character...

For my write that story class, i have to come out with story line almost every week. Then the teacher will read it and everyone will comment about the story line.. Somehow i just noticed that my story always revolve around family and always a sad one.. One story is about sisters rivalry which the younger felt she always in a shadow of her sister.. Some conflict happens and she said nasty thing to her sister. they met with accident and the sister passed away. She regret. Then the other story is about a struggle of family with regress autism kids, wife that is pregnant and husband that has career stagnant.  Then last week i wrote an outline about daughter that is annoyed with Mom that want to save on lots of thing.. somehow being transported to her mom's childhood and start to understand her Mom struggle childhood...back to reality and reconcile with the mom.  All this outline is for different title but somehow it always in the same genre...family and sad.. hahahah.. When my teacher reads other's outline... they come out with totally different and unexpected thing.. The teacher said .. most of people see the thing from their own view and character.. I wonder am I really a sad people... emmmm.... Will try to write something funny this weekend... see if I can get away from it,

:( :(

I met this family while going to Koh Lipe years ago. Friended with both husband and wife in Facebook. We never actually communicate after that but the husband like to update status in facebook. Normally about business, investment, sufism and small thing in life. His post just like knowledge sharing and normally in humble way. Not the way of  "yeah I know all"..  Last week he shared that he had chest pain after eating pineapple that make him think it was gastric. They went to clinic, the doctor also think the same thing but when they decided to go to hospital, it turn up to be a heart attack. So he advise everyone take his story as lesson. The way he response to people comment shows like everything is OK. Suddenly after a few days i saw his wife got lots of condolence message. It really surprise me that that guys just passed away... To be honest it really shock. I wasn't closed with him but really really shock. Sometimes life is so fragile and you never know when people which are close to you will leave you ... or when you will leave them. Same when you in mid 20's how one by one your friend get married.. there will be a time when one by one your friend is leaving you. It sad to think about it ... but then I wonder how my mum felt about ...

Night Class.

Recently i joined 2 night class. How arts work and write that story.. Both are quite different from my normal genre of science.. and I'm the dumbest of all.. hahahaha. But really especially how art works is quite eye opening for me. I've been a pure digital girl .. math & science kind of girl and to be in the class where all is subjective is really hard for me. My first day in class, i really clueless... i don't have idea why did i even join this class.. The teacher look at me and felt so lucky that I didn't join for credit. But the last 2 class was quite interesting to be honest. We look at the painting and most people (except me) will give their opinion about the photo. How the composition might means different thing, how the painter play with colour to bring the depth or some vibration to the painting, the axis that suggest what the painter intent to draw the viewer on certain subject... It also mention about how color evolve from 14th century ... and how people become creative and try their hard to get and produce newer color.. I always thought only technology evolve .. and for art, it just about talents but hey .. i didn't give justice to art.. As much as people try very hard in science, those people try hard as well in arts.. They do lots of advancement to the point what we know today..
When i visited museum, i always wonder WHY WHY must the photo or the sculpture is naked.. WHY WHY must always jesus and virgin mary or some saint with that little bulb on the head .. but little that I know.. for you to appreciate more, it not really about the subject but it about how the artist express his/her feeling towards that subject. I went to national gallery again yesterday.. i see beyond the bible story.. I see how the artist try to make virgin mary important ..  and how people try to portray what they believe in their masterpiece. I still have lots to learn but one thing that I know, there is so many thing in this world that I don't know or i think i know but i just bullshitting myself....
Can't wait for different thing next sem.. I plan to take archeology and philosophy..  Can't wait... some more got field trip for the archeology and nicer when you don't have to sit for exam .. hahahaha..

credit... spending... saving

Finally i applied my first working credit card in uk .... In UK, most debit card and credit card has foreign charges besides 2.75% impose by mastercard. This Halifax credit card suppose not to have any charges beside those impose by mastercard... We will see how much cheaper compare using my Malaysia credit card.  Actually the reason I'm writing this as I'm kind of amuse .. emm not sure amuse is the correct word but there is some different in how UK handle the credit card vs Malaysia or maybe India issue their credit card. In Malaysia, there always a promotion on credit card. For you to join or even for you to spend.. Every where in shopping mall there is credit card booth. It so easy to get credit card.  Even the credit limit normally at least double of what your salary is.. There is lots of rebate and free gift when you spend using your credit card. I earned at least near 1k or even more with the rebates, free give in my whole entire credit card usage.You can easily do that installment payment which most company din't impose any charge.   People buy beyond their need and means. I had little chat with my friend from India.. It the same thing over there. Credit card promotion and installment is normal. 

In UK, most of credit card doesn't have that much benefit. The card that i think maybe has better in term of daily spend is sainsburry or tesco card which give you more nectar/clubcard point. Some card do have a good balance transfer offer. For credit card that I apply, the benefit, there is no foreign charge and no annual fees. THAT's IT. No reward or what so ever... In a way, no reason for me to use it unless I want to travel or i want to be in debt with the bank. Even the limits is lesser than my first malaysia credit card .. which is more than 14 years ago..hahahahaha .. really no LV or what so ever. . Not sure does it because my credit check is not having high score yet. . I wonder with all this constraint,  how good or bad the debt level of people here. Anyway things is slightly different in US. I heard from my friend, if you have a good credit score in US, you can apply lots of credit that give you lots of perk.. arghhh... I'm sucker for free gift and I'm not get any here... arghharghh... 

And funny thing, if they want people to save, did I say even the interest on bank is sooo low.  The best for normal people none taxable saving is only 1.1% which some unknown bank. My HSBC only give me 0.7%.  There are some bank is giving 3%-5% but with maximum like only for the first £2000. All the interest is taxable except the ISA account which is 1.1% max.  I check the unit trust .. they don't have similar like malaysia fundsupermart either...All platform, you need to pay more to buy and sell unit trust.  arghhh .. I felt that you cannot spend and you cannot earn either .. arghhh.. This are 2 things that i love.. spend and earn... Is this the different between socialist and capitalist country?

semua pun salah

sometimes i felt so pissed off with comment kat Facebook. When the paralympic is getting the medal, some people instead of happy with it, use this opportunity to blame others.. "Ni .. paralympic menang x dpt apa2 ke".. "ehh kenapa 5k je... diorang dpt gold kot.. discrimination".. "kenapa media x byk coverage.. dh meaning 3-4 jam baru kuar kat news". "Ni mana rumah.. xde org nk kasik ke..". .. complaint complaint complaint... Masalahnya.. kalau la dia mmg memperjuangkan right x pe la.. ni saja nk cari benda nk blame. Lain kali belum complaint amik la cermin.. Do we even know their name macam kita tau normal athlete? Ada kita sibuk nk subscribe channel sport nk tgk paralympic.. media tu ikut demand.. dah kita pun amik x lalu je pasal paralympic, diorang pun cover skit je la.. tapi bagus la. this year org OKU ada highlight... hopefully after this treatment kat org oku better..

war war war .. again??

There are too much thing to write about this topic until a point I don't know what to write.. hahaha.. But i guess before i lost in my own busy world, it better to jot down something as reminder to the older me.  Recently I went to eastern europe travel.. It kind of eye opening to me. There are a few highlights. So maybe it will be easier to make it in bullet form as it all not related but just a pieces here and there...

1. Before my travel, a friend give me a book .. Man's Search For Meaning. It was a real experience of a psychiatrist (Dr Frank) in concentration camp, not as psychiatrist but as the prisoner itself. He wrote what happen there, what he felt, what keep he going, how life there change him & people surround him.. how evil manifest itself in camp guard which mostly from the same race with the prisoner and how kindness can be found even in SS or commander (which from German). It really eye opening.. I do have to google something like the "shower head" as it seems to be so obvious to him but not to me.. (imagine how katak tempering am I). To be honest i really cannot imagine if I were in Dr Frank's shoe or even born in during that time.. Either as a prisoner or as the other side of the group.  Not sure what will I do.. Do i have the will to survive.. Do I have the will to fight the evil or will I just tell myself lies that things is OK? It seems obvious when we just seeing it from outside but i wonder if it the same if we are inside. There is another story... Nightingale. it is a fiction but happen during world war 2 in France. How life that is normal turn to a different twist during that war period. I can relate myself more to the older sister which just want thing to be normal..who afraid of everything .. who don't want to challenge the authority.. At this moment, it was so easy for us to condemn the holocaust and to condemn what hitler did was wrong but if we where there at that time, will I still see the same thing or can I able to even see it? It still a question that linger in my head. I really don't know myself.. Most of time i tell myself.. death is for sure, i cannot run form that .. but the thought of dying actually scared me. Sigh..
2. My second highlight was the trip to Bosnia.. Bosnia just like malaysia.. 3 different major race with 3 different religion. It just need a trigger ..greed and the war happen. From what the guide told us the serb started to attack the bosnia & croat village. Initially bosnia & croat join venture to fight the serb but half way croat is turning his back and attacking the bosnia as well. At the end these 3 races are fighting each other. As I heard this story from a Bosniak of course it kind of sided to Bosniak but as what the guide tell us which i agree, every side has their own story.. has their own pain.. has their own lost. The guy that being killed is someone's son/daughter, someone's father/mother. How things before the war are never the same again.. It will take time to heal. Will it ever heal?
3. My third highlight was still in Bosnia. I met another Bosniak lady that tell the story of the war from her view. She was young at that time.. During the war, she was sent to Germany to seek for asylum. When the war ended, she was so eager to go back to Bosnia..But it never the same as what she remember.. People changed. There are some story that i heard which said that most of Muslim Bosnia before war are not practicing and after the war, they realise their mistake and become more religious. After the war,  Islamic party - Party of Democratic Action become one of the big party that control Bosnia. What this lady told me, people become more hypocrite.. Before the war people use to practise the religion because they want to practice and believe in it.. but after the war, people goes to mosque to get the politic connection. The tension between different race is even greater.. Religion become a way of achieving worldly thing..Yes.. war changed people.. or war just show the worst of human?
4. My forth highlight was when i was in Split. It's amazing they still have building from Roman and how you can see different way between Roman, middle ages, communism. It really a wonder how a great civilisation like Roman can go through the dark ages which you can really see the different. We always think, people will always better than before but history tell us it can be otherwise. A friend told me that we are in the era of going to dark ages. Nowadays people are depending on gadget.... little by little we are depending on this gadget without knowing exactly how thing works. The simple example is map. We are a bit lucky, to still go through time where we need to know how to use map.. (although i don't know/forget the concept of compass.) But now all is using waze or google map in the phone. Just imagine, if all this technology gone, nobody know how to use compass anymore. We have to start from the beginning. Yes Roman is giving it's trailer to me... 
5. My fifth highlight was when i was in budapest. Do you know that Hungary has a few nobel prize winner but none was received in Hungary. All of them has migrated to different country. Jewish are considered minority group in budapest but they are strong in academic and economy. So due to fear of minority will overtook the country even before the war, there are some rules to reduce the percentage of minority group in university and try to reduce their share in economy. So most of Jewish has to migrate to get better education. It somehow remind me of Malaysia. Also, there is this memorial in Danube where they put shoes as remembrance of those Jews that was shot to Danube. A friend told me, those that was chosen was from rich family where by people will take all their belonging after the shot... So does it all this back to greed?
6. My final highlight was in Mauthausen. It was a normal concentration camp but the real highlight was the tour. It was done by a local guy who really interested in the history of that camp. Normally during the tour, guide will tell the story what happen at that time but he not only tell us that but ask us to think and put ourself there. The camp was situated near the village.. so does it really people in the village are not aware what happen or they just pretend nothing happen?  He even ask to think if some day, someone knock our door and that is refugee. will we accept her/him? or chase it away? Worst if the law said keeping the refuges was wrong.. will we obey the law or will we risk our life to save them? And like what he said, we have to make decision ... as this not only history but really happen now either we open our eyes or not.. So what is our answer? 

Above all this, i wonder what happen to Malaysia during world war 2? We do has the history but what do I know about it? Do we ever learn lesson from our history?

camera ....sssss

Even to write this make me laugh. When i think back, every year since 2014 I have new camera. I used to have lx3 which i love so much.. but eventually it slowly giving in.. i started to hate it... the end is during my TMBT in 2013. I have to cross a river and goes that camera. It still can be use but no more giving a sharp photo. Then I bought canon s100 in 2014 before my US trip. Kind of regret because the camera had battery issue. I should read the forum before i buy it... I didn't really took photo during US trip because every time i took it out, after like 2 mins it will give no battery indicator. When i charge it still full. I send back to the shop, it getting better but will be the same at cold place aka winter. Then 2015.. i bought a gopro before the german trip. It was one of the best investment i guess. It so nice and I have lots of photo of me and the scenery of course. The fish eye give different perspective of landscape :p.  I tot that will be the end of my camera collection.. but wait .. tetiba gatal nk beli slr kan.. hahahaha... it all started masa iceland trip. I cannot get nice aurora photo with my gopro.. kind of dissapointed :(. The the desire is slowly build up. When in KL, while watching movie with cikpah there is slr advertisement. I told her i want to buy slr.. and she laugh (maybe) but she said she don't think i will like it or use it or like to bring it.. (i don't even bring my gopro during lombok trip because 2 of them already brought an action camera.. so what the point kan..) . Arghh .. no approval.. i need to find a reason or someone to sokong me.. and then suddenly i saw there is a short class on digital photography in edinburgh that i think i should join.. but the problem is .. it require u to have slr.. OMG.. i have to buy ..i have to buy...  So here  i'm welcoming the d3300 to my collection right before my next trip. I hope i will use more and will not become tukun. The reason why this kind of funny to me because I'm not a hard core photographer. I took some photo during travel but i love more to just lying around or walking.. Lots of time during my travel with the stooges i will leave them taking photo while me enjoy my time walking around.. hahahaha.. even if i took photo i normally will just keep in the memory card.. it will take ages for me to upload or give to them. If i'm lucky cikpah will help to upload it.. I did some thought about my laziness of taking photo..  I think the reason why i don't like to take photo because mine wasn't come out nice .. it just make me frustrated. So i just like to enjoy my time. If somehow i can capture nice photo i guess I will eager to share it.. So let hope i can improve my photography skill rather my shopping skill .. hahaha. but again i'm a shopaholic.. maybe all just a reason.

Menses n ramadhan

Recently viral la plak pasal this lady yg purposely eating in restaurant during ramadhan n kena harassed with other muslim folk. She was doing that on purpose to fight for the right of mense women to eat without any shame.  To be honest ... I'm with her side. The shocked part for me, wasnt that she being harrased but emm almost all my facebook friend which are mostly girls are against her. And the comment on her post doesnt show that those people actually respect ramadhan although doing pong pang pong pang ckp she didn't respect ramadan.

To be honest, for me not eating in restaurant, never really abt respect the ramadhan or people who fasting. People who fasting won't be in cafe anyway so it never really about respecting the people.. The worker maybe fasting but they actually aware they are working in cafe right.. Anyway that not the point... the main thing, ramadan itself is a holy month not only for you not eating and drinking.. it more bigger than that. We hv to banyak2 bersabar. For you to harass people during ramadhan, do you really think that act is to show respect to ramadan?  Beside that i really think all of us are not respecting ramadhan as it should be. We spend lots of money in baju raya la kasut raya la barang2 raya la. If we really respect ramadhan we should control our shopping desired. We also buy and cook lot of dishes which is really a waste. One normal meal should be more than enough.  Tapi ketamakan beli murtabak la, bihun goreng la.. kuih muih.  If we so respect the ramadan, we will not have pasar ramadan mcm cendawan tumbuh or bazar raya. Those are really againts the ramadan's value. So should we blame someone who entitled not to fast, that she not respecting ramadhan by eating in a restaurant while we encourage and even approve the raya sales and shopping? But again, our community always mixed up the priority. Babi is so haram while duit kopi is normal as long we dont kena saman or to expediate any payment. Don't quran say we can eat pork during emergency but there is none in quran said u can accept bribe or taking orphan money. I know lots of people will not agree with me... but before you bash or x puas hati maybe just for a second really think, what really the reason we angry with her.. Before we labelling her, think about ourselves. How much has we respect ramadan this year... Even after you think about it and you still not agree, i think rather than put labelling status what so ever, maybe talk to her and understand her point of view. You will be surprise how 2 different thing can be true in different view.
 I was brought up to be shame of having my mense. Even to buy pad is kind of shame. I remember i use to wrap the pad with paper every time i buy it. It slowly change when i get older, although now i still slightly conscious to buy in front of guys that i know but i don't care if i dont know them.   I always dream of a day where i have courage to eat in cafe during ramadhan rather than starve myself. i normally will have headache on my first day of mense during ramadhan. Maybe lack pf water etc. but i just dont have "ball" to do it. If i really cant tahan, i will drive back and buy roti to eat at home or eat in car. Even to eat in cubicle pun rasa segan takut org lalu. I suffered for something  wasn't even a sin to begin with..I just felt shame that people know that i'm having my mense. Is it wrong to have my menses? No.   I know lots of my friend suffer the same thing.. we rela to curi2 makan when people didn't see it rather that having a normal meal. I don't think anyone should be a shame of it.. although to be honest, it so hard to break through. Even now, I'm in UK, i still think should i eat in cafe during my menses? Later what should i tell my colleague? What will people say ... YES that one of the main thing.. we so afraid utk org cakap apa. We so mold to society... even in my mind, the shopping is even worst than eating in public in term of menghormatkan ramadan, nobody give a damn when u shop.....

Economy

OI saw one post in facebook that someone post a photo of a stretch of shop closing and some even have closing sign. He claimed fhat this what economic suffering look like. To be honest this what sunday look like in uk my dear. Hahahah. Although i browse the comment roughly he did kind of requote in the comment this what the economic suffering will look like not that this place actually suffered economy. First of all i really thing this photo is way too misleading. So tempting nak comment kat facebook tapi nanti viral lak. Nanti aku kena ckp stupid kan. Hahaha let me be stupid in my blog.  Sometimes ppl try to deny the economy suffering with so many ppl shopping, so many ppl buy fareeda etc. Although x deny those maybe shows people are earning good money to be able to afford luxury items but at the same time we have to know how many people can actually save their salary by end of the month? Those ppl might actually in debt with credit card. Is that shows a good economy? For me .. In my stupid kampung view.. A good economy means you can afford necessary items with your minimum wages. Nobody need to steal or need to beg just to eat. Ppl should have some amount of money to save at the end of the month. In uk although some of stuff is expensive like daun curry but overall raw materials is cheap. You can get terung from 49p. Chicken part 1kg for 3pound. 1 quarter chicken yg dh siap marinate is 1.25pound.  5kg of basmathi rice is 5 pound. If your staple food potatos lagi murah la kan. Less than 1 pound boleh dpt bag of potatoes. Of course kalau nk makan tempe it 2pound but who eat tempe everyday :).  In malaysia kalau aku beli 1/4 chicken kat pasar satu part is rm4, then sayur selalu beli stock seminggu dh rm20. 5kg beras  dh lebih rm10 ke rm20. Lupa dh. So seminggu even normal food, the raw material dh lebih 60. So in uk one week is like 14pound and in malaysia is like 50rm. But min wage in malaysia is way lower than uk. When i first come to penang , one laksa was RM1.50 .. and right before i left one bowl of laksa is now RM3.50.  Last time you can get ikan kembong for RM1.50-RM3 per kg.. Now 1kg min is RM6... My salary when i first started working is RM2700 and after more than 14 years the fresh grad salary in my industry is around RM3300-RM3500.., but all the basic stuff has increase almost double. So is really our economy is doing good?
Min wages for malaysia a month : RM1000. So if we work 26 days and 8 hours per day, it will be RM4.70 per hour. In UK, min wages is 6.70 pound. Of course the rent here is more expensive but it comparable dollar to dollar whereby our min wages is not comparable dollar to dollar. Doesn't matter how i look at it, despite so many people are buying fareeda & duckscarves, there will be people are suffering with this kind of cost.

Tipoo Sultan

When i was in Bangalore i visited a palace on the way to Mysore. It was Tipoo Sultan palace. The name attracted me because in Malay, the sound similar like tipu which means cheating. So it kind of funny to know that someone's name sound like  "tipu". But somehow when i read abt Tipoo sultan in that palace and from wiki, it give me some kind of mixed feeling. He was brave that is for sure.. He and his father just normal people but they managed to raise as important ruler during that time. He did lots of thing to develop MySore. He also seems to be a good in war, wins lots of war. He is a muslim. Some said he did donation to temple under his ruling and he also don't mind of listening to both bells from temple and azan from mosque nearby his palace but at the same time he did a force conversion of Hindu people to Muslim which and based on what I read it merely due to power not because of religion itself. This is one person that I don't know know to what i felt against him. However what that strike me most is event happen before his down fall. The British was cornered him, and his advisor asked him to escape using some escape route but he against it and said "One day of life as a Tiger is far better than thousand years of living as a Sheep". So he stand there and fight with the British and was killed. It kind of sad ending. Today I spent some times visiting scotland national gallery.. Guess what did I found? Tipoo sultan's painting. This time it was at different perspective. It shows a guy so proud of killing Tipoo sultan.  Ironic kan.

Another chapter of life

Insya allah something new will happen to my life next year. I promised my friend to wrote down every details of it. I blogged abt chasing aurora end of last year. I wrote that i was going for travel that wasn't in my travel plan at all. I doesn't like winter & cold but fate divert me to Iceland when my project got cancel and I have friend that planning to go to Iceland during that time. Even for my friend, the initial plan was to spend thanksgiving on train ride across US but it was change to Iceland due to some advertisement pop up that make my friend believe that was a sign. What sign exactly, at that time we don’t know. That happen somewhere in Jun/July which I always tease my friend maybe there will be a real “aurora” there.

There were few route to Iceland and I end up choose stopover in Edinburgh as one of my close friend when i was in Penang just started her PHD there. I remember my promise to send her off in KL but due to work, i didn't. So I decided to pay her visit. Initially i plan to land in London as it has cheaper flight fare & I so wanted to run in Hyde park ( One of the thing i regret not doing during my UK time), but due to limited time, hassle to go to airport, I decided just stop at Edinburgh. So all planned and booked.

 A few days before my departure date, I got to know about a colleague who got a job in UK. I wasn’t close with him so I didn’t know where he go. Somehow during lunch break another friend gossip about that and I got the company name. I did try to apply for a UK job last 2 years when i decided to move from my previous company. However the results wasn’t favour me and to be honest at that time i wasn’t ready. I want to go because I have a very close friend that got job there and I envy him but at the same time my heart still doesn’t want to go. It not want I really want. I still love my new house, i doesn’t want to experience the loneliness.. yadayada.. Anyway mid last year after German trip, the desire to go out from Malaysia to experience new life is increasing. During a medical checkup, I got to know that I had a small tumour in my liver. After further evaluation, it diagnose as not cancerous. But the experience of going through that make me realise I wasn’t fully utilise my life. Allah is so kind to give me reminder that anything can happen, that tumour can be cancerous. So after come back from German, I did try to apply to either UK or europe job.. but NIL. All required me to have working visa. I kind of give up and follow the flow of my current life. So when I know this guys got a job in UK, so I know that company is willing to give visa sponsorship. So that night, i went home, being a curious little girl as I am, i google the website. Found, click the career link and i saw there still have opening. The opening is in Edinburgh and I’m going to Edinburgh. What a coincidence. A day before my departure date I was working late to enable some checks. While waiting for my simulation to complete, i update my resume and applied for the job. That just about 1 day before my departure date.

I remember during that period that I really want to change. I even register for Germany class while waiting for my flight so that it ease me to get job in German which some of friend said no need, because germany speak english but I don’t care. I just want to close any gap that I might have.

So when i reach Edinburgh, i got an email for THE company. Asking what is my contact number so that they can call me for interview. I replied the email and he arranged an hour phone interview the week after because I had to travel to Iceland plan the next day. In Iceland, i met my friend and told and even show my friend the email that I got (excitedly). After not seeing each other for like 9 months, what i got was a “SCOLD”. My friend was so angry at me on how I replied the email and the fact that I settled with phone interview when next week I actually in Edinburgh and the company are in Edinburgh and as bonus — I’m bad at conversation. So I had to re-write and re-send my reply to ask if they want to see me face to face instead. The interviewer was so kind to arrange my onsite interview and it just happen the hiring Manager was on site on the schedule date. So that guy help to re-arrange 3 interview back to back for me. 

The interview went well.. and i got the job. It was so unexpected. I guess this is what Allah plan for me. He know my little heart desire, my fear & my doubt. He only grant it when i’m ready and really want it. So far, except for my house, the whole process has been smooth and easy. My mom was staying with me most of the time but due to this changes in my life, she has to go back home town for now and coincidently my younger sis who currently stay there, got her new house. So she moving out her stuff out from my mom’s house so my mum can has a comfortable time when she in Malaysia.

I hope and pray my life in Edinburgh will give a different meaning and bring a different perspective of life. 

Halal?

A friend was telling me that he felt organic chicken is better than halal chicken. Halal chicken, although the concept suppose not to let the animal suffer but sometimes he felt it wasnt sincere. After talking to him, i googled abt  halal and organic chicken. To my surprise, there are lots of debate abt halal chicken. There are some of even say, if it not organic, it wasnt halal. The current halal law only dictate how the chicken die but the correct halal chicken dictate how chicken should live their life and die. They must not suffer. The current comercial chicken live in a small cramp area and the light is only off for like 1-2 hours to let the chicken grow faster. This is crime againts the chicken. Uhhh complex ar. Actually the are lots more. Like stunning or not stunning etc which i still didnt has any opinion. After reading i have a feeling, i agreed with what being said abt non organic is unlikely halal. But the thought of buying expensive chicken and the thought of not eat chicken outside and the thought of no kfc is killing me. I can't do it. It make me wonder how much i care abt halal. Do i eat what halal now because it easy? What if, it wasnt easy. Will i still go for halal option?

Nasi padang International

One of my favourite place in Penang. I dont really like ikan jacket, blame to high school experience but here the ikan jacket is so sedap!!!!  My favourite dishes will be this ikan jacket, sambal hijau tempe & bilis, siput masak lemak, ulam selasih and all the sambal. To pair with this, order sirap limau ais. Even during hot day, this shop still not so hot. The only drawback is sometimes hard to get parking and table. 

This shop located at transfer road. Very near to roti canai transfer road. Closed on Monday. Open from 11am to 3pm. But ikan jacket may only avalaible from 12pm onwards 

Bye bye 2015. Welcome 2016

2015 just end yesterday.In a good, brighter side, I had two big vacation in 2015, both in Europe.. broke my bank account but both trip is worth it. Loss some weight compare to 2014. (Yea!!). I joined creative drama class. All of my class mate were way younger and most of them is study in private or international school. I had so much fun laughing with them. Although i still kayu same level where i start but i learn something else. I see how my teacher break the boundary between each student. I think it's a good place to send kids to socialise there. I started to join the weekly teach at the road side. Still learning... It's hard to break the boundary.. sigh
In not so good side, health does not seems to be very good this year. Found something in my liver.. it wasn't dangerous but need to monitor every year. Had a back pain to the point that i can not pray normal but lucky it eventually ok. But now and then i feel not comfortable in my leg. i think it due to my back pain.. so now need to start exercise to strengthen my body :(
Start pre mid life crisis, questioning lots of thing in my life.. as one of the results, I didn't join any running event this year as i don't see why i do it .. hahaha. Not much that i has achieve in 2015... :(. Hopefully thing will be better in 2016. I started my 2016 with a good step ... shopping new running shoe. Yeah but i do run today to test it :). So here my azam 2016
- Do more travel. Learn better photography skills as my friend has been complaint abt it. I challenge myself to do 100 days of Penang as a starting.
- i hope to compete one half marathon with a better timing (3h) and aim to join full marathon in 2017.
- Plan to learn one language. For now is german but it may change .. hahahaha
- Improve my impression in acting, speak slowly & clear and able to conquer my fear of stage.
- Start joining toast master : master my communication skill.
- Join volunteer in teaching to learn how to understand the kids & get your message across to the kid.
Hopefully i can achieve this in a year time. We shall has a mid year review.