maal hijrah

it has been a normal routine for malaysian to celebrate the coming of new year with doa akhir tahun and awal tahun. this year while looking for meaning of doa, i stumble upon a website yg cakap benda tu wasn't sunnah from rasullullah or even para sahabat. I was shocked. i tot that was normal practise. told my mum n sis. all of us also shocked. pastu my sis googled more and found a ceramah from dr asri. he said, there is no such thing as doa awal tahun or doa akhir tahun. we should ask for forgiveness everyday not only at the end or at the beginning for the year. the so call hadith yg always digunakan at some book to justify this ritual wasnt in the real Hadith or even Hadith diragui. it a really man made and contains mystic element. x ingat the exact statement but something like syaitan cakap yg penat dia kacau umat Islam but because of one second baca doa terus rosak segala kerja diorang selama setahun. so up to u to believe it or not. just some sharing which i think what dr Asri say is true.

Financial independent

Realize it or not, money has become one of important thing in our my life. I work Mon-Friday, at least 9 hours per day to earn money.. I need money to buy stuff and to sustain my life... Although now all the medical now paid  by company but it does equivalent to money as well...  Even to drink warm water can cost up to 60 sen. As the time spend on earning money, I noticed less time can be spend to enjoy n explore my life.. So I need to be financial independent. People always thought of business to correlate with financial independent but I don't have any business concept.. and some more ding business required more time and dedication... So now the only thing left is having some kind of royalti. But I dont have a golden voice or even a good talent in music or art... although adik mazni cakap muka aku mcm Erra Fazira ( YESS nak cakap gak.. this will become some kind of memory when i'm old :p)...
I tried to do apps but too much to learn and i never finish my lesson :p... And now I'm stuck .. dunno what to do.. I dont want to do my work till I die...
Tetiba dapat light bulb .. may be .. just maybe If i start writing something abt what I do at work for Malaysia version it might become something usefull... I dont need some kind of jumbo mambo bombastic sentence sebab technical is all abt fact and logic.. I can sell something cheaper in Malaysia.. I can help my fellow malaysian and also I can gain money ( maybe I should put money first)...

But arr .. ( in my dream mode) nanti kat bioadata author I don't have bombastic resume to put into.. how how how?? nanti jadi case chef ridz pulak kan.. :p

** Just bear with my another Fatimah's dream .. Maybe I should re-arrange my item to do before 40..

terawikh

Hari ni hari first aku gi terawikh .. not because my first puasa day ke apa .. but just no mood to go.. The past year awal2 bulan aku gi terawikh kat bayan lepas.. tapi selalunya bila dah dekat akhir2 bulan tu dah rongak. ada multiple reason .. But maybe the truth is i didnt feel it as something yg enjoyable kot...
From beginning, I didn't really like terawikh yg membaca abis satu quran.. bukan apa .. i just feel it defeat the purpose of me going to terawikh. As I dont hafal the quran ... i end up just listen n somehow it always lead to berangan.. so what the point of me going to terawikh if I berangan kan.. better I do something that benefit me. Tapi hari ni lepas bukak pose bersama2 colleague, i stop kat one of small surau utk solat maghrib. Sebab dah lagi 10 mins nak masuk isyak so aku tunggu je la .. After isyak, I decided utk tunggu je for terawikh..Amazingly I like it there...
First of all, the iman lead terawikh dgn ayat2 lazim and 8 rakaat saja.. Me super like... Right away rasa nak ambik balik alquran utk browse through ayat2 yg tersasul n tallykan ngn meaning dia.
No small kids .. it totally quiet masa solat tu.. x de sora budak ke sana ke sini menjerit etc.or main batu seremban. One of the reason I guess, the solat was quiet short n kids that come follow till the end.
Lots of old auntie .. that reminds me of old... i think in my row .. on my left n right side, had some difficulty to duduk tahiyat or bangun dari tahiyat.. they have to push they body. it just make me insaf that one day I'll be like them..

Selamat berpuasa

Selamat berpuasa to all Muslim friends... Time flies very fast .. just remember a year ago was ramadhan and I move to my new hse and now it ramadhan again.. This year .. ramadhan wasnt start with a good one.. somehow my heart are so panas .. and wasnt as calm as it suppose for holy month. I hope.. somehow along the way .. it become more soften but can I just hoping without any action? I noticed that I had a very less tolerance with bulshit or ppl that I think directly or indirectly hypocrite. It wasn't purposely but it just who I am ..  when u say something or do something .. it must be correct and must be aligned .
Some how reflecting it back to me .. me too like to bullshit. So does right to expect something from people but u cant do yourself?

Kinoko No Yama

snacks ni adalah amat sedap ok. coeklat dia sedap n biscuit dia sedap. Where can I find in malaysia... adakah daiso ada jual??? yg ni gambo strawberry... but semalam makan yg cokelat ,, sedapnya...

it saturday...

I was reading my old blog post... sometimes it good to have a blog,, you can see how your life and you changed over time. It seems my life was more flowerish and happier  & free last time... now it more complicated i guess. found this in my old post ... hahahahhaha ...


10 Tahun yang hadapan (tahun 2015)


Insya allah umor saya dah 35. Kalau saya dah kawin and ada anak .. maybe I'll working as lecturer ke .. cikgu tadika ke.. ahahahah... maybe saya jadik penjual insurans berjaya.. ( bear with me kay).. or maybe saya still with Intel doing something related to training. Tapi ada gak terpikir nak amik something related to management. So tatau aa ..depends on flow la. Kalau
saya tak kawin lagi .. ya allah ...ta mo la cakap .. sebab I really hope dah saya dah kawin by then. So kalau mase tu tak lagi .. terpakse le saya alter post ni.
emm saya pun tatau na tagged sapa lagi sebab banyak kawan saya dah ditagged. I have similar cycle of friend with my friends. ANyway .. saya tagged
1. Suresh
2. Eja
3. Lina

OWC

Recently people are talking abt the OWC - obedient wife club.. which their main intention is to help reduce the divorce rate n helping to prevent all masalah sosial  that related to sex or gender abuse. But somehow reading their article can't help but make me feel that they are actually creating a gender bias. They are blaming all those issue to women.
   Emmm maybe I being naive here as I'm not a guy n not even married to one. But i really think the real reason behind all those sosial issue regarding rape because the guys wasn't taught properly how to respect a women.. Some of them might grow up seeing their mum being abuse by their father and give them the initial lesson that how husband-wife relationship should work. They never learnt or even see love between their parents...
 And for divorce, I tot a marriage fell because no communication. When the other can't really tell the other party what they really feel, their thought etc. They slept to each other everyday but wake up just feeling like a strangers. they can't share their dreams..their fear.. I might be wrong but as much as people say guy n girl are different where guys only think abt sex but I do think they longing for the same thing. Companionship... emm .. maybe thats the reason i still single. the guys that im looking for is not real.. hahahaha I still in my "la la" land...