between 2 life

now i'm at mabul island. a very beautiful island. the sky is blue and the sea is crystal clear with lots of fish and coral. i can see fish n coral from my chalet balcony. its one of the nicest place that i have been in my entire life so far. the snorkle is so heaven. i got to see lots of fish, turtle, starfish n less rubbish. but like what my good friend say, i always has a "but". there are also another side of mabul that pretty sad. yesterday while waiting for the room to be ready, we did some kampung tour walking at the beach. in between this luxury resort, there a stretch of setinggan if i may call. a lots of kids with yellowish hair either playing cards, kicking ball etc. when we stop to buy sourvenior, the kids keep begging to get something form us either money or food. i asked what they want the money for. they say to buy keropok. in the evening there will be couple of small sampan with the kids singing his heart out of loud and asking us money or food. oo did i mention that they are naked? the scenery is pretty amusing but at the same time is sad. while  i'm paying pretty big sump for our 3d2n stay but the local doesnt seems to benefit much from it. in another scene, my mum while waiting for me, met a boat of sea gypsy selling crab but she can't buy because didnt bring money. then the guy asked if my mum had any kuih to give. my mum

give a pack of chipsmore. bila dpt the father took a few pieces by himself and lick the crumbs that fall on his hand. it pretty sad. i dunno what i want to do with it but i guess government maybe can encourage homestay that benefit more to local. but homesay in mabul had they own problem to tackle- cleanlines. sigh.  penat nk pikir. 

Not your normal ghost story.

It was 3.30 am and I was sleeping alone in my house.... Out of sudden i hear a noise and sound come from my irobot vacumn which on by itself... What the hell? I started to feel scared d... Oh myyy who ON my robot. I remembered i set the schedule on Saturday & Sunday at 4pm. Initially I tot maybe somehow those day that I didn't set will have some default schedule. I went out to my living room. Off my robot. Checked all the room & windows and it's empty and proper lock. I bring the robot inside the room and check the schedule. Only Sun& Sat is set. The rest is --. I start to feel scared. I put the robot to the charger and go back to my room and locked my door.  My mind already think a lots of thing...I read al falaq many times but can't stop thinking who on it... One of it is jin(i tell u why at the bottom)... and the most funny is cockroach because i kill cockroach a few days before so i tot the revenge of cockroach.. I take my phone and google'd anything abt the irobot on by itself.. Hope to find that its a normal thing that irobot to on by itself. Found one funny article abt the irobot on itself n commit suicide but i think is fraud. Finally i found one article that suggest the memory might have glitch. Being engineer, it calm me a bit. I decided to wait until tmrw and take out the battery see if it still on. A friend call me around 7am and i told him. He told me irobot can set schedule and ask to see online how to check it. I said I already set the schedule and it only set Sat & Sun... then he ask.. did u set the clock? I like ... emm emmm i didn't.. I hang up and check the robot.. At that time the robot shows as sat 8pm.. hhahahaha so the 3.30am was my schedule for sat 4pm.. What a relief... The next day i stay awake to see if there is any sound again .. but thanks god, my problem resolve...

Some background how I can come out with that idea of jin....

Recently i just got to know from my friend that marble sound and also sound of furniture moving is sign that your house got jin. I always hear furniture sound. I google'd a bit to know more. If i type bunyi guli, it really come out all the jin stuff. If I type marble sound at night, i managed to find a more reasonable explanation which something abt the pipe, ball bearing la etc.. I asked around.. all races and religion who stay in apartment and it seems all ppl i asked also hear it. I asked if they knew anything abt it but nobody know what is it. As normally chinese has more pantang larang and for them doesn't know why got marble sound, I guess it must be the new thing so i made conclusion that the marble sound & furniture moving is something abt the structure of building. And some more my kampung house dont have because we stay in single storey. I'm thinking cannot be jin like to stay in condo instead of landed. If really it was the jin sound, you can here in even in single storey property. Anyway, when the robot incident happens, I tot the jin want to show me.. you wrong .. the marble sound really my sound.. 

Intention: does it matter

A friend just come back from

kenya. Right after she come back we have a very long chat on her experience there. She was telling me abt the guy who created community center in kenya that they attached to. Both of us impressed with him. How he start, what he want to achieve and the thing he had achieve. We felt how humble he is bcos he intention just merely to solve his community problem while all the while for me is how to make myself feel

usefull. Even if both us doing the same thing for community,  for him is selfless intention while for me it center abt me ( anyway i'm not doing anything ... just thinking n talking of doing it but no action:( ). He was my idola at that time. 

Today while having tea break with her, we talked n somehow touch abt the same Kenya topic again. She still keep in touch with some friend in Kenya. She felt, the more she know them, the more she feel something wrong with the guy that setup the community center n all centered on money. It was the same thing back then we tried to help a orphanage in Penang which the project we abandon after feel uneasy with the management. 

All this thing sometimes make me scepticle with those who do a good thing. is there anyone out there really do it out of selflessness. or it human nature try to gain some benefit on good thing that they do? Should i even care their agenda? or is it as long it help community it doesnt matter what the real agenda is? Am i at the edge of hopeless.... concetrating on things that shouldn't matter. sigh.  

ronda bos

my company are going to have re org and i will be under new bos.... n guess what. since i know the changes, i didnt hear any good thing about him. one famous thing is he like to ronda. On monday, we saw him pass ny cube at 3pm. i never see him in my area before. Then when colleague want to go back he said to me "i want to go back. you cannot. your boss will ronda at 5.30pm". i like alaaa x kan la kan. not even official lagi he become my bos.  suddenly at 5.30pm, i saw him again pass by.   damnnnn. why i must be this unlucky to get a freaky bos. 

life

Went to office n work for like 2 hours, then headed for team's buffet lunch. continue with bowling. had a nice laugh with all the incident. went back home with no jam. did a 2.5km jog. n now i'm lazying under the breeze of wind thinking of nothing. what a nice n stress free day. hahahah. it will be better if it end with nice dinner. but i guess i'm asking to much isn't it?

Stalker!

I just realise that I have stalker!!! It not human but technology. When proudduck announce RM30 discount, I decide to use it on mini skirt. Planned to wear for oversea trip with my compression pant as wearing pants over pants seems a bit weirdo .. So that one day, i have been looking for mini skirt in fashionvalet and zalora. And  recently while browsing, i noticed i got lots of zalora advertisement and is all about mini skirt!!! They are watching me!! It scary isn't it?

Blessing in disguise?

I literally having bad hair day for a few days d... all blame to my attempt of re-learn swimming again. My hair feel like berus sabut. So just just now, after work I went to Guardian to find swimming shampoo. While looking for swimming shampoo, I saw Himalaya Shampoo. Rasa tempting nak try but if i buy both shampoo, my budget will burst.  Yeah both cost less than 50 but I  have RM900 bet deal with my buddies whereby we try to live with RM900 for this month - RM30 per day. So I texted them to ask if buying shampoo is consider in the deal or not. Being monster as they are + kiasu want to win, of course la they said yes hv to count... :( so I have to made my decision. I sit there for a near half an hour reading reviews, looking at the price and keep on swapping shampoo in my hand. Finally i  decide to just buy the Aqua Swim as that was my original intention.  After dinner, I still x puas with my  hair because I feel like sticky2. My Aqua Swim I left in the car to be use tmrw morning so I google2.. and found out lots of ppl rave abt DIY shampoo and conditioner which is using Baking Soda/Sodium Bicarbonate and Vinegar as conditioner.. I check my kitchen and I have both stuff so apa lagi .. try la kan. I mixed Sodium Bicarbonate with water in small container (1:3) and also mixed apple cider Vinegar with water (1:4). After wet my hair, I put the sodium bicarbonate mix onto my hair, rub it and leave for 4 mins. Then I rinse and follow by apple CIder Vinegar mix. After rinse, I feel my hair smoother.Yeahhhhh... happy. If I dont have that RM900 constraint, maybe I'll buy the Himalayan or Clairol Hello Hydrating which may not able to give the same feeling that i have now but because of limitation I find workaround. I guess it same with life ... find new challenge and your body will adapt !!


 I one happy bunny :)

equality? bullshit!

Just comeback from combodia. Initially I have nothing to expect for this trip except to see the Angkor Wat. Although i know they hv the killing field as tourist atrraction, never that i thought that will be the highlight of my trip. After lots of cambodia ppl mentions abt khmer rouge i did some google and know a bit2 of the story. visiting one of the killing cave in battambang make me even want to understand it further as i really feel confuse and can't understand how equallity bring this all violent. how ppl can be this bad and worst they do it on their own people which all the racism religionism does not apply. on my way back, councidently i found one book which no so heavy but yet give me insight pf what happens during that time. never fall down is quite a good book to understand this very pain event. even after read it i still cant get the logic right away. why equality can become this pain.. finally something struck me. they doesn't want equality. they just want a bigger cake for themselves. i guess even lots of ppl voice out abt fighting for equality but very little really means it. the rest just want to be at the other side with a bigger cake

Missing the little angel

My bro come for a short break this weekend, bringing his family. I spend most my time with his first kid - Nuha, teman her playing, watching Kitty etc.. They left Penang in the afternoon and I already start missing her d :(. Looking at them, sometimes I wonder how ppl can have more than 2 kids. Kids really want attention. Like Nuha she constantly want someone to layan her. Either just show her  some stuff or talking to her.

Rambling in 2013

During this election, as normal lots of issue pop-up and one of the famous one is regarding racism and also the privilege of bumiputra. I was looking back at the history of the famous 13 May. People keep on blaming everybody who start the 13 May. Some said Tun Razak started it to overthrown Tuanku Abdul Rahman. Some try to relate to opposition by saying Lim Kit Siang was there during that famous parade. But reading on all the comment especially those who actually was in that scene, it seems the main reason, there is a racial tension from beginning. It just looking the correct time to burst out. I can understand the disappointment in Malays as their living economy is way below than Chinese. Although from my observation, chinese culture and attitude is the one that cause them to be successful in most of place. But I think its normal human being to blame other ppl for something we didn't have. I'm not saying what Malays feel is correct but it understandable. Anyway, history is history. Don't shift the blame it to anyone. It really the slow burning hatred in our community that cause that 1969 bloody event. We just has to accept the fact at that time.

Will we have similar think if the government change today? Although there are still racist in our country today but it wasn't as bad as last time. We have been well blend either through school, university and thanks to MNC company, this is were most races mix around. We can eat together, outing together and some even stay together with different race. China and India seems to be part of their history for my non-Malays friends. I have not find anyone who actually plan to go back to China or India. For most who stay in Malaysia, Malaysia is their home. For Malays, the living economy for at least 50% of Malays has increase dramatically. Although we have that super rich Malays which ppl relate to UMNO cronies, but we also have quite some of Malays that become the middle class in Malaysia. Very less people that feel jealous to other people because of it race. Of course it still exist but lesser. In 10 ppl, if 1 person raised it, the other 7 will say - nahh.. i dont think they like that... etc. Less dissatisfaction across different race.

As much as ppl doesn't want to admit but I think NEP does it help on creating this blend although it wasn't as perfect as it should be. Some of ppl said that NEP is injustice to non-Malay but it does achieve some of the target and I think, I won't be here sitting same table with other race without that. I will see form far, they enjoying the nice burger while I have to serve that burger with grudge in my heart. Of course you will said that now also someone serve you. There is also chinese that was really good but didn't get scholarship because of this quota thingy. They will feel the similar grudge what?. But my point is, for Malays to start stand on their feet, they need some kind of injection that tell them they can achieve it. At least 90 of my high school friend living quite comfortable life and like it or not, SBP is part of NEP and we are the product of Mahathir's NEP plan. And for me, it even impact my younger brother and sister when they see the path that I walk. And now it even goes to my nieces. But of course this shouldn't forever as the community now changing and we have different problem. The problem that NEP try to solve is 70's problem which I think no more valid. Now, byproduct of NEP is the ultra rich who make use the NEP and benefited themselves. This create a huge gap between them and normal ppl doesn't matter what race it is. Also the quality of education as we try to hard to push that quantity.  And mentality of some Malays that does not see the NEP as the starting stone but as privilege and also some leaders does not see the problem as big picture but merely follow what has been laid open. Maybe its now the time to focus on the how to boost the lower income doesnt matter what race they are.

Back to my question , will we have the similar 69 riot if the government change? I think it will not have any racial riot. If there will be havoc, it merely on the fanatic supporter. Thing will not get worst. Maybe some demo at different place but I dont think will have any blood shed. But the economy might get a bit worst as some of big company in Malaysia is claimed to be crony. Maybe ppl might pull out the investment to avoid anything harm. But one thing that might happen but I really pray to Allah, pls avoid it, is Mahathir might goes to jail. It really sad if that happens as no matter how much ppl relate him to cronisim and power abuse but I think he did a big favor to the country. He does not toyed with your emotion unlike the current leader or speculate future leader. He said what he think for the benefit of the country. For him to step down before any bloody riot happens and give the power to Abdullah is really show his genuine love to country. At that time reformasi was really loud. For some one that crave for power as it being claimed, stepping down is really a big deal. I hope, it wont  becoming like Indonesia. After 15 years of reformasi and after 5 years Suharto passed away, ppl start to regard him as the real countryman instead of the current leader.

I don't vote

Ok.. I decided not going back to Johor.. My colleague all screaming .. why dont vote .. why dont vote. I told them the flight is expensive. The truth is, I dont like BN ... and I dont like PR as well. So I dont want to waste RM500 and my weekend + menyusahkan org nak amik kat airport on something that I dont really believe on. As much as I want thing to change but I just dont see a clear picture from PR. Some ppl that I talk to said, we need 2 party system which I agree but when an Ulama join UMNO, ppl start to label him as UMNO's dog. Can't he get the right to choose which party he want to join. Does it means only PAS is the correct ideologi. Sigh. FB become the medium of sharing the hatred. When ppl take the bribery we blame both the one who give and the one who received but when BN held 1Malaysia dinner or 1 Malaysia concert which clearly want to gain the vote, we still go. Don't we know that those dinner is kind of bribery but yet we still take it? I just dont understand, so I guess the video by George Carlin is correct. Maybe it the public that sucks. I sucks because I dont vote.

My path and the other path

Accidentally i found one of my long lost UTM friend kat facebook. She one year younger but she under express MARA. So most of the time, kitorang sama kelas la masa kat UTM tu. Looking at her facebook, it just remind me of another path that I might walking if I made a different decision masa aku nak abis UTM .. at that time, her current life is seems to be 90% of my path. But just because one decision, my path diverted and here I am.... 10 years after the decision. Seriously I dont know which path is better but I dont regret either.

Ar Rahman

I was learning abt some group of Arabic words yang cannot accept tanwin. Normally if the nouns does not contains Alif Lam, it must has tanwin at the end to indicate it an indefinite nouns. Unless it a female name or non Arab origin name. And for adjective, it will follow the nouns. So if nouns tu ada tanwin, it must have tanwin also except some group. One of the group ada lah "Kaslanu - lazy", "jau`aanu - hungry", "`aatshaanu - thirsty" ,"ghadbaanu - angry".... So my teacher then said, all the words under this group has same characteristic.. A bit hard to shows here but if you get the arabic spell, you can see it has first huruf adalah fathah - baris atas, second "sukun - tanda mati", third "fathah - baris atas" then alif and then nun with dammah - "baris depan".  And all words under this group adalah benda yang x kekal. Mcm lapar, kita x lapar selalu or x thirsty selalu or x malas selalu. And Ar Rahman pun fall under this catergories. Rahman means  merciful - pemurah. So if we bring the characteristic huruf yang seumpama dgnya, means Rahman ni is Allah maha pemurah but it not something that forever. People normally relate Ar Rahman with duniawi while Ar Rahim which something forever is for the believer only. So if you ever wonder why people yang jahat dpt benda yang best2 is because Allah is Ar Rahman to everyone .. but it wont last. So don't be sad.. Let try to be a believer so that we can get Ar Rahim.

Race

I was writing my previous post and just happens kat blog punya statistic, this post pop up

Who cares if that someone likes the other someone bcos of their race. Its when they hate them that's the problem....

I don't remember where I read or quotes it but  to all my dear friends, I do hope we dont fall into this hate thingy... I just remind me those old days of black and white. Read or watch The Help, To Kill the Mockingbird or even the recent Django unchained. Are we want to be one of them?? There is one part in To Kill the mockingbird where the young boy cry seeing the unjustice happen. We and our kids should be like him instead of become like Leonardo in Django. Of course it easier to see the un-justice in movie/books because it other people story. But when we a part of the story, there is always a blind side...

Langkawi shopping trip

I bought a very cheap langkawi ticket last year. Only rm58 return. Don't have any specific reason but I know i can use it as opportunity to shop and relax my mind... Yeah la tu. mcm la stress sgt kan nk relax my mind. Initially i dont know what I'm going to do in Langkawi but tetiba recently people are talking abt pemangang ajaib. And as one of hardcore shopaholic and pemalas masak but wannabe tukang masak, sure la aku tartarik nk beli kan. Bila surf2 diorang ckp kat langkawi ada banyak .. So i finally get my mission to accompalish in langkawi.. Hehhehe and just happen a few days before i left, i got email from ocbc discount to ship stuff from us to malaysia. Being the super greedy of course la aku nk gak try but i end up dont know what to buy.. After cleared my mind, the only thing yg aku nak beli was corelle but i'm not sure if it a good idea to ship so i got my second mission in Langkawi - corelle. Ok it sound weird but that how I normally live my life.. sad  :(

Pastu tetiba lak, last week my friend tell me about a car yg dia cakap i might like it. Being me... I googled the car and it seems the review pretty good. So i have my 3rd mission which is to try the car in langkawi .. Hahahaha. So i googled and managed to get on contact yg ada mitsubishi mirage and the good news, he work in the airport.. Yipeee.  So here i come langkawiii!!!

On the pemangang ajaib -i bought vantage brand and it was rm99. Outside are selling around rm149- rm199. There are other brand also even HIG- haji ismail group had their own brand but as i want something that most people used sebab takut x tahan lama, so i bought vantage..

On corelle- initially i thought of buying plain white set. In HIG the plain white round shape 16pcs was RM369. The others with flower was rm419. Then in cocoa valley it was rm330. Wahh rm39 different and when i went to Wawasan Baru it was rm329. Emmm and suddenly my choice are between sakura or plain white. Main reason why sakura become the choice sebab kat HIG it was RM419. Hihihihi . But i do like the pattern. It just me simple n naive. But white is more sophisticated and bila pikir2 it just my wannabe so the weight goes to Sakura... My worry buying sakura is the pattern might outdated but ...who care, right. As long as I still in my world, I will not have that "peer pressure outdated thingy".... Hahahaha.  So if anyone of you nak beli corelle maybe it worth to check a few store. Even most of the price lebih kurang sama but some model might be cheaper. Ooo sebelum lupa, yg HIG tu maybe why it more expensive sebab ada free gift but bila pikir2 it not benda yg kita nak beli pun.. so better get a cheaper price. (mcm bukan aku ... sebabnya aku tau pun lepas aku dh beli else it might end up differently)

On mitsubishi mirage- i like it sebab it just similar with my car. Kelisa. I can control it and it didn't give me the feeling of out of place. It just me. Ok ngn kereta pun aku ada inferior complex. The engine pick up quite fast and i didn't realize yg dh reach 90-100km. The air cond sejuk quite fast ... way faster than my kelisa. But the interrior is a bit plastic la. Especially signal punya stick tu. Aku rasa mcm nk patah je everytime i give signal. Then the radio pun x leh bunyi .. In protect mode. I read somewhere kenwood model tu memang selalu ada masalah tu. Kena reset baru ok but i dont know where to reset so I end up x dengar radio. One thing, aku rasa kereta tu ringan and the stering is quite responsive. Tak tau la its a good or bad thinfg but i have to be a bit careful masa lalu jalan pusing2 on the way to The Loaf. So my verdict... if i have to choose paying RM400-RM700 per month for mirage vs driving my current kelisa, I still prefer my kelisa. But it might be a car that I consider if my kelisa reach it due time. (sob sob sob ...).

After completed all my 3 mission, aku proceed utk complete kan mission lama yg tak kesampaian .. which is pergi The loaf. The last time i went to Langkawi, nk gi the Loaf but I could not find it. I went to petronas side and actually The Loaf is at the other side. Even hari ni pun aku mulasal x jumpa until I  decided to just park and walk. Rupanya, kedai yg mengadap laut.. there is no signboard ... :(.  Kat sini aku jadi mcm makcik gila borong roti and then I hv my lunch there. I opted for The Loaf Beef Burger .. ohh my ... sedapnya .. lebih sedap dari Lot burger kat Dome ( ok aku peminat Lot burger). My taste bud weird sket sebab aku x suka tgif while most people I know like it. So kalau korang same category so you will like it. For dessert, I opted for almond chocloate mini uh hu hu cheesecake. It so heaven. I sit outside. A bit hot but the ambient was relaxing and nice... more quiet. Sometimes when the wind blow ... i wish I can stay there forever enjoy my times....

Just some tips : I bought  access baggage from air asia 25kg. I checked in my corelle sets, the pans etc. I asked for fragile punya sticker. But I padded with lots of towel yg aku beli kat Suri... I bought those towel because it cheap and my hse x byk towel but I think my subconscious mind might asked me to buy to pad the corelle just to be double precaution. Yg x check in just cawan set je sebab dia x cakap chip resistance. And alhamdullilah everything was fine and masih cantik. X sabar nak pakai kat rumah baru :)

Dreams

I was halfway reading this book and ya allah ... what he wrote was somewhat terkena kat batang hidung.. So here I'm sharing something yg i think is useful. It says ada 3 symptom that we are going through process of killing our dreams:

1. Lack of times : Those who do nothing ( ok i la ni) are always tired and pay no attention to the little amount of work that need to be done. We complain that day is too short but in reality we just scared of fight for our dreams.
2. Certainties : Because we dont want to see life in a great adventure, we start to think yg what we have now is enough. We kind of justify yg kita  x  patut greedy. ( me also)
3. Peaces : Everything is normal and predictable  (me also...!!)

So bila kita dah kill our dreams, we will go through satu period yg aman je BUT the dead dreams akan busuk n berakar umbi within us and akan impact our life. We become cruel to people and to ourselves. and at a point kita akan rasa arghhh nape hidup aku mcm ni .. and we start thinking abt death. Only death yg boleh free us from the routine..

Ok .. for me aku dh checklist dah semua 3 symptom tu. Kadang2 aku saja feedkan myself yg what I have currently is OK sebab i just scared of failure but I know i want more than that... at least for my career. And yet when see people gain victory for their dreams, I envy them .. but I still here do nothing. At some point I noticed myself cut communication from people that I think, I will envy their victory.... Initially I thought that was a good of me to avoid jealousy but after a thorough thinking,  it just a coward in me yg x nak want the same thing because I just scared of chasing it. And i dont know my dreams either. It seems to be the same for life and my career. And I even dah become cruel to people and myself. arghhhhh.... I need to get out from this.

Udo Oil

While having dinner at friend's place, one of them cerita pasal one oil yg boleh reduce cholestrol.. When I heard can reduce cholestrol, i like wahh .. what is it .. what is it. Ye la cholestrol tinggi kan. Then bila dia tunjuk oil tu and nk kena minum oil tu, aku mcm .. emmm emmm .. xpe la.. I pass. But bila dia cakap the oil is good for skin, aku terus ok.. nak beli kat mana .. ahahahahha. I dont even listen to why the oils is good and how it can help your skin ke or cholestrol ke. Yg aku sempat dengar sebab dia cold pressed, oil rosak kalau panas2 etc.. lepas tu dah terbayang mcm iklan tv kulit selembut bayi...
Hhahaha

Anyway, last week aku beli and aku dah start makan dekat seminggu. Rasa dia blekkk .. tapi lama2 ok. Mcm ada rasa nutty2 sket. Masa tgh google, i found one website yg cakap if u take that oils with lots of vege, you can also lose weight but if u take with carbo, you gain weight... Uhuhuhu apakah.. nanti kulit cantik, naik berat badan lak.. ishk iskh.. So aku decide, to see the effect, i willing to reduce my rice intake.. So bermula regim makan nasi segengam je.

Tapi so far tak nampak la kesan yg menakjubkan..kulit masih begitu juwa .. :(... Akan kuteruskan perjuangan ni sampai sebulan. But I noticed, I can run slight longer in the morning after take the oil. Sesapa yg nak try boleh la..

Getting updates

My friend call and cakap dah lama x tau what happen in my life.. So asked me to cerita la .. I like .. emm emm .. nak cerita apa ekk. That time mcm takde benda nak cerita. I have to think hard what to cerita.. really mcm xde benda je. Last week, we went for lunch. Aku ni tak easy bercerita ngn org yg suam2 kuku but bila dah rapat tu ha .. semua pun nk cerita. So when having lunch, rasa dah rapat balik, so aku mcm simply ckp la thing yg happen in my life recently but dia x nk dgr pun. Kekadang aku wonder, does ppl think human update ni mcm IOS update.. bila nk update click update.. For me, knowing ppl is like investment. There is no a shortcut. If u want to know abt the person, you need to spend ur time. It come with everything .. if u can't listen to small2 rambling, don't hope to know ppl life.  Just check my facebook for my updates. It will be faster.

My dream watch

Dulu suka tengok jam Tag Heuer.. Terpikir bila la boleh afford beli jam ni. Tapi x pernah buat apa2.. Recently tetiba rasa mcm nak buat target dlm hidup n kalau berjaya nak reward diri ngn jam ni. hahahah .. tapi aku nye plan utk reward kasut unisa pun x berjaya lagi :(.

The CON Man

Remember abt my friend yang kena tipu masa nak sewa rumah dulu . Refer to my old post . Yesterday my friend tag me in a facebook comment pasal kes penipuan kat Puchong. It similar and guess what ... orang yang sama .. Yes .. sama .. and my friend dulu kena tipu dekat CNY and this couple pun sama gak. And guess what... at the same times pun ada another couple yang kena. So ni adalah IC tipu dia.. So everyone sila la sebarkan .. 

Ni plak cerita tahun ni 

Welcome 2013

Wow ..time fly  quite fast and now we entering 2013. Although 2012 is a fast one but looking back.. it does has lots of thing happen. Last year is the start of so many thing .. i opened my own business although it seems to be more to hobby than getting money but I just love it and happy with it. It was one of the day that I'm looking forward to. I also officially public mutual agent although my first customer pun tak lepas2 lagi nih but I'm happy doing it as it force me to learn other thing. Something that I never care when I become customer.  I also  start running for 17km and 21km.. and looking forward to complete at least a full marathon in 2013 .. i hope. And guess what ... finally i learn how to put make up although it still messy but at least I'm not shy to put it on and so far nobody ask me if I'm sick ( maybe ada kot but more on talk at the back  -- gile nye pompuan ni make up.. mcm mata panda). Thanks to friends who always give the support for all to happen. Besides that I have addition a new family member when my sister get hitch last Oct. Now officially only me yg masih single in the family .. huhhuu...  Overall I think I did grow a bit mentally and not to mention also physically throughout the year.

Among those yg happen, one thing that I dont really enjoy but somehow it give the biggest impact in my life is running...  Dont get me wrong .. i do enjoy the companionship .. the milo drink or the practise  cum bfast trip that we do  but to run 3 hours is sooo boring .. and not to mention kepenatan bangun pagi and after effect. But through running it teach me that as long as you believe .. you can do it. Looking at myself.. last 2 years I can't even run for 5 mins. Ppl who running .. i alway tie it to those ex-athlete .. and now i run for 3 hours .. although masih kura2 and not run all the way but it really achievement to me. Along the way I also see ppl are suffering to finish the run but yet they try and keep try and try to complete it.. Somemore,  I just love my buddy run - ejah, nena and raf  for their commitment  and their strong will to compete it. They give me motivation to step further and further each year. 2013 we plan for Sabah jungle marathon. I hope we can make it :).
If you know me so well, I always had this mindset that some ppl might have a genetic of winner  .. (yes i know life is unfair on one side .. but pls see from both side) ... but running prove to me perseverance will always paid off.
I hope 2013 will fill up with new stufff and also new improvement on the old stuff.. Looking forward to 2013.. I dont have any specific resolution .. I just want to become a better person from 2012. Happy New Year ..