partition

I'm thinking of creating partition of my blog. This blog will be a place where I nagging, put my feeling and my thought on.
another blog will be solely for my travel tips ( macam la banyak kan ..). I have another blog to put in the resipi and also another blog for my other stuff... emmm can I handle it? Satu blog pun x larat kan... :p Check out my travel blog on the blog list

itunes U

After i bought the iphone .. mula la berjinak2 kat apps store. I found one thing in the store that I really salute Steve Job - Itunes U. You can get a lots of thing FOC. Even a whole semester lecture in Standford U. You can choose any class you interested on in some of top university. So you kind of virtually been there and listen to those lecture.  Name it, from music, motivation, philosophy, history to the nerdy programming, it all there FOC ( i repeat again FOC). As much as ppl said APPLE ripped off the customer money with their ridiculous price but I think they give you a priceless experience and they give you opportunity to get more than what you actually pay..... ( I Hope APPLE can let me become ambassador so i get mac book for free... yeahhhhh... ). Btw i cakap je .. is not that I fully utilize the itunes U but it is there....

Plan to put my imac in the room back. I just realize i didn't like to be disturb when i concentrate with my stuff. Sometimes pity to my hsemate/my mum as they talking to me when I really want to concentrate I just give a blank look or "i dont care" look. When my mac in the room last time, i will stay inside the room whenever i want to do something and only come out to living hall to do the human connection ( yeah right ...).. when i decide to put it in the hall, i tot i ready to have a real adult life but i guess I wasnt ready yet. Tapi dunno how to fit my mac in the room. Need to do a full room makeover... x pe la pikir after my bali trip.  ( does this another syndrome of macbook excuse creation? emmm i have lots of this kind of syndrome where if I want something  .. somehow my whole body - physical n emotion find a way to give me excuses to get what I want .. --- dangerous ... ) . Anyway i taking a week off. 4 days to go to bali n the rest is to give some times for me to do what i want to do.. hope it give me enough time to clear my chest n my head.

3 idiots...

my friend suggest tgk cete ni... mulasal i just ignore dia nya suggestion as too much in my plate right now. So much worries that make me can't think and feel so depressed. My credit card kena telan ngn ATM machine ( dont ask why but it happens) last 2 weeks and until now my card replacement x sampai2 lagi. Next week I'm going to Bali and no credit card at all. I was planning to book a hotel near Safari Bali as they give free entrance ticket but because their need credit card to secure the booking terpaksa la batalkan. So terpaksa la duduk kat Kuta ja which i reserved last 2 months using my old credit card. At the same times at work I have deliverable this week and because they use stupid windows app, when it give unhandled exception i dont know why n how to fix it.

 Anyway berbalik pada cete 3 idiots tu, after my friend beriya2 suruh tgk then i stream using you tube to see why dia so want me to watch it. Bila dah tgk sket wow best. It is different from normal Hindi movie and really2 good. It touch abt education and really2 funny. I really laugh and i think the script writer really good.

As much as I agree with Rancho but I'm not sure what is the result if it being implemented and to tell the truth I have doubt if we are ready yet as that kind of educator. I'm an exam person so it a bit hard for me to open up my mind to think a clever way to make ppl really interested in knowledge. My thinking always how to make the kids follow the correct path but not how to teach the kids choose they correct path. As much as I ashame to admit but i know deep down in my heart i saw educations first as the tool to improve social  status - to run from poverty. then only yg lain2.

 Bila pikir2 as long as I have doubt means I didn't believe it right... so confuse because a part of me really do think education should be like that and a part of me scared to love knowledge.. will we regret...?
.... maybe I'm the worry Raju. I hope All is well.

leopard vs snow leopard...

it seems my wish for mac book air wasnt an easy target. So much roadblock before even opening sdk for the apps. I started to download sdk sabtu tghari and near 12.30 midnite, it already download half. When I'm surf the net tetiba the cat panjat atas meja .. n as malas nak layan so i just go to sleep. Then bila bangun pagi, when I check the download dah stop but size 1.8G instead of 3.5G. Stop at 12.27am. I guess the cat somehow step on the kb. Geramm .. tapi sabar je la.. next time has to put another window kat depan so the chances of screw it up accidently is lower.  Ok .. then stop all other download so it will be faster a bit n download  the SDK again. And this time the file finish download and i check the size is correct 3.5G. So excitedly nak install la kan. tetiba x leh install. aphalll... then only notice that my OS is Leopard but sdk yg avalaible is for snow leopard. DAMNNNN... . To upgrade ke snow leopard kena bayar usd29 and next year another OS will come out -- LION. So mcm x worth it je nak upgarde. In a way good thing jugak at least i know should not buy mac air before 2011 summer.
Luckily bila googled finally found the old link SDK for leaopard n it still work.... I hope nothing happens tonite.. ( please let the download finish). Die to see the first hello world....

mac book air

uhhh .. sgt cantikk .. so slim n small. can just bring everywhere n anywhere. Serious nak tapi xde duit. If I put stoking infront of my bed this christmas, will Santa Clause gimme mac book air? Please2 please2 santa. Teringat masa kecik2 because of this Christmas, me, sister n brother decide to hang our stoking, n give each other person a gift to put into that stoking..  my brother instead of letak stoking, dia letak bakul baju depan katil dia .. BUT the next day bila wake up, no gift for me n my sister .. but we did give to our brother :(. Sudah kena tipu.

anyway pasal mac book air, i want to put challenge to myself. If I  able to cross my thing to do on the apps thingy then only i will reward myself... Yeahhhhhhh ... Hope by that there are better model n cheaperrrr :p

Mak Saya dah balik kg :(

Just send my mum ke airport n now I still infront Airport. Macam malas balik. My relation with my mum is not always sugar coating relationship. I'm a girl that like confrontation with ppl that I close with. There are times where we fight errr I means I fight her back when she say something that I doesn't like / agree or simply when she nagging at me. But deep in my heart I really respect her with all my heart and I start missing her already. Sending ppl off always the hardest thing. Balikkkk tidoooooo

what your definition of happiness

Tadi tgk drama melayu - dia atilia. So couple ni just found out yg wifenya pregnant n give the good news to their parents. Of course the parents are super duper happy. My friend tetiba asked .. " Bila la kita nak kasik this good news to our parents..and asked my mum ... makcik suka x kalau imah kasik news ni ". My mum nak jawab but can't seems to find the correct answer so the question just left hanging. I respect my mum for not saying yes or at least try to think abt it.

I felt that getting married/getting pregnat is not marker yg boleh indicate your kids happiness and we should not impose that idea & our hope to kids. Of course we should feel happy if somehow our kids decide to get marry or they are expecting a baby etc but should not put that as a checklist of our own happiness.  I think parents should feel happy for all the thing that your kids achieved doesnt matter what is it as long as the kids are growing ( bukan memanjang ya .. but  growing la).. A small milestone in your kids life should be our big happiness. 

I noticed, when the kids is baby, all parents are super duper excited with the kids growth. Everything is super zoom especially for the first kids. Excited with our kids first words la .. our kids boleh meniarap la .. etc. But as they grow older especially when they finish their college, parents will stop to notice n celebrate those meaningfull milestone moment. We look for something more material like married la, baby la, buying car la , buying hse la...
 Like having a baby, the first happiness should base on the fact that our kids will have their wonderful parenting experience instead of we will have our OWN grandkid.

And if i'll become a parents one day, I hope i still believe the most important is what they want in their life n what make them happy. Of course something yg purely right la as I believe people will only be happy forever if they doing the right things. Purely right must be something that we really believe by heart .. not something we give our own excuses so that it will be right ( ok .. bullet to myself).

And I prayed n i hope that my kids will find someone that they can share their dreams and someone that can help ease their emotion burden. But if somehow fate decide that they doesnt have opposite partner, I'll die happily if their life is surrounded by good people that will always cherish them.

So in another 35 years if i still alive n someone asked me similar question ... my answer will be . "Seeing how they growing for the past 30 years is already happiness to me". Why 35? hahahah... another 5 years ... married or not, i plan to hv a kids. bukan bayi tabung uji etc but plan for adoption. I dont want to lose that parenting experience and i really hope my parents are happy with my decision.