University life

I read an article saying due to increase cost, nowadays most of student only eat once a day. Although it most probably true but sometimes i felt people didnt know they priority. I have my own experience in university. My late father stop working when i just finish SPM. We literally has no family income as my mum only housewife. My elder brother is an army but he has his own family to handle and being a normal army he dont earn that much either. My elder sister get married before i start my university time and she also a housewife. I still remember my first semester yuran was paid using my sister's wedding duit hulur. She dont take it for honeymoon or use for her stuff but instead my mom take it to pay for my yuran. At that time it was around rm1800. I survived my first semester with my own saving before i got my jpa scholar. Jpa didnt pay much either but it enough for me to buy a meal, nasi, ayam, sayur which cost me max rm2.50. So total i spend rm5 for food everyday. Although some ppl complaint not enough but for me it more than enough that i can still buy some books ( not only photocopy books but real book), watch movie once or twice a semester and go out maybe once a month. During my time, still got people complain not enough and still got people starve. Why? I cannot deny there is some who are kind   enough, send some money back home. I dont need to do that because my mum got her own saving to put food on the table for my younger sis n bro and when my younger brother enter utm, he join palapes which he earn some money to cater his better n richer life. So how do i manage it with that jpa money. 

1. I don't have mobile phone. At that time the famous is alcatel. Although it so tempting but after i count the initial investment and monthly investment to op up the credit, i know i just can't have it. I phoneless for my entire 4 years. 

2. I dont own transport. I dont need to pour petrol. I took university bus when i was stay outside and i walked when i stay inside. 

3. I decide to stay inside after 1 semester try livibg outside. Money flow like water when u live outside. The reason because the daily eat outside and roti tissue. It increase my daily meals for something that not important. Utility bills as well. 

4. I dont fall into the addictive of chatting. At my time, chatting or mirc is a big huha. Who dont want to chat and make new friend? . I calculate and the amount of money to spend on internet is something i cannot bear. My first year roomate spend almost daily in internet cafe and starve as the money spend on that

5. I eat inside university and most of time opt for nasi campur. Reason because it cheaper and i can mix the gravy to make it something that nice. I dont buy chocolate for my snacks and i rarely buy sweet drinks. 

My final year roommate do almost some like what i done above except she has her own mobile phone. She also dont have money problem. So i think most of the time, eating outside is the killer. In intel, i also eat inside because it hot outside. One meals in 4.50 - one chicken, 2 vege n rice. I guess university food should be around that price. 

Of course outside food is way nicer, able to eat mc donald whenever i want is nicer, snacking chocolatd rather than biscuit kering is nicer, watch movie every week is nicer, able to hang out with friend every night at mamak also nice, able to sms your friend abt gossip, abt homework is nice, has your own transport also nice, but as i dont want to work or rather lazy to work n i dont want to join palapes either, so i have to stop all my desire. When my niece was accepted to university, my bro actually concern abt how much money that is enough for her. I told him, just with jpa or ptptn should be enough if she know how to spend wisely. But my younger bro said, kak mah lain la. Kak mah nerd. Yes it my choice to be nerd to reduce all the cost. I cut lots of thing during my university. Naturely i like to go out but i have to keep that down and replace by walking around utm faculty. During a stress time or after exam, i just buy a connetto and walk around either go to different college or go different faculty. Sometimes i go to my friend's room and hang out there which some of my roomate find it a bit annoying as i stay out longer than in my room. Hahahah i'm very sorry for cause any issue in the past.  That's my way to enjoy little life that i have with the little money that i have. To be honest, it wasnt something i 100% proud as well. If given opportunity to rewind the time, i dont know if i will do differently by taking a part time job, so i can use that money to experience other activity because looking back, i dont earn much life experience during uni time. But for sure i wont whine abt ptptn not enough as i'm pretty sure it enough if we really do the basic what need to do to get a degree. I tried that. Yes. My time is like 15 years ago but at that time some ppl also suffer because they spend money on unneccesery thing but dont want to earn more money to cater for that. If you cannot handle your university life where most of you dont have another mouth utk kasik makan, how can you survive working life. The temptation is even bigger.  

Blue ball

I was waiting in front of traffic light and saw a blue ball bergolek2 at the other lane. There lots of reason why the ball should not be there.  It getting dark in a few hours and ppl might not see it. And it a ball which are not static so wind can make it move. Even if all above not happening, some one might be less alert and didn't see the ball.  I know in my heart i have to go out and take the ball else someone might bump into accident. But somehow it took me 5 mins to think abt it. I afraid if i go out later the traffic light become green and ppl will honk me la. I scared later ppl didnt see me and langgar me while i take the ball la. But when i think abt it, the real reason is indifference. The ball does not cause me any trouble but might be someone else. So why must i do extra work to take the ball. Yeah.  At that moment i felt no different with people who just keep quiet when they see innocent ppl being killed or being bullies or when they turn over their back when a ship full of refugee come to ask for help. Yes. No different. Slowly i take off my seat belt and run towards that ball. It just took less than a minutes and nothing harm happen to me. It a small achievement but at least a step to a better huminity. And i'm wrong. It does impact me. I felt better knowing i might save someone from accident. And i know i will feel regret if i didnt take the ball and tmrw i heard in news someone father passed away in accident bcos of the ball. 

Believe in god?

I was reading a news on the interfaith dialog that happen recently. The writer also raised how this different from uitm seminar that discuss abt threat of Christianisation in malaysia. After reading this article, i have my me time thinking abt this from my car park to my house. To be honest sometimes i felt most people confuse between christian/judaism with the secular. I personally felt that all this 3 religion islam, christian and judaism has almost 90% similar. That 10% different mostly with regards to the main person in the religion itself - prophet muhammad saw and jesus. These religion has the same concept of believing god, compassion, kindness, and not to forget history of war. Most of what we muslim felt as sin is the same sin that list down in christian or jewish's book.  At the same time i also dont agree if christian pointing finger to us said islam is spread using sword. History shows christian involved in lots of war as well. When i was in scotland it was said that mackinsey indirectly kill 18k of people that didnt believe in christian that he believe. Does religion to be  blame? 

I once talk to a friend who dont believe in God. For him what i felt is God creation is just nature. What i felt is God comforting me just a nature thing inside you that know thing will be ok. When i give how complete our body system compare to thing that we design, for him maybe God did create the first starter but now is all just nature. Why he want to bother to god that dont have anything to do with  his life now. Yeah, it hard conversation.  We dont have any conclusion at the end. People believe what the want to believe. 

 I think the main threat of islam is very near to us and it not christian. I'm not sure how to label it but it all arround us. Advertisement, Instagram, facebook , tv are all the main source. It draw us to that all the deadly sin like proud, jealousy, greed, gossip. And we do it everyday without feel wrong abt it. When i step at my hse door, it even cross my mind, last week the whole country is talking abt GV. And almost all muslim was watching  except those like me who dont have astro. Don't get me wrong. If i got astro i also will watch. Hahhahaaha. Does that a correct thing?

Anyway, after change to my house attire, i switch on tv and watch perception.You  know the interesting was, yesterday story is abt a guy that can hear god voice and a family that believe in God vs the Dr that dont believe in God. Interesting ar? Is this really nature or God interfere? I do have more story which what i felt is god visibilty in my life but will share next time. For me, all the thing that happen to me, it cannot be the nature alone. How the nature even know abt what happen to your life vs the other's life. How one life is connected to help each other. Someone must know all this details. Nature is like random generator but not God. Everything happen for a reason 

Plan vs action

I just came back from vacation and my house need serious clean up. So when i step at my door, the plan was to wash clothes, fold, and keep the clothes in closet. Clean all the dust, mop and wash the balcony. At night will change bedsheet so i can wash tmrw. Now it 2am but what i accomplish only wash n fold clothes. They still at my living room. Ohh . Dont know where all the times go. I'm pretty sure i have lots of it when i step on the door but now my bed is calling for me. Hello mr time... R u running away from me? Please dont leave me. 

Islamophobia?

One of things that bothered me a bit before i travel was this islamophobia thingy. Just a week before i departed, isis decided to attack france. Good timing ya.  Then all the islamophobia status start flooding my facebook newsfeed. One girl being pushed to underground, taxi driver cannot get passenger, someone being denied entrance on the bus etc etc. To be honest i am a bit worried. By wearing a scarf, i'm declaring myself as muslim publicly and if all this islamophobia is happening, i can be the target. Scary ya as 30% of my travel will be alone. To be caution, i did bring a snow cap just incase i need to "disguise" myself. However this 2 weeks experience doesnt give me any bad experience. Someone still willing to offer to take my luggage up in the bus. No additional stare or what so ever while i am walking in the street. Some stranger still stop and talked to me while i was walking in edinburgh. People still sit beside me in the bus. It doesnt really look like what being shared in facebook. Funny ya.  Someone told me during the iceland trip. If you read/watch the news, you will start scared, hate/judgemental to others but when you start knowing them, it wasnt that bad after all. I guess it true. Same thing like malay chinese issue in malaysia. If you read what being shared, you see how kiasu chinese want to take over malaysia and left malay starving and how stupid and ignorant a malay can be, how easy a malay life everything also got discount. But once we be friend and know each other, they just someone' son/daughther that worry abt the parents or someone's parent that worry abt their kids and a malaysian that worry abt their country.   Sometimes news is good to give us a broader view but nowadays the news is more to ppl opinion rather than facts. 

Iceland in glance

OI was in Edinburgh before fly to iceland. There are too many war history and power struggle seen in Edinburgh. Even most homeless will carry a cardboard stating they are army previously. At least from my view, edinburgh seems to be proud with their army. Things are way different in iceland. They dont have army. Yes, they do hv war history. They fought their independent from denmark. One of our guide said, army is not to protect people but to retain power. Why we need them. Which i think is true. They really trustworthy and it kind of open. You can go to any private area without risk being shoot. Most of ppl are less judgemental.  They really promote equality between man and woman. Woman didnt hv to carry their husband family name like in normal western culture. They have thefirst  female prime minister. Really iceland exceed my expectation even in winter. It a beautiful country with beautiful heart. Wait for me summer!!!

German??

One of thing i want to do before 40 is to learn new language. I tried Mandarin before and stop at listening the caset. I tried arabic before but my arabic attempt fall down at the same time when Penang flyover fall down. My reason is jam but God knows what the real reason. Sigh.. Me and language always can't get along. I struggled my english since school. I remember getting E during form 1 and drag down all my results. I don't understand the question at all and I'm guessing based on the letter what i should write. That 5 years is a struggle and thanks to my teacher at least i have incremental improvement and managed to get A2 during SPM. But it still struggle especially when i tried to get scholarship after SPM. My results allowed me to get all the interview but i totally fail during interview. I don't know how to speak my mind. Even in BM i have the same struggle and plus you need to converse in English. Double failure. I entered all the interviewed with a wonder. Not wondering what the question i will get but wonder how bad i will humiliating myself. It all past.. and of course i didn't get any of them :).  Now even i still struggle especially to speak with foreigner but at least it wasn't so bad. I can hold a meeting with them and speak my mind. Although lots of time they ask me to repeat slowly :). It kind of long 20 years++ journey.
N now i have to do with another language .. fainted.  Anyway it a challenge i put myself. Yesterday out of sudden, germany come to my mind. So i decided, my next language will be german. Yes!!!!. I decided. Hope i have the will to continue. I registered for the class d.. it kind of expensive. Hopefully i able to commit and not wasting my money. Please please... give me the will and determination to finish it.

Chasing Aurora??

yeahhh .. Another travel. This time i'm going to somewhere not even in my plan .. hahahaha.. I don't like winter.. Cold , wet .. and it so depressing. But today i'm on the way to Scotland.. and Iceland!!!... It funny how life turn back on you. In 2010 i was on customer visit to germany. Otw, the flight divert and stop at rome. It all due to volcanic ash. I don't care which volcano .. but it make me stranded. I made one decision that I regret till now. Not staying in ROME!!!. I get into the next available bus to Frankfurt. It tiring dunno how many hours of travel but i made it to Fra.. If i'm not so dedicate to my work, i can enjoy the pasta more. Anyway, while reading abt iceland, i got to know they have several volcano and quite active. One of it has a erupt  and cause major flight crisis.. Wait.... i check the time when the eruption happens.. it April 2010.. coincident with my customer visit.. So here u are... I'm going to see you. So what the big deal right, u think? For me, it just bring me the memory back.. and how ur life is connect to each other.
Even this iceland trip wasn't initially my plan. A friend plan for it  somewhere in July/Aug after seeing some advertisement pop up. At that time i check the calendar and i know i can't make it. I have project crunch time during that period.. But suddenly a months back, my project is cancelled. When i heard abt it, i straight check the flight ticket. I want to go for a month break. i was so greedy i want to g everywhere.. Paris, Iceland, london, Egypt.. hahahah.. But i ended shorten my leave.. so here scotland and iceland !!!!

Wish List

I noticed that i had fullfill my previous wishlist but yet only strike through one items that i want to do before 40. Zoom in and i realize that my wishlist were material based where it need only money while what i want to do before 40 include my determination. Hahahah .. that why only one that is done. Emm ... sigh. I removed all the old wishlist and add new one that more meaningful (errr) and removed all my wanna be like learn how to jahit (hello .. i only wear baju kurung twice a year n dont even like to jahit) dunno why  i want to do it before 40. Hopefully with more me and more realistic target ... all will be done .. hahahha

Addicted

I'm an addict d. Addict to korean drama. Sighhh. Dont feel it good to me as it cause me lack of sleep. Yesterday was worst. I sleep at 2 on previous night n wake up at 6.30. Continue again til 8.30am. Drank coffee to avoid sleepiness n i dehydrated till night due to strong coffee n lacks of sleep. I can felt my body weak. Planned to hv dinner and sleep but while having dinner , i gatai g play one episod and without i can control, i watch again till 2. Argh. I hv spends like numerous hours watching this drama and not planning for my trip. Once this births lf beauty finish, i plan to leave my hard disk in office. Arggh.

Happy?

I love the below photo. I think i look happy :). Sometimes u doesnt need thousand dollar holiday. Just some close friends. 

Jealousy??

I was wonder abt something last week and forgot abt it because it very hard for me to classify what is it when reading it. But today i saw similar thing and i got my answer. last week while wasting my time browsing facebook, i saw whatsapp capture of experiment done by some 2nd year upm student. What happen is they tell their parents yg they want to get married and see how the parents reaction. It quite funny and most comment is abt that response of parents/family except for one whatsapps screen shot. This capture shows the girl are telling the mom in mixed english bm conversation and guess what, the comment is abt her english usage instead of the response from her mom. The netizen is commenting how come she used the word "i n friend" if she mmg converse in english. Like seriously? Is that what u only see? And today this article really prove, the old jealousy on neighbour buy new furniture, new curtain has leverage to different standard. Sigh. 

http://www.ohbulan.com/niat-hanya-ingin-bantu-ayah-hilang-barang-di-facebook-tapi-akhirnya-dihentam-netizen-kerana/

72 virgin.. Seriously?

I had teh tarik session with my colleague and somehow one of topic that was brought out was abt Malaysia being a place to train ISIS. it kind of shock and to be honest i don't believe it as Malaysian that i knew doesn't hv that much courage. If indonesian, will be slight different because indonesian has lots of darah pendekar. One of things that my colleague said, keep pop up to my little brain.. Something abt the promise of 72 virgin. It might be a joke but i think some ppl really think this is what motivate the terrorism. I hv googled both, 72 virgin and also Malaysia being place for training ISIS. i cant find anything on the latter one but the number of malaysia being recruited by ISIS is way higher than other terrorism organisation which of course alarming. Is Malaysian turn to those violent ppl? Surprisingly, i found out the way ppl being recruited in ISIS is slight different from other organisation which mostly required lots of fighter to jihad through war. For ISIS they promoting a state, a government that suppose to be free from corruption and a state that suppose to be mimic how Rasulullah rule the country. Being in the current Malaysia's situation where corruption is everywhere, hatred against different race n religion being seeded in most of ppl, don't you think some ppl are losing their hope (me) and will try to look for better opportunity. Some, mostly non Malay decided to migrate to western country in any opportunity they have because it better than malaysia while some muslim felt western country are not suitable for them n decide to migrate to the "new state". Sometimes when u felt drowning, u will just grab any rope that being throw to you and later only found out the who the devil behind the rope.

Another interesting thing abt ISIS is the brotherhood. Loneliness is a curse. Nobody like to be alone and sometimes ppl will do anything for the sense of belonging. ISIS promote brotherhood. You like having new family when u joining them, someone who you can share your fear, your thought and also your happiness. I read somewhere, everyday after "work" they will drink n hv dinner together and the girl will also gather among themselves. With all this new offering from terrorism organisation, we need to more human in order to save them. It not just by catching them. It obviously not the 72 virgin that motivate them. I know most guys mind are crooked with sex but this virtual 72 virgin is no way any winner to ppl heart, (although i wonder if a real(worldly) 72 virgin will give any different :p )

Bersih .. Sehati sejiwa

If i'm the Bersih organizer, i will propose to change bersih 4.0 to bersih sehati sejiwa. Not only it fit the merdeka theme this year, it also show how we want to be sehati sejiwa fighting for a better life in malaysia. I wonder if it change name, will merdeka theme still be sehati sejiwa. Sometimes in order to hv bigger win, you hv to let ppl get win something right? 

I show u if u show urs

The current politic in malaysia is so depressing. Reading the current news and feel so geram. It funny that bn said they will show their financial statement if pr show their. Not only that is a chilidish statement. The fact that they have that 2.6bil donation to umno but deposit to najib acc rather then umno acc make "i show my acc if u show acc" a merely opera show. Do they able to show not only umno/bn acc but the entire member acc as well. We never know if there another donation park at other ppl's acc. Even sd to declare mp's wealth also they can't do it and now another promise? Sick sick sick and it suck having a feeling we dont hv hope anymore!!!!!

Merapu lagi

Was reading this book abt a girl twin.  How her sister seems to be more of everything.. More beautiful, more grace, more socialable, doesnt cry a lot during baby etc etc. Even the guy that she secretly like fall in love with the sister and want to marry her sister. Sometimes i wonder if i can go through life of being compare to someone much better then me in my entire life. People always say, everyone has they own beauty and special in their own way but I think only some really mean it. Most of the time people will put some reference to what they think we should become. People admire beauty.

Religion as a way out?

When my niece was 2-3 yo, she love to conteng the wall. So when her mom( my sister) caught her, she will put the innocent face and said mickey mouse mak mickey mouse. It melted my sister 's heart and of course x jadi marah. She get away with that innnocent cute face.  There lots of way to get away from something you do. For girl, crying seems to be the best way. Hahahah. Anyway , noticed that our beloved leader start to use islam in most of his speech. Seems they found the magic word to escape from everything. At this time, i wish i can draw a cartoon. 

Endless

Went to a good friend wedding in sabah last weekend. A very nice wedding and the couple look very happy looking at each other's. During all the free style photo session, you can really see their happiness. I hope n i pray may Allah bless this wedding and may both of them have a nice and happy journey together. 

I took a day of just to unwind myself. Went to a beach.. A very nice view but somehow looking at the endless sea give me that deep lonely and scary feeling..

Stop stop

I woke up at 6.30 and decide to start my day early but i start browse facebook and decide to put a hard stop at 7. But then i start browsing ig plak. Iskhh and when i search for vivy yusof, i just knew i going to waste another time. But it still continue. And then faizdickie plak. Arghh. Why i have so less self control. By the time i finish, it 7.38. Hour has been wasted. What i get? Just another shopping crave .. Cantik la skirt tu.  :( 

Late?

A colleague told me abt his friend that passed away last year. He asked to google her name and i come cross this blog. Somehow reading this portion of blog struck me. I felt the similarity. Me too, most of the time the reason for what i do is feeling responsibility rather than enjoy it. I dont want to end like her to start when her body didnt allow her to continue any further. I spend my day last night wandering nothing. I feel even worst after that. Arghhh... I wonder if i dont have any rules n flow what i will do? Will i just staring at the blank screen? Or will i enjoy my life to the fullest. It something i so want to figure out. But will i have courage to do it?  I spend 6 months after my spm literally doing nothing which i dont remember as the best time of my life either. So will i become like last time? Have i grow to be something better so this time it wont be the same?

Hajj ... the journey

I never been to mecca. So haven't done the umrah or the hajj. To be honest, i dont have strong urge to do it yet. Hajj is the last pillar of islam. By complete it means i have completed checklist all 5 pillar of islam but yet i still struggle with the other pillar. Zakat is the easiest one. Maybe i still feel it more ritual then spiritual. The hardest is solat and fasting. Actually solat is hardest. Fasting as it is not eating n drinking is ok. But to fast from other form of lust n sin is hardest. I like gossip very much. I struggle to hate it. The hatred, the anger all is so hard to throw it away. For solat there are so much struggle that i hv. Struggle to be aware what i recite every solat, struggle to pray at the early time, struggle to enjoy the solat as it is a gift rather than obligation. Sigh. So having all this struggle, to be honest i feel  scared of doing hajj. I told my friend i scared to see the dark side of people but to think abt it, i sacred of the struggle and  i know i'm not ready. Even in a place where i can do my prayer anytime n how many time i want but my heart are sway to other thing :(. Hajj is a journey and really hope i can embark a real spritual journey with it not just ritual. Not something that i do and didnt get any impact after that.  I want a journey that i appreciate and can change me to a better person. That will be the strong enclose to my islam pillar. 

Wah. Actually i want to write abt something else. Hahaha. As we in 1mdb mode, so i want to pen down my disagreement of the concept of using 1mdb money to fund imam or bilal or pkk for hajj. Shouldn't hajj is individual struggle? I know a nasi lemak seller in my kg who sell nasi lemak n save the money n use it that money for hajj. Wouldnt that is sweeter journey n sacrifice?  1mdb is tax payor money n ppl are not happy of how it being use. I dont know if the money is consider halal or not and we using it for the pillar of islam. If we build a house with a weak n vague pillar, it so easy to wipe off by tsunami. 

Is this a real life... Is this fantacy

Reading news on jakim stand for 1mdb. Funny.. It just remind me one of sign of last hour

“Religious knowledge would disappear”, since the rightly-guided scholars of Islam are demonized, marginalized, “banned”, or declared to be “great security risks”. Only those scholars who can skillfully skip and dance to the tunes of those who control power are allowed the unfettered freedom to preach a sanitized cosmetic version of Islam acceptable to the godless rulers of the world. Institutions of Islamic learning are forced to submit to the control of those waging war on Islam. If they do not submit, they are shut down. Foreign students are prohibited from studying Islam in certain so-called Islamic Republics

Bila Waktu Telah Berakhir

There is this new thing - apple music where u can listen to all song in itunes with some monthly subscription and for now, they give 3 month free trial. You can actually download those song and listen offline instead of streaming it. Not sure what happen to song u download offline if you decide to terminate the subscription. So i registered my self and it quite cool actually.. Just click2 and download without feeling guilty of download pirated song and the quality is good. Anyway, one of the artist that i download is Opick.

I was driving back when suddenly this song played on my phone.. I literally cry and feel really sad. Not sure am I just emotional but I just felt life is so short and time will end soon yet my journey to find my self and my creator is still at the starting line. Maybe too many sudden death recently on very young ppl, my friend's colleague, my bro in law's cousin, my friend's husband. It can be me and it can be you.... Maybe today.. or maybe tomorrow.. what we have achieve?



 

Do you even care?

By Time. Indeed man is in loss, except those who have faith and do righteous deeds, and enjoin one another to [follow] the truth, and enjoin one another to patience.

Islam is a community religion whereby not only we have to do good but we also have to encourage others to do good as well.. This somehow being used by many to justified hollier-than-thou attitude. This recent Farah Ann case is one of the example. Rather that focusing on her gold, some ppl use a bad word and condemn abt her clothes rather. The funny thing is, if she didn't win anything, nobody will care although it's a common knowledge what a women gymnas's look like. So i wonder, does ppl comment to encourage ppl do good because they care.. or they just jealous someone doing something or rather achieving something with their life? Even to compare hereafter achievement, for someone to utter bad thing abt others openly till it can embarrassed the other person , it shows u don't have a good heart, so i don't understand why those ppl think they are better than others.. sigh

Life is so fragile

Death of a few hikers kat kinabalu mount really shocked me... I still remember, when we decided to hike kinabalu, never did we thought death will one of the risk. The most is lack of oxigen which may bring to death but we dont heard any cases yet. It's an easy path where your determination most matter. And i'm pretty sure, all those hiker hv similar thought like me. Almost none might think, kinabalu mount will be their deathbed. :( .  When their parents, family, and friends send them to airport i dont think they know that will be their last time to see each other. Life is so unpredicted. 

On other occassion, my friend's 3 year old son just passed away due to dengue. In penang, especially in my area dengue is like a norm. My neighbour front n side all hv been warded due to dengue this year. My friend's friend who just come from another country cought dengue in less than a month. Is like a trend and so far i dont hear any death until my friends's son passed away. He n his wife didnt expect that either.  It a shock and heart broken news. 

It can be me in both case. Life is so fragile. Few months back i close to misdiagnose for some illness. It really worry to be honest. The most worry me is to find out i want to do with my life if i really diagnose with that illness. Some of me thought, i should just leave everything n travel while partial of me want to stay to earn money or at least let my company pay for my hospital expenses. Pathetic isnt it. ? I still can't find the answer even untill now. 

Some logic. Medical treatment may help to prolong life but why we need a longer life? This is question that keep lingering i my head and i still cant find answer

1. To hv better life- will it better if u hv to work 7-7 and some during weekends too? Is like a robot that just execute daily work. Something need to change. 

2. To serve Allah- what really i do? Will lengthen my life bring me closer or bring me further? How to make me closer. 

3. To start hv meaningfull life? What is meaningfull? How you measure it?

4. to ensure my loved one is ok? 

Most beautiful view

Just comeback from vacation. It's a very nice break. It sooo beautiful. I took like tonnes of photos!!! It either the place or the gopro but i hv the most selfie or groupie photos in my entire life. I just  noticed something abt myself, i'm a nature type of person. Woods excite me more than old building... My adrenaline pumping when i see the road to the wood shades with green. I just want to stay there forever. Walk n walk n walk or looking through the lake.  Last time a friend asked me if i prefer to live near the sea or near the waterfall. At that time my answer is sea because i'm afraid jungle n animal. Emm it either i didnt know myself or i have change 180. I love lake every much. Maybe someday i want to buy hse near a lake n grow old there. 

Anyway something emm strange or miracle or weird .. I dunno know the correct words to describe what happen to me. While planning for journey, being a stubborn n greedy , i route the journey from frankfurt to vienna n return back to fra. As the train tix was cheap i bought the train from vienna to fra like a month back.  A friend was against it as too many place to cover in short period but as the tix has been bought and no refund can be made, i reluctant to change. Somehow while in germany, the train from vienna to fra was cancelled due to driver strike and i get refund. So yeah!!! We can spend more time in hallsatt which is beautiful. Although we has to make a detour back to munich n some changes on itinerary but i guess it for a better thing.  Then while Hallstatt i was walking alone to find the nice waterfall. It suppose to be 3 hrs walk. As i was walking, it start raining. I walked further n rain become heavier until my umbrella want to fly out. I decide to make a u turn back to town. I waited till the rain stop and start making my way back. Otw to toilet i stop at the "i" just to confirm my route. It happens that i took the wrong turn. If it wasn't because of rain, not sure where i ended. I guess prayers from my dear mum n friend really count. Thanks !!

Ignorant??

Reading recent comment on ahmad maslan to dr m really make me rasa x puas hati. If he said the rakyat x paham gst is one thing but he said dr m x paham gst. Hey dude.. that guys has ruling Malaysia for long enough to understand Malaysia culture. He know, everytime something increase, it will always hv ripple effect. Even discounting how seller react to gst, pure calculation show the price is higher. So far only car is reduce. Do we buy car everyday?  A nasi lemak seller has to pay her bills. All this additional gst that being imposed to the water bills, electrical bill, credit card etc, where do u think she can fork the money from? From family legacy? She dont hv yearly increment or  increment like what recently propose for MB. She has to increase the price to sustain her life. When i said life, not everyday eating outside life but normal eating in life. I dont think only rich ppl pay bills... Its everyone dude unless somehow ur bill is being paid by us.. gst has been round for near 1 month. I dont see any price go down on daily items that i hv to buy or pay. None.  Please for a second think.. think before u say anything. And i just dont understand why u said goverment sponsor us while all the while, goverment itself are build upon taxpayor n country's  resources. You are being paid by our money dude. Please work smart ok. Then only reason why most ppl are ok on gst is because we know government are broke. Broke. N this the only way to avoid government from bankcrupt. But if government  keep spending without thinking like the money is your privilleage, even if you hv golden goose, it will be doom. I'm so regret i didnt go back on the last election. I'm partial guilty to make stupid ppl lead the country. Shame to pontian ppl. 

Factory Reset Table from China

My niece has a tablet from China. She enabled the pattern security but ended forgot what her pattern. So during CNY, she asked me to fix it. I googled and had lots of information but at the end only one way work for me. So here I'm listing what have I done

1. Reset using google ID. --> Not working. It mention need to have internet connection. Although we have wifi connected, it still not working.The same user ID & paswrd is OK to log in on PC.
2. Some websites asked to press  power button + volume to enter DOS like environment and do factory reset --> Not working for this tablet. Only highend android. Check this link for multiple combination of resetting your tablet
3. Using Android MultiTool --> Worked but with slight changes on driver installation. I can't install the driver using  any of this method. . However I found a good guide. Install driver from Samsung: SAMSUNG USB Driver v1.5.33.0.The restart. Then go to device manager and look for Android device. Update the driver manually. Choose from Samsung USB driver -->ADB interface. It work perfectly. Once the driver has been installed, open Android multitool. Type :1, check if u can detect the device. Then Type 5 to wipe off the data. All set to go

Please note : The main thing, this Android multitool need to detect ADB device

Kubahagia

Was listening song and suddenly lagu Ku bahagia pop up. Tetiba teringat zaman drive balik Johor with my sister. I will play AADC kaset and the song will keep on repeated until we reached Johor. It was fun and happy time.. Lately it has been a while since I been on long road trip.... I longing for one :(.. It has been long time I didn't travel with my younger sis.. Missed those time.