are we friends

Sila la jawab ye .. btw sesapa yg baca anime .. try to read death note .. quite nice tapi dah last2 boring sket sebab complicated sgt

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. . How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

A cost of a deer meat

I notice that assumption always lead to bad thing. I've seen how a very good friendship ruined bcos of assumption ... what a waste. Tapi why is it hard for us to ask for a clarification?? malukah org kata kita lambat pick up or busybody ? or tak nak org irritated? or nak jadik cool though kita tak cool pun ... Tak kisah la apa2 pun reason. saya pun suka buat assumption. malas org cakap "cakap banyak" ... sebab saya mmg cakap banyak pun ..
Last 2 days .. i ate deer meat and the cost : headache for 2 days .. uhhh .. takmoh makan lagi. dah la tak sedap mana pun. btw .. I'm looking for a room kat penang island ni. sesapa ada contact let me know. Thanks!!!

Cryonics .. Human vs frog

It's very funny people willing to pay lots of money to be cryopreserved while there is no prove it will works. And I think even the research utk hidupkan org balik which pun macam takde break through je... apa apa tah manusia zaman sekarang ni. suka buat benda pelik. One of the ppl that I know cakap kalau dia ada duit pun nak buat cryopreserved .. just because curiosity...
btw one interesting fact that i got from tv series. ada sejenis katak - Frog Wood able to survive after a few month frozen. amazing kan ciptaan tuhan ..
Sometimes rasa heran why ppl want to live forever. Yeah .. I think I like to live longer as long as my family and my friends around me but I dont think preserved our brain after death and waiting for advance in medical untuk hidup balik is a choice. Macam scary je... Just imagine someone who being preserved in year 2000 only can be revive back in year 2500. How to adapt with the total new technolgy. How he going to survive without friend and family. Takutnya saya .. I know i can't.
And even without this cryonic etc ... i dont think i want to live too long and watching one by one our family and friends leaving me... It's really sad. I remember watching alchemist .. at first that guy one to live forever but after sometimes he realize it's only a curse. But yet .. we have to live to the fullest friends!!! :)

Im so tired today ...

LAzy to write .. but wanna update something

life is like a box of jelly bean

Talking to my friends recently abt life. One of them said abt emptiness. How he can sometimes felt empty even there is ppl around. He said everyone experience emptiness and it's nothing wrong with that. I'm not sure if I ever experience emptiness and I'm not sure how actually it felt. But one thing Im sure i have an unknown feeling deep inside me which Im not sure what. There is time i felt i have not done enough yet. I still not satisfied with my life. Satisfied not in term of money (though saya pun tak la org kaya) or in term of how successful i am in my life. But more on .." ohh i have optimze 200% of my life doing something whixh gave me 2000% ROI" emm actually just a secure satisfaction feeling. Maybe I still looking for something. And i still not sure on what I'm looking for... emm I come across with a saying long time ago .. " Tiada manusia merasa gundah gulana jika ia tahu apa yang dicari". I think maybe true tapi bila pikir2 .. what actually im looking for?? Emmm tapi ekk kawan2 tak yah la risaukan saya sebab most of the time this feeling will be override and saya tak pernah really finish think why and what .. ahahahhaha.
My hsemate's fiance just come back from US. He brought back a bag of jelly bean. Nice wor .. got 50 different flavor/color.. and they got the illustration on the bag. The fun thing abt eat it .. is like solving a puzzle. when you can really got what u want from the bag rasa heaven nya .. Most of the time sure salah except for common taste kot sebab kaler dia dekat2
Dun you feel life is like a bag of jelly beans? There is lots of options .. and sometimes it looks the same but the end taste is different. You can't control what you pick though you already sure what you want. You might pick the wrong one and maybe a right one but anything that you pick .. is just a jelly bean. Enjoy it.. and continue your life. Do not afraid to have hope of getting a jelly bean that you want cause its where the excitement of eating the jelly bean.

* Im on MC today .. expected to have severe fever sebab kena virus infection tapi hari ni cam badan tak panas pun.. just slightly headache. camne tu??

Rosak - padam

mamai ...

i read an article abt demo held in KL on the increasing bill electric. emm .. tatau la bila baca2 tu kekadang i felt ashame with myself. There are lots of thing that sometime i do not agree but i dont have courage to raise it . I felt that what i say wont make a different which i think if everyone keep on thinking like this .. we wont achieve what we have now. Sometimes i do not raise up certain thing bcos im afraid i may think it wrong or it may not my right. I try my best to view from other ppl view which end up i have to cover what i think with what someone thinking. I guess it happen bcos i try to avoid any conflict and confrontation .... and actually i hate it.

~ Tangan kita terlalu kecil untuk menahan langit yang akan runtuh... but will we just sit and wait it to collapse???

Think tank

Recently i felt that i need to think about something .. but dunno what is it. emm but seems something keep bordering me .. i got this kind of feeling of .. hey .. something important u have not think yet .. think faster .. but as i think2 .. i dun have thing to think . weird aa .. maybe that the phenomena of getting "old" ..hahahahhah ... like ur brain got some background job which thinking nothing and trap in it. At the same time we will ignore what we suppose to think. Btw .. i saw one book in popular abt thinking nothing .. hahahhahah .. good arr .. i always thinking nothing.

i'll be taking one week off from my work. Tetiba dapat cuti terpijak for 5 days .. and my mum is here in penang. Planning to go somewhere to ease my mind .. looking forward for it ... hhahaaahah ( macam la keje berat sangat .. :p )

AF 4 just started. Last nite was the pre of prelude concert ..

"Life Is Wonderful"

emm .. i think the lyrics quite good...

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful

contract marriage

im quite shock when reading article abt this contract marriage and until now i'm not sure if it is real or not. The article mention abt contract marriage which berleluasa kat afganistan. It say that this contract marriage are allowed in Syiah but are not in Sunnah. For Sunnah, their view is contract marriage is only for sex while in Islam marriage is more than that. But for Syiah, contract marriage can help in a few things. For example when a guy doesn’t have enough money to get marriage, he can have a contract marriage with a woman to fulfill his need and the dowry will be less than normal marriage. Normally the dowry will proportional with the duration of the contract. And for woman, they can easily find someone to take care of them and the children for certain duration of time without have to go to prostitution. Both got their reason but for me i agree with Sunnah.. I view this contract marriage like trying to meghalalkan prostitution. For me, a marriage suppose to be a knot to tie husband and wife such that they will share the entire of life together.. share the happiness.. problem .. and each have their own responsibility. But if you know u will stay with your partner for like 2 month ... i dun think we willling to share everything .. to scarifice everything for the other. i feel it a bit unfair especially for woman ...

~ one step back does not mean you are a loser ....

Am I outspoken??

Your Birthdate: September 30

You have the type of personality that people either love or hate. You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken. And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted. Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved. Your strength: Your flair Your weakness: If you think it, you say it Your power color: Scarlet red Your power symbol: Inverted triangle Your power month: March

I went for Disney on ice last weekend ... uhhhh sungguh best tapi cepatnya abis... serius mase "its the small world" teringat 6 budak hitam pergi ke paris .. ( unforgetable memoriess)

~ let conscious be your guidance ....

Air oh Air!!!

ACtually benda ni happen dah lama.. abt 2 years back tapi tak settle2 lagi. When my brother worked at Mahkota Camp kluang, he bought a hse kat parit jawa and stayed kat situ. In 2003 he has to moved to Sg besi and then to Perak a year after that. So rumah kat parit jawa tu just sewa kat student Ittho. Everything went smoothly sampai la in mid 2004 he got called from the tenant saying that he's going to move out and there is some bil air problem due to water leaking. When my brother ask his friend to look at it ... memang ada leaking and yg btul2 surprise is the bils was abt RM7000+ .. what the heck!!!.. kalau tak salah .. the tenant cakap yang bil tak dapat for a few months and bile diorng dapat .. tgk2 dah sampai 7000. emm tatau la nak percaya ke tak . my theory is that the first month leaking, bil tu abt a few hundreds n they dun want to pay .. so just biar2 sampai la bil dah 7000 lebih. I was a student back then ... and i know how you feel bile tetiba bil sampai a few hundred. Yang sungguh pelik and yang saya tak puas hati not the student excuses tapi nape SAJ tak potong je air tu before it reach empat angka. Tak bleh pikir ke .. there must be something wrong kalau tetiba air tu sampai 7000 and it just a small terrace hse. I remember after the incident, I called someone dari SAJ asking what is the procedure of pemotongan air. I ask him why they did not cut the water though for sure th bil dah over certain of limit and they not pay the bil for more than 6 months..( FYI : mase my bro dapat tau air tu masih tak potong2 lagi). The funny thing org SAJ tu cakap " ni dah baik la kitorng tak potong .. kalau potong kesian kat org penyewa tu .. dah la student .. takde air susah". Saya tatau la org yang bercakap tu manusia biasa or alien.. or maybe for him 7000 is nothing la kot. WHy must in this world exist org cam gini?? Not long after that I send a mail to pengarah air batu pahat .. and the same times my brother went and see the officer so this problem get escalated. Then i lost track what happen as i went to balaja balik. When i coming back my bro told me that they give 50% discount .. so my bro hv to pay Rm3800 but still 3800 is quite a big sum. My bro ask for paying only 1000 but tak di layan .. so he decide to biarkan je la the case as he staying in Perak that time. Early this year he went back to Johor. Currently he rent a hse kat Kluang so tak pikir lagi la pasal air tu. tHen suddenly he got a notice asking him to get in to army quarters else they will not give housing elaun. So nak tak nak he has to move to his own hse kat parit jawa. Then all this bil air timbul balik. So pity with him. I really hope i can go and buat kacau kat SAJ office tapi me as mentimum tak bleh nak buat apa. I thot of bringing this issue kat NTV7 .. tapi cam gile glamer la plak. I tried to find any kind of agreement yang cakap pemotongan air akan dibuat after certain period of time .. or etc tapi tak jumpa lagi. I do feel there is injustice in this issue tapi can I fight it?? Tetiba saya rasa cam nak gi cari spider and ask them to bite me so I can be the first spiderwoman!!! ... Btw .. water bills in penang sangat murah compare to Johor.

Hentikan keBrontokan ini

Uhhh ..adik saya datang Penang this weekend. Motive utama .. nak mencleankan laptop dia yang dimasuki virus as all her laptop's driver cd still with me. somemore her friend cakap " suruh la kakak buatkan .. dia engineer kan.. sure tau" . gulp .. telan air liuq....why aa ppl think engineer know everything?? anyway .. virus yang kena kat laptop my sis is a bit ganas la. it close all the antivirus appliction .. u can't do any register edit, open control panel.. and tak ble gak open any file yang namanya ada kena mengena ngn brontok ke .. clean ke .. kill ke ..not even security task manager. So memang agak payah la. Virus ni akan mengreplicate diri dia as system file like winlogon, lsass etc. btw i manage to find one Killer machine yg works which u hv to rename it first to other name. U hv to tell the killer machine which file u think is the virus and it will scan/delete any folder yang content file tu. Tapi masalahnya salah satu virus yang saya ingat virus bukan la virus tapi mmg system file.. so bila direboot .. i can't enter window. So nak tak nak .. terpakse la mengre-install windows baru .. ponat den bersusah payah .. last2 kena gak install OS baru. Virus ni rasanya made in Indonesia and most information macam mana nak clean kan dia all in Indon language .. tapi yg tak tahan nye there is one file created by the virus called "baca bro.txt". This file bila bukak dia akan link to cmd prompt and ada lah kata2 nasihat .."hentikan kebrontokan negara ini .. hentikan rasuah .. n macam2 lagi la". tak sangka ekk sekarang ni nak kasik good message pun kena guna a nasty way ekk?? and i wonder if anyone yang kena virus tu akan betul2 pikir pasal message tu. Rasanya .. manusia normal seperti saya akan lebih marah kot .. ke saya tak normal??

they or me??

have you ever did a personality test and the result seem to be same as what other ppl think what u are .. but it's not the same with what you think u are. or terbalik .. what i try to say is ppl see u is not as u see urself. emm .. sound confusing?? im oso confuse as now at the time im writting is already 2am. so half of brain went to teluk memerang already. only left less than half. Sometimes i dunno which one is matter .. is it what u think u are .. or what ppl see u ??? .. I always think .. only we know ourself better than anybody else but yet .. it other ppl who interact with us and see us. mcm case ayam dan telur plak .. everything is related. Tapi bak kata cpah .. tak yah pikir banyak2 . Let the confusion begin .. and end in my dream .. :). Going off.........

Day with a hope

Im so tired but yet better write something before go off to my Teluk memerang. Another good day pass with no regret. i pleased to describe today as perjuangan day. Hehehhehe .. after a half day of playing paintball i went to watch V for Vendata movie. Really really a great movie. I like the story, the scripts and oso the cast. It quite sometimes i haven't watch a good movie which I can feel inspired after watch it .. but don't make me wrong la im not going to offend our dear government bcos of this movie. It just that the movie really enlighted me for certain part. Sincerely I do think there is lots of true in this movie and i believe it happen or may happen in real life. It only we notice or not je. And one thing that i wish when i watch the movie .... i'll not live long enough until owning something precious to you is a crime. I will suggest anyone to watch it.. emm macma better get the DVD version so u can rewind back to get what V really say. The words are very nice but to poetic for ppl like me la.

~A hope is much more important than the symbol itself.

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Life can be very confusing. When ppl ask ur opinion abt something .. u can advise them like u the guru of everything but when it come to ur time, everything seem to be hard to think. The more you think they more you confuse but if you don't think afraid that you will regret even more. Thinking of solution and try to implement the solution is two different thing which is very hard to do. For me the "why" is easy to answer but the "how" is the most difficult thing to think and to do. I will like to take life as simple as ABC but will life be that simple??? Or im a complicated prsn trapped in complicated personality?? Sometimes i dunno what happen but terasa cam ada background context running in my life.

why ka??

Sometimes aku terpikir ..
~ have I did everything that I want to do..
~ if i were to die today .. is there thing yang i regret not to do.
~Is this all i can do with my life .. sometimes terasa amat la selfish. I notice my life is just for myself, my family and my closest friends .. i believe there is something i can give to others but why it always come with excuses????
~ did i live my life to the fullest???
~ do i really believe in life after death .. if yes .. why i so stubborn not following what im suppose to do
~ i can read a bunch of novel ... i'd finished a few of my school revision book .. i know how to read .. but why i can't finish the qoran translation

banyak lagi sebenarnya .. but im off to teluk memerang ..

Harry quiz

Im taking harry porter quiz. this based on Myers-Briggs personality quiz .. sebenarnya i tak kenal pun myers ni tapi takpe la buat macam kawan sekolah je la.

Quote from the web " The first index relates to how you interact with other people and can be Extroverted (E), meaning you're more outgoing or Introverted (I), meaning you keep more to yourself. The second relates to how you make decisions; whether you're Intuitive (N), getting answers from within, or you rely on Sensing (S) information from your surroundings, using your five senses. The third relates to whether you're more emotional and Feeling (F) or rational and Thinking (T). The fourth relates to whether you prefer things to be organized, meaning you're Judging (J), or you prefer things to be more unbound, meaning you're Perceiving (P)."

Anyone interested nak buat quiz ni .. meh la bersama2 membuang masa kat
http://piratemonkeysinc.com/quiz.htm

TMnut

Ahhhhhh .. i got my streamyx .. but asyik disconnect je. jahat sungguh tm ni. now im watching Mya Zara. At first i find it quite addicted .. tapi ending dia macam spoiled je.. tatau aa .. I like all cerita yang series .. it keep me waiting for something. Sometimes .. the feel of waiting is nice. Im going to Pasir Mas tomorrow . I've been waiting this for a month .. and finally the day has come. An advance congrats to Eja.

Salon

Do you love somebody because you need him or you need him because you love him? emm two situations construct with the same word but have two different meaning. i think those who believe in true love will agreed with the later one but as ppl always said, not everyday have a rainbow... so i guess most of the time ... the first situation will always win la. How sad to love somebody because you need him .. coz as time flies .. our need maybe change or he may not be able to fulfill our need .. so will the love fade??? i also tatau .. life is so unique to predict anything ... btw before anyone make any wild assumption.. actually i got this from cerita Salon. none is related to my life ye... okay now something related to my life .. I manage to stay 2 days without a hsemate ..emm actually i lied .. i went to my ex hsemate hse and melepak kat situ yesterday and oso today. I just realized im not a girl who can stay alone .. i can't bear the feeling of emptiness.. :(. I need my friends around me.. I really feel gratefull that i always have friends around me. Thanks .. thanks and many thanks for all my friends who sudi become my friends :)

beauty killed the beast

today ... someone older by a day ... hhahhahahahaaha .. happy birthday cpah .. oppsss .. happy belated besday. purposely aku buat post lambat sehari so now u're 25 yrs and1 day!!!.. hahahhahaha .. (cpah : dah berjaya ke step anda yg pertama??kalau berjaya .. saya nak try gak :p)
smlm i watch king kong .. a nice movie. I can't remember the older version of King kong but huhuhhuh kesian nye kat king kong yg version baru.. he/she ( tatau la mane satu) .. fall in love with a wrong person la... actually i like the moral value from sitcom played in the movie ...tak engat la the actually dialogue but .. the dipendek secara pendeknya ... "although u think it is obvious .. speak it out". I think most of ppl including me always assume what we do is so obvious that other ppl notice without we have to speak it out. that's where all the break down happen in communication. everything in this world hv 360 degree view.. u may see it this way .. other may see it that way .. if there is no one common commucation which is known by everyone.. we may look at thing is 2 different view .. and speak totally alien language.
btw .. today .. emm actually last nite is my first time alone in Penang. My hsemate move to other new hse. I'll be moving to other hse sebab their current hse owner tak moh 3 org. dunno la but they really like that hse. and the owner cakap if my hsemate going to mv 3 prsn, then we must add 200 in the rental which means the i hv to pay 200 for a very small room. smaller than my current room and from the way my shemate told me.. the owner really dun want 3 prsn. so nak buat cam mane .. terpakse la pindah rumah lain which bila pikir2 okay je. Insya allah i'll be staying with my high school friend, nani kat area on the way to george town tapi the hse tu tak boleh masuk dulu .. kena install grill and put on lights dulu. so i'll be staying alone for one mth in my old hse.. emm actually my owner kasik 2 minggu je .. but i hv to called him kot nak mintak extend. but insya allah my mum will come next week kot.. kesian to her but apa nak buat my father takut if anything happen at night and nobody there.