My path and the other path

Accidentally i found one of my long lost UTM friend kat facebook. She one year younger but she under express MARA. So most of the time, kitorang sama kelas la masa kat UTM tu. Looking at her facebook, it just remind me of another path that I might walking if I made a different decision masa aku nak abis UTM .. at that time, her current life is seems to be 90% of my path. But just because one decision, my path diverted and here I am.... 10 years after the decision. Seriously I dont know which path is better but I dont regret either.

Ar Rahman

I was learning abt some group of Arabic words yang cannot accept tanwin. Normally if the nouns does not contains Alif Lam, it must has tanwin at the end to indicate it an indefinite nouns. Unless it a female name or non Arab origin name. And for adjective, it will follow the nouns. So if nouns tu ada tanwin, it must have tanwin also except some group. One of the group ada lah "Kaslanu - lazy", "jau`aanu - hungry", "`aatshaanu - thirsty" ,"ghadbaanu - angry".... So my teacher then said, all the words under this group has same characteristic.. A bit hard to shows here but if you get the arabic spell, you can see it has first huruf adalah fathah - baris atas, second "sukun - tanda mati", third "fathah - baris atas" then alif and then nun with dammah - "baris depan".  And all words under this group adalah benda yang x kekal. Mcm lapar, kita x lapar selalu or x thirsty selalu or x malas selalu. And Ar Rahman pun fall under this catergories. Rahman means  merciful - pemurah. So if we bring the characteristic huruf yang seumpama dgnya, means Rahman ni is Allah maha pemurah but it not something that forever. People normally relate Ar Rahman with duniawi while Ar Rahim which something forever is for the believer only. So if you ever wonder why people yang jahat dpt benda yang best2 is because Allah is Ar Rahman to everyone .. but it wont last. So don't be sad.. Let try to be a believer so that we can get Ar Rahim.

Race

I was writing my previous post and just happens kat blog punya statistic, this post pop up

Who cares if that someone likes the other someone bcos of their race. Its when they hate them that's the problem....

I don't remember where I read or quotes it but  to all my dear friends, I do hope we dont fall into this hate thingy... I just remind me those old days of black and white. Read or watch The Help, To Kill the Mockingbird or even the recent Django unchained. Are we want to be one of them?? There is one part in To Kill the mockingbird where the young boy cry seeing the unjustice happen. We and our kids should be like him instead of become like Leonardo in Django. Of course it easier to see the un-justice in movie/books because it other people story. But when we a part of the story, there is always a blind side...

Langkawi shopping trip

I bought a very cheap langkawi ticket last year. Only rm58 return. Don't have any specific reason but I know i can use it as opportunity to shop and relax my mind... Yeah la tu. mcm la stress sgt kan nk relax my mind. Initially i dont know what I'm going to do in Langkawi but tetiba recently people are talking abt pemangang ajaib. And as one of hardcore shopaholic and pemalas masak but wannabe tukang masak, sure la aku tartarik nk beli kan. Bila surf2 diorang ckp kat langkawi ada banyak .. So i finally get my mission to accompalish in langkawi.. Hehhehe and just happen a few days before i left, i got email from ocbc discount to ship stuff from us to malaysia. Being the super greedy of course la aku nk gak try but i end up dont know what to buy.. After cleared my mind, the only thing yg aku nak beli was corelle but i'm not sure if it a good idea to ship so i got my second mission in Langkawi - corelle. Ok it sound weird but that how I normally live my life.. sad  :(

Pastu tetiba lak, last week my friend tell me about a car yg dia cakap i might like it. Being me... I googled the car and it seems the review pretty good. So i have my 3rd mission which is to try the car in langkawi .. Hahahaha. So i googled and managed to get on contact yg ada mitsubishi mirage and the good news, he work in the airport.. Yipeee.  So here i come langkawiii!!!

On the pemangang ajaib -i bought vantage brand and it was rm99. Outside are selling around rm149- rm199. There are other brand also even HIG- haji ismail group had their own brand but as i want something that most people used sebab takut x tahan lama, so i bought vantage..

On corelle- initially i thought of buying plain white set. In HIG the plain white round shape 16pcs was RM369. The others with flower was rm419. Then in cocoa valley it was rm330. Wahh rm39 different and when i went to Wawasan Baru it was rm329. Emmm and suddenly my choice are between sakura or plain white. Main reason why sakura become the choice sebab kat HIG it was RM419. Hihihihi . But i do like the pattern. It just me simple n naive. But white is more sophisticated and bila pikir2 it just my wannabe so the weight goes to Sakura... My worry buying sakura is the pattern might outdated but ...who care, right. As long as I still in my world, I will not have that "peer pressure outdated thingy".... Hahahaha.  So if anyone of you nak beli corelle maybe it worth to check a few store. Even most of the price lebih kurang sama but some model might be cheaper. Ooo sebelum lupa, yg HIG tu maybe why it more expensive sebab ada free gift but bila pikir2 it not benda yg kita nak beli pun.. so better get a cheaper price. (mcm bukan aku ... sebabnya aku tau pun lepas aku dh beli else it might end up differently)

On mitsubishi mirage- i like it sebab it just similar with my car. Kelisa. I can control it and it didn't give me the feeling of out of place. It just me. Ok ngn kereta pun aku ada inferior complex. The engine pick up quite fast and i didn't realize yg dh reach 90-100km. The air cond sejuk quite fast ... way faster than my kelisa. But the interrior is a bit plastic la. Especially signal punya stick tu. Aku rasa mcm nk patah je everytime i give signal. Then the radio pun x leh bunyi .. In protect mode. I read somewhere kenwood model tu memang selalu ada masalah tu. Kena reset baru ok but i dont know where to reset so I end up x dengar radio. One thing, aku rasa kereta tu ringan and the stering is quite responsive. Tak tau la its a good or bad thinfg but i have to be a bit careful masa lalu jalan pusing2 on the way to The Loaf. So my verdict... if i have to choose paying RM400-RM700 per month for mirage vs driving my current kelisa, I still prefer my kelisa. But it might be a car that I consider if my kelisa reach it due time. (sob sob sob ...).

After completed all my 3 mission, aku proceed utk complete kan mission lama yg tak kesampaian .. which is pergi The loaf. The last time i went to Langkawi, nk gi the Loaf but I could not find it. I went to petronas side and actually The Loaf is at the other side. Even hari ni pun aku mulasal x jumpa until I  decided to just park and walk. Rupanya, kedai yg mengadap laut.. there is no signboard ... :(.  Kat sini aku jadi mcm makcik gila borong roti and then I hv my lunch there. I opted for The Loaf Beef Burger .. ohh my ... sedapnya .. lebih sedap dari Lot burger kat Dome ( ok aku peminat Lot burger). My taste bud weird sket sebab aku x suka tgif while most people I know like it. So kalau korang same category so you will like it. For dessert, I opted for almond chocloate mini uh hu hu cheesecake. It so heaven. I sit outside. A bit hot but the ambient was relaxing and nice... more quiet. Sometimes when the wind blow ... i wish I can stay there forever enjoy my times....

Just some tips : I bought  access baggage from air asia 25kg. I checked in my corelle sets, the pans etc. I asked for fragile punya sticker. But I padded with lots of towel yg aku beli kat Suri... I bought those towel because it cheap and my hse x byk towel but I think my subconscious mind might asked me to buy to pad the corelle just to be double precaution. Yg x check in just cawan set je sebab dia x cakap chip resistance. And alhamdullilah everything was fine and masih cantik. X sabar nak pakai kat rumah baru :)

Dreams

I was halfway reading this book and ya allah ... what he wrote was somewhat terkena kat batang hidung.. So here I'm sharing something yg i think is useful. It says ada 3 symptom that we are going through process of killing our dreams:

1. Lack of times : Those who do nothing ( ok i la ni) are always tired and pay no attention to the little amount of work that need to be done. We complain that day is too short but in reality we just scared of fight for our dreams.
2. Certainties : Because we dont want to see life in a great adventure, we start to think yg what we have now is enough. We kind of justify yg kita  x  patut greedy. ( me also)
3. Peaces : Everything is normal and predictable  (me also...!!)

So bila kita dah kill our dreams, we will go through satu period yg aman je BUT the dead dreams akan busuk n berakar umbi within us and akan impact our life. We become cruel to people and to ourselves. and at a point kita akan rasa arghhh nape hidup aku mcm ni .. and we start thinking abt death. Only death yg boleh free us from the routine..

Ok .. for me aku dh checklist dah semua 3 symptom tu. Kadang2 aku saja feedkan myself yg what I have currently is OK sebab i just scared of failure but I know i want more than that... at least for my career. And yet when see people gain victory for their dreams, I envy them .. but I still here do nothing. At some point I noticed myself cut communication from people that I think, I will envy their victory.... Initially I thought that was a good of me to avoid jealousy but after a thorough thinking,  it just a coward in me yg x nak want the same thing because I just scared of chasing it. And i dont know my dreams either. It seems to be the same for life and my career. And I even dah become cruel to people and myself. arghhhhh.... I need to get out from this.