Life is so fragile

Death of a few hikers kat kinabalu mount really shocked me... I still remember, when we decided to hike kinabalu, never did we thought death will one of the risk. The most is lack of oxigen which may bring to death but we dont heard any cases yet. It's an easy path where your determination most matter. And i'm pretty sure, all those hiker hv similar thought like me. Almost none might think, kinabalu mount will be their deathbed. :( .  When their parents, family, and friends send them to airport i dont think they know that will be their last time to see each other. Life is so unpredicted. 

On other occassion, my friend's 3 year old son just passed away due to dengue. In penang, especially in my area dengue is like a norm. My neighbour front n side all hv been warded due to dengue this year. My friend's friend who just come from another country cought dengue in less than a month. Is like a trend and so far i dont hear any death until my friends's son passed away. He n his wife didnt expect that either.  It a shock and heart broken news. 

It can be me in both case. Life is so fragile. Few months back i close to misdiagnose for some illness. It really worry to be honest. The most worry me is to find out i want to do with my life if i really diagnose with that illness. Some of me thought, i should just leave everything n travel while partial of me want to stay to earn money or at least let my company pay for my hospital expenses. Pathetic isnt it. ? I still can't find the answer even untill now. 

Some logic. Medical treatment may help to prolong life but why we need a longer life? This is question that keep lingering i my head and i still cant find answer

1. To hv better life- will it better if u hv to work 7-7 and some during weekends too? Is like a robot that just execute daily work. Something need to change. 

2. To serve Allah- what really i do? Will lengthen my life bring me closer or bring me further? How to make me closer. 

3. To start hv meaningfull life? What is meaningfull? How you measure it?

4. to ensure my loved one is ok?