kenya. Right after she come back we have a very long chat on her experience there. She was telling me abt the guy who created community center in kenya that they attached to. Both of us impressed with him. How he start, what he want to achieve and the thing he had achieve. We felt how humble he is bcos he intention just merely to solve his community problem while all the while for me is how to make myself feel
usefull. Even if both us doing the same thing for community, for him is selfless intention while for me it center abt me ( anyway i'm not doing anything ... just thinking n talking of doing it but no action:( ). He was my idola at that time.
Today while having tea break with her, we talked n somehow touch abt the same Kenya topic again. She still keep in touch with some friend in Kenya. She felt, the more she know them, the more she feel something wrong with the guy that setup the community center n all centered on money. It was the same thing back then we tried to help a orphanage in Penang which the project we abandon after feel uneasy with the management.
All this thing sometimes make me scepticle with those who do a good thing. is there anyone out there really do it out of selflessness. or it human nature try to gain some benefit on good thing that they do? Should i even care their agenda? or is it as long it help community it doesnt matter what the real agenda is? Am i at the edge of hopeless.... concetrating on things that shouldn't matter. sigh.
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