindungan utk benda2 alah ni. Allah turunkan doa ni utk kita it must means something. Maybe its a good practise for us to avoid all those mischief.

1. Say: I seek refuge with the Lord of the Dawn

2. From the mischief of created things;

3. From the mischief of Darkness as it overspreads;

4. From the mischief of those who practise secret arts;

5. And from the mischief of the envious one as he practises envy.

July 09, 2009

memory

I think the culprit of moving on is the memory. Memory was suppose to be the bridge between human. When u are meeting with your long lost childhood friend at least 50% of the topic will be " ingat x masa dule". However when u moving on, you wasn't suppose to continue the bridge. You not suppose to remember those moment. You have to close it and create another bridge either friend bridge or enemy bridge. The hardest is to close it while having a memory. Doesnt matter either good or bad memory but you will think about it.If a good memory, you will thinking if you will ever has similar memory in future .. while if bad memory you will think where it goes wrong, why u cant see it. You blaming yourself to even start the bridge .. and at the end u are stuck in the loop of hatred and depression.
It will be easier if we have a switch to on/off the memory but then what the different between us and robot. Even pleo pun diorang nak kasik memory kat dia. I wonder what the different will you be when u move on while having your memory and when u lost your memory. Will you be different person. Experience does grow you... but having a past memory, will it bring anything? Does the past memory is important..? If you lost your memory, will you became the different person.. emm i dont know..

July 06, 2009

facebook

emm .. recently i think I'm addicted to facebook.. scary weii .. bukan addict apa .. tapi addict main all those silly games like restaurant city .. farm buddy.. farm town le .. happy farm le .. pet society la. I'm feel so weird because I do feel it a silly games .. but yet .. first thing i do in morning is to rest my employee kat restaurant city.. and make them work before I go to work. Bile balik keje .. that the first thing I do first... Pelikkan. emm .. maybe i should not open my facebook next week... YES ... another 4 days to the warehouse sale .... I'm looking to buy a new croc..

July 04, 2009

bebelan wanita di malam sabtu

So many thing to do but lazy to do.... haii... Anyway i eagerly waiting for next week. There will be metrojaya warehouse sale. Not sure what to buy but I'm excited... hahahhaha .. lame sehh x shopping (emm .. kenyataan yg meragukan ... ). I just finished 1 phase of project and now waiting another phase in next 7 wks. Uhh .. finally I has my weekend back but some how i just felt want to lay back in my bed although banyak betul benda yg tertangguh.
I just finish Korea marathon : Which star you are from... Best gak. It hard to be in love when you always felt the shadow of some one especially your own sister. But I guess it depends on your confident. If you confident that a guy can love you as what you are .. it wont be a problem... tapi what if even you cannot see why you deserved to be love.. so balik2 confident. Nak dapat keje pun kena confident.. malas nya.
Aku tgh nak mendecided sama ada nak mengabiskan duit kat facial ke x... my age are changing the front number next year.. kang takut meyesal lak .. and u cannot turn back time. tapi .. yearly cost mcm baik aku simpan bile wardrobe kan... emmm ... confuse...