terawikh

Hari ni hari first aku gi terawikh .. not because my first puasa day ke apa .. but just no mood to go.. The past year awal2 bulan aku gi terawikh kat bayan lepas.. tapi selalunya bila dah dekat akhir2 bulan tu dah rongak. ada multiple reason .. But maybe the truth is i didnt feel it as something yg enjoyable kot...
From beginning, I didn't really like terawikh yg membaca abis satu quran.. bukan apa .. i just feel it defeat the purpose of me going to terawikh. As I dont hafal the quran ... i end up just listen n somehow it always lead to berangan.. so what the point of me going to terawikh if I berangan kan.. better I do something that benefit me. Tapi hari ni lepas bukak pose bersama2 colleague, i stop kat one of small surau utk solat maghrib. Sebab dah lagi 10 mins nak masuk isyak so aku tunggu je la .. After isyak, I decided utk tunggu je for terawikh..Amazingly I like it there...
First of all, the iman lead terawikh dgn ayat2 lazim and 8 rakaat saja.. Me super like... Right away rasa nak ambik balik alquran utk browse through ayat2 yg tersasul n tallykan ngn meaning dia.
No small kids .. it totally quiet masa solat tu.. x de sora budak ke sana ke sini menjerit etc.or main batu seremban. One of the reason I guess, the solat was quiet short n kids that come follow till the end.
Lots of old auntie .. that reminds me of old... i think in my row .. on my left n right side, had some difficulty to duduk tahiyat or bangun dari tahiyat.. they have to push they body. it just make me insaf that one day I'll be like them..

Selamat berpuasa

Selamat berpuasa to all Muslim friends... Time flies very fast .. just remember a year ago was ramadhan and I move to my new hse and now it ramadhan again.. This year .. ramadhan wasnt start with a good one.. somehow my heart are so panas .. and wasnt as calm as it suppose for holy month. I hope.. somehow along the way .. it become more soften but can I just hoping without any action? I noticed that I had a very less tolerance with bulshit or ppl that I think directly or indirectly hypocrite. It wasn't purposely but it just who I am ..  when u say something or do something .. it must be correct and must be aligned .
Some how reflecting it back to me .. me too like to bullshit. So does right to expect something from people but u cant do yourself?

Kinoko No Yama

snacks ni adalah amat sedap ok. coeklat dia sedap n biscuit dia sedap. Where can I find in malaysia... adakah daiso ada jual??? yg ni gambo strawberry... but semalam makan yg cokelat ,, sedapnya...

it saturday...

I was reading my old blog post... sometimes it good to have a blog,, you can see how your life and you changed over time. It seems my life was more flowerish and happier  & free last time... now it more complicated i guess. found this in my old post ... hahahahhaha ...


10 Tahun yang hadapan (tahun 2015)


Insya allah umor saya dah 35. Kalau saya dah kawin and ada anak .. maybe I'll working as lecturer ke .. cikgu tadika ke.. ahahahah... maybe saya jadik penjual insurans berjaya.. ( bear with me kay).. or maybe saya still with Intel doing something related to training. Tapi ada gak terpikir nak amik something related to management. So tatau aa ..depends on flow la. Kalau
saya tak kawin lagi .. ya allah ...ta mo la cakap .. sebab I really hope dah saya dah kawin by then. So kalau mase tu tak lagi .. terpakse le saya alter post ni.
emm saya pun tatau na tagged sapa lagi sebab banyak kawan saya dah ditagged. I have similar cycle of friend with my friends. ANyway .. saya tagged
1. Suresh
2. Eja
3. Lina

OWC

Recently people are talking abt the OWC - obedient wife club.. which their main intention is to help reduce the divorce rate n helping to prevent all masalah sosial  that related to sex or gender abuse. But somehow reading their article can't help but make me feel that they are actually creating a gender bias. They are blaming all those issue to women.
   Emmm maybe I being naive here as I'm not a guy n not even married to one. But i really think the real reason behind all those sosial issue regarding rape because the guys wasn't taught properly how to respect a women.. Some of them might grow up seeing their mum being abuse by their father and give them the initial lesson that how husband-wife relationship should work. They never learnt or even see love between their parents...
 And for divorce, I tot a marriage fell because no communication. When the other can't really tell the other party what they really feel, their thought etc. They slept to each other everyday but wake up just feeling like a strangers. they can't share their dreams..their fear.. I might be wrong but as much as people say guy n girl are different where guys only think abt sex but I do think they longing for the same thing. Companionship... emm .. maybe thats the reason i still single. the guys that im looking for is not real.. hahahaha I still in my "la la" land...

astro STUPID.

The issue with Astro havent settle till now. Everytime I talked to them, i sure feel depressed. Imagine yesterday I called and asked for this officer that promised to handle my case. As you cannot connect directly to them, the other officer said she will call me back. Waited until 2pm and nobody call. So i call back. This time they said yg budak tu baru masuk keje so she will call me anytime until 12 midnite .... Waited until 10pm... then i called them back. Suddenly officer yg baru ni cakap yg hari ni budak yg aku nak cakap tu off. Geram kan....

hari ni aku fax statement but x sampai kat diorang. Dont know which one ada problem ... my fax or Astro's fax.. the stupid thing abt astro they split their call center and email.. so if the fax not working, there is no other way you can send to them. If you send email to wecare@astro, other dept will handle your case which might AGAIN end up to no where. I just cant help to feel so geram with their STUPID systemm.. It so STUPID that I actually cried after the call... Thinking of bringing this matter to public.. if it can happen to me , it can happen to anyone...

anyway i like this song from chuck season 3... it nice .. just ease my sakit hati to astro..

he stars have made their way
I raise my glass and part my lips tend to many deep
The only time I see you is in my sleep

Someday, get up on my way
I think I’ll be okay for a while
I know you were never mine to keep
But I know that I’ll see you in my sleep

But time has been unkind
and kept me far from you
But I know you will be holding me
In my sleep

I’ve been hanging on
scraping by all my life
And I know you will be holding me
In my sleep

I’ve been hanging on
Scraping by all my life

And I know I’ll miss you
I’ll always miss you
But I know I’ll see you
In my sleep

I know I’ll miss you
I’ll always miss you
But I know I’ll see you
In my sleep

birthday

while looking at the cute cupcakes, one of my relatives cakap " next time during her son birthday she will order this cupcakes and distribute to the kids friend in kindergarten. emm tetiba terpikir. what will be the best way to celebrate birthday with your kids? should we spend the whole time doing something that he or she want like going to mall, playing in the waterpark, or celebrate the birthday party. will it make them happy. I guess with the attention and gift any kids will be happy. does it important for them to feel happy or rather we should do something to nurture their ability to share with other people even those not related to them. instead of sharing or distribute cupcakes to friends in kindergarden, will it better if we bring them to feed the homeless? or give them 100 of rm1 notes and let him give donation to the begger or bring him to celebrate with old folks home ? its not the coolest thing to do but if we make it a routine, will they grow up and feel these is what need to be done rather than they doing something good. but not sure what he feel when seeing his friends bringing cakes to everyone during his birthday while he didn't bring anything to them. will they feel left out? does it a good thing to make your kids feel it is OK to be different so they will not feel shy or doing something just for the sake of other ppl do it? I don't know.